fuckkkkk meee
I really, really like him. I like that he's asleep in my bed. I like how he treats me. I like his face. I like his voice. I like him. A lot.
So I'm fucking scared. A lot. I don't want to like someone so much again so soon.
Fuck, he's just so god damned pretty. And so god damned sweet to me.
This shouldn't feel so wrong. Because it's one of the most right things to ever happen to me. I'm convincing myself otherwise but I know I'm lying.
I have a feeling this is just what I need, but I'm too scared to let myself be completely okay in this. This is chicken shit garbage five year old throw up. Hi, I've got a crush, I'm five years old. I like boys. fjgbsdjvbsv I'm dating someone new.
I'm dating someone new.
It hardly sinks in that the term 'boyfriend' is now associated with someone new. That being in a relationship doesn't mean putting up with a drug addict directionless fuck. Being in a relationship now means arguing over who pays for sushi for the third night in a row and hogging covers and never getting any work done cos I can't drag myself out of bed even though I've been laying in it for four hours already with him.
I like it. I like it so much that I don't want to. I'm so scared. I like him so much.
Why can't this be okay? It feels so comfortable it makes me uncomfortable.
I fawn! I fucking fawn! I hate fawning! I am a pile of warm fluffy mush with kittens and I FUCKING FAWN.
I hate myself!
But I like you so god damned much! fuck!
So I'm fucking scared. A lot. I don't want to like someone so much again so soon.
Fuck, he's just so god damned pretty. And so god damned sweet to me.
This shouldn't feel so wrong. Because it's one of the most right things to ever happen to me. I'm convincing myself otherwise but I know I'm lying.
I have a feeling this is just what I need, but I'm too scared to let myself be completely okay in this. This is chicken shit garbage five year old throw up. Hi, I've got a crush, I'm five years old. I like boys. fjgbsdjvbsv I'm dating someone new.
I'm dating someone new.
It hardly sinks in that the term 'boyfriend' is now associated with someone new. That being in a relationship doesn't mean putting up with a drug addict directionless fuck. Being in a relationship now means arguing over who pays for sushi for the third night in a row and hogging covers and never getting any work done cos I can't drag myself out of bed even though I've been laying in it for four hours already with him.
I like it. I like it so much that I don't want to. I'm so scared. I like him so much.
Why can't this be okay? It feels so comfortable it makes me uncomfortable.
I fawn! I fucking fawn! I hate fawning! I am a pile of warm fluffy mush with kittens and I FUCKING FAWN.
I hate myself!
But I like you so god damned much! fuck!