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maybe i should have stayed at bryan's, where comfort was so close to infinite. my heart got the better of my head, my mind the better of my brain. there was so much to take in last night. i know what it feels like to be the center of attention. hateful attention. they can try as hard as they want, but i know i wasn't the murderer. or danielle...watching this girl i wonder if i've ever been that drunk. then i remember falling off the bar and the urge to place judgement passed as quickly as it came. watch where you sleep, sob in your car, breaking and entering just make sure they don't touch you. thank you doug, zack, neil, dan and meg for having the ability to overlook the values of a life long friendship and admit the wrong. to greg for this statement "new year's is the one and only holiday where the entire world is partying, don't hate it, i love it."
i slept in the warmest place. Ronan refused to be left out.
i don't know where the nerves come from, it should just be so natural.
my fingers traced over his like braille, reading scars of hard work and a steady pulse. i wanted to explore deep through every layer of skin and i didn't dare open my eyes unless they were looking to meet his. and later he laughed and i smiled.
and for eight steady hours i lay wide awake in bed, not even getting up to go to the bathroom, and listened to him sleep. thinking of how purity only shows itself in small quantities every full moon.
i need to leave this state.
i slept in the warmest place. Ronan refused to be left out.
i don't know where the nerves come from, it should just be so natural.
my fingers traced over his like braille, reading scars of hard work and a steady pulse. i wanted to explore deep through every layer of skin and i didn't dare open my eyes unless they were looking to meet his. and later he laughed and i smiled.
and for eight steady hours i lay wide awake in bed, not even getting up to go to the bathroom, and listened to him sleep. thinking of how purity only shows itself in small quantities every full moon.
i need to leave this state.