Wow I haven't updated in... awhile
Mainly because there really hasn't been much going on. Nothing really noteworthy anyway. Still have another year and four months to go in the Air Force, really want that to be over with. Planning on moving to Ventura,CA to go to film school.
Aside from that not much else has changed recently... which is really quite... vexing I suppose. I feel like I need change in my life, something new. Unfortunately most of the changes I would like to enact are not really available to me since I'm stuck in the military... I suppose there are some things I could do... but... I just feel... disconnected here. I don't feel like I'm meant to be here. I get along okay with the people out here... but I just don't connect with them like I do with my friends back home. I just feel... a little alone out here.
There are times when I feel like I have to mimic the world around me to fit in. Which I've gotten really good at. But most of the people I have to interact with... I don't like trying to mimic them. I don't like the person I see. I keep having a dream with all of the faces that I have... I used to have so few... now... I'm not even sure how many there are... and there are definitely more darker ones than there used to be.
The bottom line of this post... is mostly that I don't like where I am, and who I'm becoming while I'm there... and that I think too much...
Night...
P.S. wow I just noticed the last time I updated... heh... it was January last year.. heh...
Aside from that not much else has changed recently... which is really quite... vexing I suppose. I feel like I need change in my life, something new. Unfortunately most of the changes I would like to enact are not really available to me since I'm stuck in the military... I suppose there are some things I could do... but... I just feel... disconnected here. I don't feel like I'm meant to be here. I get along okay with the people out here... but I just don't connect with them like I do with my friends back home. I just feel... a little alone out here.
There are times when I feel like I have to mimic the world around me to fit in. Which I've gotten really good at. But most of the people I have to interact with... I don't like trying to mimic them. I don't like the person I see. I keep having a dream with all of the faces that I have... I used to have so few... now... I'm not even sure how many there are... and there are definitely more darker ones than there used to be.
The bottom line of this post... is mostly that I don't like where I am, and who I'm becoming while I'm there... and that I think too much...
Night...
P.S. wow I just noticed the last time I updated... heh... it was January last year.. heh...