So... meh...
Bloody hell I hate this... I can't sleep... the feeling of lonliness... bah, I hate this. I get so tired of it all. There's times I just want to go out into the middle of nowhere and stare off up into the darkness and think. The only problem there is I have no way to get far enough anyway from the people to do so... I need a car.. I need.. something.. but I don't know what.
Shadows and darkness... I hate it so much.
It takes so much to stay happy for long, most of the time it's just brief flashes of light followed by the usual shadows...
The people here are all good people.. but I don't really seem to fit in too well with them. They even agreed that I'm the sanest of them all, which is rather disturbing but also slightly comforting...
I need something in my life... I thought that doing this would help me... but all it's really done is pointed out the faults in my life and the places in my life that I don't excel, and make me wonder what I am good at. I know people like me, or they say they do... god I hate being paranoid... and avoidant... *sigh*
I need to find what I'm good at and point my life in that direction....
If you feel like it you could give me a call.. I'm usually awake... 520-271-0459
Night all..
Shadows and darkness... I hate it so much.
It takes so much to stay happy for long, most of the time it's just brief flashes of light followed by the usual shadows...
The people here are all good people.. but I don't really seem to fit in too well with them. They even agreed that I'm the sanest of them all, which is rather disturbing but also slightly comforting...
I need something in my life... I thought that doing this would help me... but all it's really done is pointed out the faults in my life and the places in my life that I don't excel, and make me wonder what I am good at. I know people like me, or they say they do... god I hate being paranoid... and avoidant... *sigh*
I need to find what I'm good at and point my life in that direction....
If you feel like it you could give me a call.. I'm usually awake... 520-271-0459
Night all..