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I just woke up from a terribly disturbing nightmare.
I was conscious that i was dreaming, but couldn't pull myself out of it. I could only push myself to the different stages of the nightmare by willing myself through walls and stuff. Each different stage took place in part of an emergency room, and my mother was always there with an empty stroller.
But anyway, in the first stage, it was the classroom where i took the course to get my CPR/B-EMT, and it was full of people i went to middle school with. They were all wearing all white scrubs, except for this one older man with an English accent. He was talking, explaining to me that he was the only other thing there that was real, and that all i had to do was come and get him.. but i couldn't move. He had control over my dream. He was yelling, and all the kids ducked down out of view so i was eye-level with only the one man, and as he yelled he sat down. I don't remember exactly what he was saying, but it was something along the lines of, "So you want me to hide? Behind children?" Then all the kids stood up out of nowhere and he disappeared.
Then all the kids did something weird. It gets fuzzy in my memory, but they were stacking books weird, notebooks, pieces of paper, folders, weird things in weird orders in front of themselves on the desks. I walked around, and recognized a few of them, tried to talk to them. Hell, i grabbed a pen off one of the desks and stabbed one of them to see if they were real and could feel pain. One of them (i forget his name, but i went to middle and high school with him), after i stabbed him started bleeding and said to me, "It doesn't matter. I've been here forever, i'm used to it," and continued his weird stacking.
All of a sudden, everybody stopped stacking papers, and stood up and started walking around the tables in circles, each grabbing a pen. I recognized one of the students to be this girl, Elizabeth, i used to go to church with (when i went to church). It's been years since i've seen her. But she was taller obviously, and the same age as me, rather than still as i had last remembered her like everyone else. And she was wearing kind of a black dress thing. I called her name and asked her, "How did you get down here?" And she said, "It's your fault!" I don't know what that was supposed to mean, i never did anything to her.
Then for some reason i just jumped up on one of the desks, and yelled, "Everybody! It isn't real!" And jumped off the table at this piece of paper on the wall. The entire wall shattered around me, and i started falling.
But i knew i was falling just because he (that weird british guy) was making me believe that i was falling. As soon as i realized that, i stopped, and found myself in a dimly lit hallway. One way would have a comically huge red neon exit sign, the other way would say continue. I'd look at the exit, then i'd look at the continue, then as my vision panned back to the center, i'd see a little green neon sign (i don't remember what it said) in the middle. It would just hold my attention and distract me. When i snapped back to attention, the exit disappeared. But who knows? Maybe it wasn't even an exit. I started walking through the continue door, into an Emergency room triage/waiting area, where my mother was just sitting there with a stroller. I ignored her and just said, "No," really loud as i walked away. She jumped up and walked out into the hallway with me and said, "Why not?" I said, "You're not real."
--then i woke up, 'cause Alex had been sleeping in my lap and he had a bad dream, too.
I had several nightmares like that last night, all involving a hospital (no particular one), and somebody that i knew.
In one of the other dreams, i even ran into Andrew, who was going to be my martial arts teacher at one point. He was different. Much older, and covered in tattoos, and his voice was really rough, like an older smoker. He had a huge bruise on the back of his right arm, but i didn't ask him about it. We sparred for a while, and i remembered a lot of the stuff that he taught me. Then something scared me, i don't remember what it was.
Holy crap everyone's doing this survey thing. Why not.
Stolen from caladax, delia_mcnab, porcelainbunny, etc
1. Do you like bleu cheese?
Ugh, no.
2. Have you ever smoked a cigarette?
Yes.
3. Do you own a gun?
I wish, but no.
4. What flavor do you add to your drink at Sonic?
Cherry.
5. Do you get nervous before doctor appointments?
Sometimes.
6. What do you think of hot dogs?
Hot doggy!
7. Favorite Christmas song?
Santa Claus is Pagan, Too
8. What do you prefer to drink in the morning?
Orange Juice.
9. Can you do push-ups?
Maybe 30 or so in one go.
10. What's your favorite meal?
Steak 'n mashed taters!
11. What's your favorite piece of jewelry?
Wedding band?
12. Favorite hobby?
Art.
13. Do you work with people who idolize you?
Absolutely.
14. Do you have A.D.D?
Sometimes i wonder.
15. What's one trait that you dislike about yourself?
When i get really anxious/nervous/stressed out, i start to babble and say ridiculous things. Usually, things that i later regret and end up having to apologize for.
