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Dear Journal,
Long time no see....its been exactly one month since I have written my last entry....a lot of stuff has happened in this one month...well not really....not a lot....anyway I am here to vent bout my problems, as usually think I like someone...well I am kinda sure that I like that person....and I like him for the all wrong reasons....like completely wrong reasons....and he probably couldn't care less about me....no I am sure he doesn't care....I dont know why i always like guys I cant have....like all the freggin time....but this time.....atleast he isn't an asshole.....like he is very sweet and nice.....well as far as I know....and he doesn't have a gf....or he isnt like 10 years older then me....but he is the same guy this other girl likes....whome I consider to be a friend.....so you see journal this would never ever happen.....coz he thinks she is pretty but he doesn't wanna be in a relationship rite now....and he doesn't even know that I have a thing for him so I don't even exist at this point....and I could never tell him bout my feelings coz I was like the middle man for him and my friend...I would deliver msgs to each other....and I tried to hook em up.....oh God why would I do something like that???? why why why....I knew I had a thing for him then when all this started....I guess I was trying to be good friend and thought that if I ignore these feelings then they would go away....and I really like this friend of mine and wanna see her happy.....at the same time I done wanna see her with him....aaaahhhhhhhhhh.....god why cant I have my own guy that no other girl likes, particularly my friend and have a decent relationship....I am praying that I am gonna stop liking him for the sake of my friend....and I am gonna erase his sn from my buddy list....so i don't stare at it the hole time he is online hoping that he ims me....which he never does....coz he has a life and I dont and I need to get one.....I cant wait till school starts....so I can be busy and not think bout silly stuff like boys and love
Long time no see....its been exactly one month since I have written my last entry....a lot of stuff has happened in this one month...well not really....not a lot....anyway I am here to vent bout my problems, as usually think I like someone...well I am kinda sure that I like that person....and I like him for the all wrong reasons....like completely wrong reasons....and he probably couldn't care less about me....no I am sure he doesn't care....I dont know why i always like guys I cant have....like all the freggin time....but this time.....atleast he isn't an asshole.....like he is very sweet and nice.....well as far as I know....and he doesn't have a gf....or he isnt like 10 years older then me....but he is the same guy this other girl likes....whome I consider to be a friend.....so you see journal this would never ever happen.....coz he thinks she is pretty but he doesn't wanna be in a relationship rite now....and he doesn't even know that I have a thing for him so I don't even exist at this point....and I could never tell him bout my feelings coz I was like the middle man for him and my friend...I would deliver msgs to each other....and I tried to hook em up.....oh God why would I do something like that???? why why why....I knew I had a thing for him then when all this started....I guess I was trying to be good friend and thought that if I ignore these feelings then they would go away....and I really like this friend of mine and wanna see her happy.....at the same time I done wanna see her with him....aaaahhhhhhhhhh.....god why cant I have my own guy that no other girl likes, particularly my friend and have a decent relationship....I am praying that I am gonna stop liking him for the sake of my friend....and I am gonna erase his sn from my buddy list....so i don't stare at it the hole time he is online hoping that he ims me....which he never does....coz he has a life and I dont and I need to get one.....I cant wait till school starts....so I can be busy and not think bout silly stuff like boys and love