Always remember: NEVER FORGET!
I know today's the sixth anniversary of the terrorist attacks on the world trade center and pentagon, believe it or not I'd actually forgotten about it until last night. We as humans seem to only remember the anniversaries of certain events in denominations of five. The fifth year anniversary, the tenth, the twenty-fith, the fiftieth, etc. Today could not be any more different than that day, it's cloudy, overcast and the rain is coming down in sheets. I remember that day being beautiful and warm. Anyway I think that's about all I have to say about the subject, no weepy sentimental musings from me. Sometimes I believe the best way to honor the memories of those who have departed is to move on with our lives and not dwell on the horrible circumstances of their deaths. I think we dishonor their memories and their sacrifice by doing so, life goes on and it's better to go on with it.
This is the first time in several days that I've gotten to use a computer. I moved into Michelle's old apartment with her and right now there's no internet or tv or ice cream or whatever else. I don't miss tv at all because I hardly ever watched it in the first place, at least I have time to read, I'm going through one book per day it seems and I've just about exhausted my source of reading material. I'd like to go and buy more but I'm pretty broke at the moment. Right now I'm at the computer lab at OCCC since it's the only place that I know of that offers free internet access.
The job search is going better than I expected at lease but I am very anxious to start work, I feel useless without a job. When I'm not reading I seem to pace a lot, back and forth accross the empty apartment, an old nervous habit for when I'm feeling particularly shiftless. I was supposed to have my third interview at Lowe's yesterday but they called and rescheduled it to tomorrow, although I was told they may have to reschedule it again. Great, I was hoping to start working as soon as possible. Basically I'd be working as a sales specialist in the live nursery (plants) and it pays a lot more than my last job. It is however retail which is a bummer because retail sucks, the customers are assholes, your hours are all over the place and you never have weekends off. This morning I got a call from some place I submitted my resume to last week and they want to see me tomorrow as well. I believe it's a warehouse position (I submitted my resume online to so many places it's hard to remember) but I was told that they also have office positions that I might be more well suited for. If I remember correctly this place pays pretty well and offere benefits, 401k, and I think it's a first shift monday through friday kind of deal. At this point I'll work almost anywhere, my situation is pretty desperate.
I don't know how to feel about living with Michelle. I don't know if it's just me but something about it just doesn't feel right somehow. She's a very good friend and all but I don't think she's the kind of person I want to be around all the time and that's no offense to her at all. We're good friends but in a lot of ways we're very different people. I think I'm a bit more layed back and she seems to get stressed a lot. She has a lot to be stressed out about though. Maybe once I get a job and we move to the new places things will get better, I'll feel way better about the whole thing once I can actually contribute something. I really don't want to stay at her new place with her for very long, it's only one bedroom and I'd have absolutely no privacy. She's been talking a lot lately about how she wants to live alone and I don't blame her, she's never really been alone I think. It's just not going to be a good situation I don't think. One of my next priorities after getting a job is finding a room for rent, something cheap because paying rent is a huge waste of money. I hate apartments too, so fucking sterile and generic and dull with their beige walls and white window blinds. They have to be that way since they're not catered to anyone in particular. I'd rather rent a room in an actual house with a yard in a neighborhood and just save my money so that I can buy something.
Michelle and I, our personalities don't gel all that well. There's only one person that I would really like to, nay, love to live with right now. I won't name names, you know who you are and I love you :)
This is the first time in several days that I've gotten to use a computer. I moved into Michelle's old apartment with her and right now there's no internet or tv or ice cream or whatever else. I don't miss tv at all because I hardly ever watched it in the first place, at least I have time to read, I'm going through one book per day it seems and I've just about exhausted my source of reading material. I'd like to go and buy more but I'm pretty broke at the moment. Right now I'm at the computer lab at OCCC since it's the only place that I know of that offers free internet access.
The job search is going better than I expected at lease but I am very anxious to start work, I feel useless without a job. When I'm not reading I seem to pace a lot, back and forth accross the empty apartment, an old nervous habit for when I'm feeling particularly shiftless. I was supposed to have my third interview at Lowe's yesterday but they called and rescheduled it to tomorrow, although I was told they may have to reschedule it again. Great, I was hoping to start working as soon as possible. Basically I'd be working as a sales specialist in the live nursery (plants) and it pays a lot more than my last job. It is however retail which is a bummer because retail sucks, the customers are assholes, your hours are all over the place and you never have weekends off. This morning I got a call from some place I submitted my resume to last week and they want to see me tomorrow as well. I believe it's a warehouse position (I submitted my resume online to so many places it's hard to remember) but I was told that they also have office positions that I might be more well suited for. If I remember correctly this place pays pretty well and offere benefits, 401k, and I think it's a first shift monday through friday kind of deal. At this point I'll work almost anywhere, my situation is pretty desperate.
I don't know how to feel about living with Michelle. I don't know if it's just me but something about it just doesn't feel right somehow. She's a very good friend and all but I don't think she's the kind of person I want to be around all the time and that's no offense to her at all. We're good friends but in a lot of ways we're very different people. I think I'm a bit more layed back and she seems to get stressed a lot. She has a lot to be stressed out about though. Maybe once I get a job and we move to the new places things will get better, I'll feel way better about the whole thing once I can actually contribute something. I really don't want to stay at her new place with her for very long, it's only one bedroom and I'd have absolutely no privacy. She's been talking a lot lately about how she wants to live alone and I don't blame her, she's never really been alone I think. It's just not going to be a good situation I don't think. One of my next priorities after getting a job is finding a room for rent, something cheap because paying rent is a huge waste of money. I hate apartments too, so fucking sterile and generic and dull with their beige walls and white window blinds. They have to be that way since they're not catered to anyone in particular. I'd rather rent a room in an actual house with a yard in a neighborhood and just save my money so that I can buy something.
Michelle and I, our personalities don't gel all that well. There's only one person that I would really like to, nay, love to live with right now. I won't name names, you know who you are and I love you :)