16. Middle name?
Matthew Dean
17. Name 3 thoughts at this moment.
1. Skittles!
2. Scary dream last night.
3. I should try martial arts again.
18. Name 3 things you bought yesterday:
A corndog, a tie-die onesie for alex, and a mountain dew.
20. Current worry right now?
If i'm having a nightmare right now.
21. Current hate right now?
Time.
22. Favorite place to be?
Home.
23. How did you bring in New Year's? I didn't do anything this year
I never do anything special. Just another date on the calendar.
Sometimes i blow things up.
24. Where would you like to go?
I dunno, i'd like to see people.
25. Who will complete this?
Who knows?
26. Whose answer do you want to read the most?
I don't think Rhiannon's done this one yet.
27. What color shirt are you wearing?
Infinity Gauntlet!
28. Do you like sleeping on satin sheets?
Yes :3
29. Can you whistle?
Yes
30. Favorite color(s)?
Bluuuuuuue~
31. Would you be a pirate?
I already am.
32. What songs do you sing in the shower?
Anything
33. Favorite girl's name?
Emily
34. Favorite boy's name?
Matthew or James
35. What's in your pocket right now?
No pockets!
36. Last thing that made you laugh?
Baby!
37. Best bed sheets as a child?
I had ninja turtles :D
38. Worst injury you've ever had?
Do diseases count? 'Cause my colitis was really bad.
So was salmonella. And that staph infection.
And i jammed my middle finger one time at lady-amasis's house.
And mom cracked my head open with a hickory walking stick when i was little.
39. Do you love where you live?
Yeah, i guess i'm proud to be a Shreveportian, too.
40. How many TVs do you have in your house?
Four.
41. Who is your loudest friend?
Alex xP
42. How many dogs do you have?
We have two wieniedogs.
43. Does someone have a crush on you?
If someone other than my wife likes me, i don't know about it.
45. What is your favorite book?
I like a lot of books.
46. What is your favorite candy?
As i have no unfavourite candy, i like them all equally into infinity~!
47. What is your favorite sports team?
Ha.
48. What song do you want played at your funeral?
I'll let my survivors figure that one out.
49. What were you doing 12 AM last night?
Drawing porn! :D
50. What was the first thing you thought of when you woke up this morning?
"Am i really awake this time?"
I was conscious that i was dreaming, but couldn't pull myself out of it. I could only push myself to the different stages of the nightmare by willing myself through walls and stuff. Each different stage took place in part of an emergency room, and my mother was always there with an empty stroller.
But anyway, in the first stage, it was the classroom where i took the course to get my CPR/B-EMT, and it was full of people i went to middle school with. They were all wearing all white scrubs, except for this one older man with an English accent. He was talking, explaining to me that he was the only other thing there that was real, and that all i had to do was come and get him.. but i couldn't move. He had control over my dream. He was yelling, and all the kids ducked down out of view so i was eye-level with only the one man, and as he yelled he sat down. I don't remember exactly what he was saying, but it was something along the lines of, "So you want me to hide? Behind children?" Then all the kids stood up out of nowhere and he disappeared.
Then all the kids did something weird. It gets fuzzy in my memory, but they were stacking books weird, notebooks, pieces of paper, folders, weird things in weird orders in front of themselves on the desks. I walked around, and recognized a few of them, tried to talk to them. Hell, i grabbed a pen off one of the desks and stabbed one of them to see if they were real and could feel pain. One of them (i forget his name, but i went to middle and high school with him), after i stabbed him started bleeding and said to me, "It doesn't matter. I've been here forever, i'm used to it," and continued his weird stacking.
All of a sudden, everybody stopped stacking papers, and stood up and started walking around the tables in circles, each grabbing a pen. I recognized one of the students to be this girl, Elizabeth, i used to go to church with (when i went to church). It's been years since i've seen her. But she was taller obviously, and the same age as me, rather than still as i had last remembered her like everyone else. And she was wearing kind of a black dress thing. I called her name and asked her, "How did you get down here?" And she said, "It's your fault!" I don't know what that was supposed to mean, i never did anything to her.
Then for some reason i just jumped up on one of the desks, and yelled, "Everybody! It isn't real!" And jumped off the table at this piece of paper on the wall. The entire wall shattered around me, and i started falling.
