Some kind of update:
It took me a minute to remember how to even make a post here.
I used to be so active.
In many ways.
I hit 60 this year. I'm baffled how that happened.
Last thing I heard, 'nobody wants to stay alive, when you're 25 and it's better to burn out than to fade away'.
*Shrug
But I mean... 'Old man, look at your life . . . "
Contemporaneously, I have realized that I have been on the Autism spectrum my entire life. It has been a belief obliterating experience, since it was never even on my radar. This changes everything, and suddenly things I never could figure out - make sense.
In August of 2020, I took down my commercial photography website and decided to give up on trying to make money from photography after 20 grueling years of mostly failing. I had already made that decision, when I got furloughed from the worlds largest international aviation company the same month. That place is also extremely grueling, and I now know it was largely due to the several comorbidities I have with Autism Spectrum Disorder. Most of those are sensory related, and I just could not stand the toxic environment.
Later in 2020, Instagram did it's big purge of all accounts with nude photography, and mine was one of them. I had 1500 followers, and some good interactions with other artists there. I miss it, but I'm not going to go to the trouble of trying to start over with such a shit company. I followed the cloudy rules of 'blurring the bits' even though it kind of ruins the art. There are still tons and tons of more commercially viable titillating accounts that show T&A, but have millions of followers. That was very hurtful of you IG. Gross and demeaning is OK with you, but my art was not?
I don't know what is next for me, but some kind of income needs to happen.
I sincerely hope all of you are well and thriving.