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My mood hasn't improved much today but the winds did shift. Last night I thought about my dream and the occasional catastrophic impact I've had on others. Tonight a different dream and a different perspective. I am manic. There's a feeling of shrapnel to burst forth upon others.
Thoughts of self-serving and delusional passerby in my life occupy me. Minutes ago I felt curses on my lips waiting to be uttered. Last night everything on the table was mine. Now the crimes of others weigh heavily on my mind.
If I keep dreaming this way I won't have time to come back and deal with the present.
Suffice it to say, forgiveness is a luxury towards some. Meaning that it is costly. There can be no mistake. Those I haven't forgiven are those who've learned nothing from the consequences of their actions.
They are, by and large, small creatures inside; surrounded by a fog of manipulations on the out. I've had cause to see through to them where others would accept their charming fascade. I cannot forgive them while they continue to delude themselves and others.
If there is a curse to be placed it is that they should be given true insight so that the house of cards they build themselves to be gives way to the truth of who they really are.
-T
*This 'excursion' should be ended soon. There is much to be said about the present once the past has been sufficiently aired out.
Thoughts of self-serving and delusional passerby in my life occupy me. Minutes ago I felt curses on my lips waiting to be uttered. Last night everything on the table was mine. Now the crimes of others weigh heavily on my mind.
If I keep dreaming this way I won't have time to come back and deal with the present.
Suffice it to say, forgiveness is a luxury towards some. Meaning that it is costly. There can be no mistake. Those I haven't forgiven are those who've learned nothing from the consequences of their actions.
They are, by and large, small creatures inside; surrounded by a fog of manipulations on the out. I've had cause to see through to them where others would accept their charming fascade. I cannot forgive them while they continue to delude themselves and others.
If there is a curse to be placed it is that they should be given true insight so that the house of cards they build themselves to be gives way to the truth of who they really are.
-T
*This 'excursion' should be ended soon. There is much to be said about the present once the past has been sufficiently aired out.