Sigh
Today is very unproductive. All I really want to do is curl up under a blanket and sleep, like all day. Or go ride. Weird extremes, I know. I'd be gone to the barn already but Captain's being used for lessons tonight, or maybe it was at lunch time, I don't remember. Either way though, he's already been ridden today. Maybe I'll go up tomorrow.
I need to stop procrastinating and write my Metamorphasis paper and then type up some stuff for Lit, but I just don't want to. The typing stuff I need to do. The paper is not due 'till Tuesday, but I'd like to get it done and turned in early. I think I'm starting to get burned out and bad. Two AP classes is absolute hell, suicide really. I come home everyday and sleep for an hour to an hour and a half. I need to just skip and spend all day at the barn or something. I hate when I'm in this sort of mood. I feel needy and wanting to cuddle someone and at the same time, it totally repulses me. I REALLY need to call in my Rx and get rid of these stupid mood swings. When I'm on BC, they aren't near this severe and occasionally are non-existent.
THANK GOD Fetzner isn't planning anything tomorrow as we don't have school on Valentines day(duh). I moderately detest valentines day, it makes me feel awkward. If you like someone, shouldn't you like them everyday? and not need a special day to show how much you care? I dunno. I mean, I wear pink and will wear holiday socks and stuff, but that's about the extent. I think my severe dislike of the rediculous holiday stems from the fact that all I've really wanted the past few years were yellow roses and never got them on valentines day. Yeah, yeah it may seem shallow, but not in comparison to what I recieved in place of them. I'd rather have flowers than jewelry or chocolate or whatever any day. And yellow roses are my favorite to top it off. And a bigger plus, he'll be gone all weekend so there won't be a weird tension to see each other on Saturday.
This makes it sound like I don't like him or want to see him, which is the exact opposite, but this time of year is just super awkward for me. I can't help but smile when he's around and I really really enjoy his company...I just..I dunno. I think we're going to go to sadies(even though neither of us planned on it to begin with) and he's pretty much agreed to accompany me to prom. Prom is 12837436273 times better than any of the other dances. He hated homecoming and I did too, for that matter. I feel like we get more outside pressure to date than we actually have. We've both decided to wait until he's done with sports for the year but his friends and mine are like, just date! But when he has practice everyday but two(game days) it makes impossible to see each other outside of school, which is rather pointless. Plus, who wants to rush things?
I'm going to procrastinate more until I kick my own ass into gear to get this stupid paper done, or at least do the rough draft. Plus, Bones is on at 8, and I want to watch it.
I need to stop procrastinating and write my Metamorphasis paper and then type up some stuff for Lit, but I just don't want to. The typing stuff I need to do. The paper is not due 'till Tuesday, but I'd like to get it done and turned in early. I think I'm starting to get burned out and bad. Two AP classes is absolute hell, suicide really. I come home everyday and sleep for an hour to an hour and a half. I need to just skip and spend all day at the barn or something. I hate when I'm in this sort of mood. I feel needy and wanting to cuddle someone and at the same time, it totally repulses me. I REALLY need to call in my Rx and get rid of these stupid mood swings. When I'm on BC, they aren't near this severe and occasionally are non-existent.
THANK GOD Fetzner isn't planning anything tomorrow as we don't have school on Valentines day(duh). I moderately detest valentines day, it makes me feel awkward. If you like someone, shouldn't you like them everyday? and not need a special day to show how much you care? I dunno. I mean, I wear pink and will wear holiday socks and stuff, but that's about the extent. I think my severe dislike of the rediculous holiday stems from the fact that all I've really wanted the past few years were yellow roses and never got them on valentines day. Yeah, yeah it may seem shallow, but not in comparison to what I recieved in place of them. I'd rather have flowers than jewelry or chocolate or whatever any day. And yellow roses are my favorite to top it off. And a bigger plus, he'll be gone all weekend so there won't be a weird tension to see each other on Saturday.
This makes it sound like I don't like him or want to see him, which is the exact opposite, but this time of year is just super awkward for me. I can't help but smile when he's around and I really really enjoy his company...I just..I dunno. I think we're going to go to sadies(even though neither of us planned on it to begin with) and he's pretty much agreed to accompany me to prom. Prom is 12837436273 times better than any of the other dances. He hated homecoming and I did too, for that matter. I feel like we get more outside pressure to date than we actually have. We've both decided to wait until he's done with sports for the year but his friends and mine are like, just date! But when he has practice everyday but two(game days) it makes impossible to see each other outside of school, which is rather pointless. Plus, who wants to rush things?
I'm going to procrastinate more until I kick my own ass into gear to get this stupid paper done, or at least do the rough draft. Plus, Bones is on at 8, and I want to watch it.