But i knew i was falling just because he (that weird british guy) was making me believe that i was falling. As soon as i realized that, i stopped, and found myself in a dimly lit hallway. One way would have a comically huge red neon exit sign, the other way would say continue. I'd look at the exit, then i'd look at the continue, then as my vision panned back to the center, i'd see a little green neon sign (i don't remember what it said) in the middle. It would just hold my attention and distract me. When i snapped back to attention, the exit disappeared. But who knows? Maybe it wasn't even an exit. I started walking through the continue door, into an Emergency room triage/waiting area, where my mother was just sitting there with a stroller. I ignored her and just said, "No," really loud as i walked away. She jumped up and walked out into the hallway with me and said, "Why not?" I said, "You're not real."
--then i woke up, 'cause Alex had been sleeping in my lap and he had a bad dream, too.
I had several nightmares like that last night, all involving a hospital (no particular one), and somebody that i knew.
In one of the other dreams, i even ran into Andrew, who was going to be my martial arts teacher at one point. He was different. Much older, and covered in tattoos, and his voice was really rough, like an older smoker. He had a huge bruise on the back of his right arm, but i didn't ask him about it. We sparred for a while, and i remembered a lot of the stuff that he taught me. Then something scared me, i don't remember what it was.
Holy crap everyone's doing this survey thing. Why not.
Stolen from caladax, delia_mcnab, porcelainbunny, etc
1. Do you like bleu cheese?
Ugh, no.
2. Have you ever smoked a cigarette?
Yes.
3. Do you own a gun?
I wish, but no.
4. What flavor do you add to your drink at Sonic?
Cherry.
5. Do you get nervous before doctor appointments?
Sometimes.
6. What do you think of hot dogs?
Hot doggy!
7. Favorite Christmas song?
Santa Claus is Pagan, Too
8. What do you prefer to drink in the morning?
Orange Juice.
9. Can you do push-ups?
Maybe 30 or so in one go.
10. What's your favorite meal?
Steak 'n mashed taters!
11. What's your favorite piece of jewelry?
Wedding band?
12. Favorite hobby?
Art.
13. Do you work with people who idolize you?
Absolutely.
14. Do you have A.D.D?
Sometimes i wonder.
15. What's one trait that you dislike about yourself?
When i get really anxious/nervous/stressed out, i start to babble and say ridiculous things. Usually, things that i later regret and end up having to apologize for.
16. Middle name?
Matthew Dean
17. Name 3 thoughts at this moment.
1. Skittles!
2. Scary dream last night.
3. I should try martial arts again.
18. Name 3 things you bought yesterday:
A corndog, a tie-die onesie for alex, and a mountain dew.
20. Current worry right now?
If i'm having a nightmare right now.
21. Current hate right now?
Time.
22. Favorite place to be?
Home.
23. How did you bring in New Year's? I didn't do anything this year
I never do anything special. Just another date on the calendar.
Sometimes i blow things up.
24. Where would you like to go?
I dunno, i'd like to see people.
25. Who will complete this?
Who knows?
26. Whose answer do you want to read the most?
I don't think Rhiannon's done this one yet.
27. What color shirt are you wearing?
Infinity Gauntlet!
28. Do you like sleeping on satin sheets?
Yes :3
29. Can you whistle?
Yes
30. Favorite color(s)?
Bluuuuuuue~
31. Would you be a pirate?
I already am.
32. What songs do you sing in the shower?
Anything
33. Favorite girl's name?
Emily
34. Favorite boy's name?
Matthew or James
35. What's in your pocket right now?
No pockets!
36. Last thing that made you laugh?
Baby!
37. Best bed sheets as a child?
I had ninja turtles :D
38. Worst injury you've ever had?
Do diseases count? 'Cause my colitis was really bad.
So was salmonella. And that staph infection.
And i jammed my middle finger one time at lady-amasis's house.
And mom cracked my head open with a hickory walking stick when i was little.
39. Do you love where you live?
Yeah, i guess i'm proud to be a Shreveportian, too.
40. How many TVs do you have in your house?
Four.
41. Who is your loudest friend?
Alex xP
42. How many dogs do you have?
We have two wieniedogs.
43. Does someone have a crush on you?
If someone other than my wife likes me, i don't know about it.
45. What is your favorite book?
I like a lot of books.
46. What is your favorite candy?
As i have no unfavourite candy, i like them all equally into infinity~!
47. What is your favorite sports team?
Ha.
48. What song do you want played at your funeral?
I'll let my survivors figure that one out.
49. What were you doing 12 AM last night?
Drawing porn! :D
50. What was the first thing you thought of when you woke up this morning?
"Am i really awake this time?"