Lists Force You To Think Concretely
Dear X,
Halloween was cool but uneventful. I dressed up for work as a priest and it was fun. Afterwards I just cleaned up a lot and prepped for GMX. GMX was a lot of fun and is kind of cemented itself as my favorite con. Its just very casual and laid back with cool people and friends. I can go rest in the hotel room and be back in half an hour vs other conventions where it could take me that amount of time just to get back to my room. Most eventful moment of the weekend was Geek Slam for obvious reasons. Geek Stew was also downright fantastic this year.
I'm finding making myself lists of things I need to get done each day to be totally helpful and makes me feel like I am actually making progress on goals. I aim to make it something I maintain like when I would wake up each day and read for an hour and a half. I want to implement daily reading of books back into my schedule soon. There's a sense of pride and accomplishment when I mark through a task.
I've been watching a lot of American Horror Story Coven and I am thrilled with that show. I love this moment in episode two when Fiona compels two cops to leave the girls alone and then she pretty much puts those bitches in their places by telling them when people start circling them that they need to know to fucking close ranks. It was a good moment. I'm also finding Downton Abbey to always be a refreshing change of pace everytime I sit down to watch it. Theres something lovely about how transparent they are in their dealings with each other. They speak with more emotional works like... "You need to find someone you can confide in." "My life is perfect, and in the space of one day it is nothing." "I'm not okay, but I will get there someday." No one is overly melodramatic...wait thats wrong. Its like...when most people talk about how they actually feel about something, they do it so rarely that its a struggle to come out and express.
I love it because it normalizes the feelings we all experience and creates the space to express them. I will keep trying to improve the clarity and honesty of my communication. Ha, I just added honesty and think that will make for an interesting mix. Its not that I've been dishonest, but there were things I didn't place emphasis on because I didn't want to share it. I'll marinate on this idea for awhile.
Sincerely,
J.R.