Good boy
I think I'm on the track to bettering myself.
//finally//
Like, actually.
I'm actually being actually happy with things. Like, not just faking it, like, my insides are improving.
Some examples of this:
- I've started talking/singing to myself again, this means I'm being independent and I don't need to constantly talk to people or ask for reassurance (despite the fact that I cannot stop talking about random crap whenever my boyfriend and I go to sleep)
- I have a boyfriend; yes, it's an open relationship, sure, and no, I haven't actually told him I consider him my boyfriend... and no.. we haven't even fooled around.. but, it's because I //actually like him// He is so sweet, and adorable, and totally unlike anyone I've met before. Igor is the only one even remotely as nice as Andrew is.
- I have been exercising every day since I got the gym key for downstairs (except Monday, when it's closed for maintenance) I can't do as well as I once did, but I think I've seen some improvement since Sunday...
- I pulled out my keyboard, hopefully I will play it soon, and increase my skillzzzzz
- I like my job because I have constant work, work I can do! AND, I'm learning, constantly. Who knew JavaScript was for more than just client-side scripting? Not me...
- My apartment is (still) a mess (form moving), and I'm not being neurotic about it. I mean, yes, I want it cleaned soon, but I will survive and it's not bothering me in the back of my mind
- I have been attempting to eat right (ok, I do this often anyways, but whatever, I'll put it here anyways)
I think that pretty much covers the last few weeks. I started a job, it's in Sidney, and I have a new apartment.
I'm still *technically* seeing Roger, but I'm waiting for him to call ME, so I can judge how I feel about him/how he feels about me. It will be hella lame to loose that, erm, 'gentleman caller', but having a boyfriend I can hang out with without fooling around with will be good. (i.e. Andrew and I can do stuff that isn't fooling around, as proven by the fact that we haven't)
I like Andrew more every day. Well, maybe every other other day. I am wearing his coloured glass necklace right now; it is a rainbow. I am SO gay.... haha.
//finally//
Like, actually.
I'm actually being actually happy with things. Like, not just faking it, like, my insides are improving.
Some examples of this:
- I've started talking/singing to myself again, this means I'm being independent and I don't need to constantly talk to people or ask for reassurance (despite the fact that I cannot stop talking about random crap whenever my boyfriend and I go to sleep)
- I have a boyfriend; yes, it's an open relationship, sure, and no, I haven't actually told him I consider him my boyfriend... and no.. we haven't even fooled around.. but, it's because I //actually like him// He is so sweet, and adorable, and totally unlike anyone I've met before. Igor is the only one even remotely as nice as Andrew is.
- I have been exercising every day since I got the gym key for downstairs (except Monday, when it's closed for maintenance) I can't do as well as I once did, but I think I've seen some improvement since Sunday...
- I pulled out my keyboard, hopefully I will play it soon, and increase my skillzzzzz
- I like my job because I have constant work, work I can do! AND, I'm learning, constantly. Who knew JavaScript was for more than just client-side scripting? Not me...
- My apartment is (still) a mess (form moving), and I'm not being neurotic about it. I mean, yes, I want it cleaned soon, but I will survive and it's not bothering me in the back of my mind
- I have been attempting to eat right (ok, I do this often anyways, but whatever, I'll put it here anyways)
I think that pretty much covers the last few weeks. I started a job, it's in Sidney, and I have a new apartment.
I'm still *technically* seeing Roger, but I'm waiting for him to call ME, so I can judge how I feel about him/how he feels about me. It will be hella lame to loose that, erm, 'gentleman caller', but having a boyfriend I can hang out with without fooling around with will be good. (i.e. Andrew and I can do stuff that isn't fooling around, as proven by the fact that we haven't)
I like Andrew more every day. Well, maybe every other other day. I am wearing his coloured glass necklace right now; it is a rainbow. I am SO gay.... haha.