Back to the Planning Stage
So for those of you who are not in on it, I quit my job this week. This job helped me have an idea of what I'd like to do and what I honestly don't. As you might've expected this job fell in the latter. But I feel reassured by the fact I was able to live outside of academia for a while, that I was able to do something other than an aspiring faculty and you know what? That felt so reaffirming. I needed that.
But it also taught me that I definitely want to be involved with academia in one way or another, so I've been applying to academic advising jobs. I'd also take a career in financial aid but that is slightly less lucrative (by that I mean, the pay's crappier but what can you do). I have a job interview with the Univ of AZ, so let's see where that goes. If I got the job I'd probably take it just 'cause moving to the Midwest, as much as I'd like to, is beyond my financial reach right now. I'm still hoping that Tucson kinda turns around and shows me its good side, somehow...maybe I should start going to kink munches, hope I meet some cool people there? I've definitely come to terms that part of the reason I'm so miserable here is because I'm not taking care of anyone nor do I feel anyone is dependent on me. I'm the kind of dominant that has the psychological need to be a sort of matriarch, to provide and look out for others...Nicole's pretty much doing her thing, and when she moves next month, I will lose that last person in Tucson that I feel validates and fulfills this need. FML.
I'm going out to Sushi and Zombies with a handsome nerdy guy on Sunday. Yup, a guy. Yup, I'm a bad lesbian. Yup, no fucks were given that day. He's not sure if he's gonna be able to show up just yet, but here's hoping he does. I need to meet people in Tucson who don't have a stick up their ass or a complete disregard of boundaries. Please. People can't all be this sucky, can they?
Also, random thought of the day: does anyone else think that gender studies is increasingly drink-the-kool-aid-y? The less time I spend surrounded by GS people, the more some of their clear-cut ways of conceptualizing things makes me feel all iffy. Just a thought.