Christmas-y, jumbly thoughts.
Puzzle Piece. Christmas thoughts.
Christmas is, again, just around the corner. What a cliche.
I honestly don't feel it nearing. It takes little for me to feel the Christmas season. All I need is the pine tree and the family. The pine tree is up, although a little lousy looking compared to the made-up trees we've had the past few years. The family, well, is rarely together. Mom comes home late, goes to sleep right after, wakes up early and goes off to work. That's the routine. I almost don't see her the whole day. And when she's the most special person in the world to me, the times I get to spend with her matter intensely.
Gifts used to matter so much to me before. I would count my gifts and when they were little, I would be depressed. For real. Now, they don't mean as much anymore. I don't know if it's the maturity level that has changed, along with the increasing age. But somehow, I feel it's because I know other things are much better having than gifts. Like time with the people I love. Sometimes, I think that I can kill for my siblings. Although I know that it's a wrong thought, I feel it's a very possible thing.
Who knows, anyway? There's a week to go before the 25th. Events may change. Hopefully for the better. Hopefully I find Christmas sleeping behind the corner. I'll just have tap him.
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I told my friend, if she wants to give me a gift for Christmas, she could wrap T.O.P and send him over at my home. Impossibility already taken note of, I somehow still had that small tingly feeling of imagination. Made me smile and giggle inside. Aah, T.O.P. It's a sin to be as hot as you are. You should be damned for it. A Merry Christmas to you too, boy. Even if you are unaware of my existence, that's totally okay.
Haha. I'm such a fangirl.
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There's one wish I TRULY want for Christmas, out of all the things in my wishlist. Putting aside the need to be altruistic or whatever, I want a good grade in my NMAT. That's all. I wonder if that's such a big thing to ask for. Maybe I am a bit selfish, I admit it. I don't think I have the right to ask for that. Why? First, I didn't study anyway. Not as much as those who wanted a good grade have. Second, it's not my birthday. Third, there's no genie.
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It's 2am. Have to get my sleep. Goodnight, world. Merry Christmas.
Christmas is, again, just around the corner. What a cliche.
I honestly don't feel it nearing. It takes little for me to feel the Christmas season. All I need is the pine tree and the family. The pine tree is up, although a little lousy looking compared to the made-up trees we've had the past few years. The family, well, is rarely together. Mom comes home late, goes to sleep right after, wakes up early and goes off to work. That's the routine. I almost don't see her the whole day. And when she's the most special person in the world to me, the times I get to spend with her matter intensely.
Gifts used to matter so much to me before. I would count my gifts and when they were little, I would be depressed. For real. Now, they don't mean as much anymore. I don't know if it's the maturity level that has changed, along with the increasing age. But somehow, I feel it's because I know other things are much better having than gifts. Like time with the people I love. Sometimes, I think that I can kill for my siblings. Although I know that it's a wrong thought, I feel it's a very possible thing.
Who knows, anyway? There's a week to go before the 25th. Events may change. Hopefully for the better. Hopefully I find Christmas sleeping behind the corner. I'll just have tap him.
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I told my friend, if she wants to give me a gift for Christmas, she could wrap T.O.P and send him over at my home. Impossibility already taken note of, I somehow still had that small tingly feeling of imagination. Made me smile and giggle inside. Aah, T.O.P. It's a sin to be as hot as you are. You should be damned for it. A Merry Christmas to you too, boy. Even if you are unaware of my existence, that's totally okay.
Haha. I'm such a fangirl.
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There's one wish I TRULY want for Christmas, out of all the things in my wishlist. Putting aside the need to be altruistic or whatever, I want a good grade in my NMAT. That's all. I wonder if that's such a big thing to ask for. Maybe I am a bit selfish, I admit it. I don't think I have the right to ask for that. Why? First, I didn't study anyway. Not as much as those who wanted a good grade have. Second, it's not my birthday. Third, there's no genie.
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It's 2am. Have to get my sleep. Goodnight, world. Merry Christmas.