Out of touch.
Something is wearing me down. Something is sending me out of phase again. It's making me socially awkward around the people that count. I'm having a terrible eye contact problem with those I respect now. When did that happen? I still feel in control around youth, vanity, anyone lacking substance, but the ones I need most to connect with terrify me. I feel like they see through something (or everything).
I will say this: at least I can still improvise. I actually mistook a random instructor for a collegue today. He was turned slightly away from me looking at the room assignments for class. I walked in through the front door, down the hall to the room he was in, saw him and immediately walked over with a smile and playfully punched him in the side while joking about him stealing the sheet. I didn't realize it was someone I didn't know (and also not a student) until after all of that. Yet he stammered a response and I managed to play it like it's the sort of thing I do to any random person I happen to cross paths with. I even waited until he walked away before I mosied along to class.
-T
I will say this: at least I can still improvise. I actually mistook a random instructor for a collegue today. He was turned slightly away from me looking at the room assignments for class. I walked in through the front door, down the hall to the room he was in, saw him and immediately walked over with a smile and playfully punched him in the side while joking about him stealing the sheet. I didn't realize it was someone I didn't know (and also not a student) until after all of that. Yet he stammered a response and I managed to play it like it's the sort of thing I do to any random person I happen to cross paths with. I even waited until he walked away before I mosied along to class.
-T