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do you ever wonder when the right time to move on from something in your life is? iv been thining about that alot lately. iv been doing the same thing for 5 years if not more and it hasnt really got me anywhere in the real world. over half of the people that im "friends" with wont be friends wth me after my bands done. iv just been thinking alot about the future lately... and iv lost something very dear to me and im trying my fucking best to get it back. iv been givin alot in my life and iv havnt really givin much back. sure i do little things for people but it hasnt gotten me anywhere, or helped my personal life. this thing i do all the time has really hurt someone dear to me, important if you will. and she has sacraficed alot for me. im thinking its time that i gave back, that i sacraficed for her. i want to hold her, kiss her, take care of her and love her. and i cant do that working at my familys resterant. im just sick of running in place and not getting anywhere. its hard to hold your chin up when your on the grownd. i want to spend time with my family... i havnt seen my grandmother in 7 months. i havnt seen my sister since christmas last year... what the fuck is that?

the only friend i have right now is booze... and i welcome its embrace. at least beer will never turn me down