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Line learning is going painfully slow. Hopefully should all be done by Friday though, ready to go off on the trip.
I went on a date last night, and it was definitely noteworthy.
The guy's name was Dan. He's 26, Jewish, a Business Analyst and a Cambridge Graduate. All great on paper, right?
And actually- in real life, he was great too. He was a really lovely, super super intelligent guy with loads of interesting conversation. I just don't think i fancied him, but i'll get to that bit in a mo.
I met him, 20 minutes later (eeeeek! I felt bad) and so immediately i fell into Zack 'apologising/feel I have to be super charismatic mode' and talked non-stop for about 15 minutes to try and make everything better. He asked me in a very calm, polite way later on 'do you mind me asking if you, or anyone in your family has aspergers?' Weirdly enough, I think I do have aspergers and both my brother and father have it!
Anyway, that's off on a tangent, we spoke about life, the universe and everything. It was so lovely to go on a date with someone and really be mentally challenged. He didn't say huge amounts, but neither was he shy and quiet- he just only spoke when there was something that really needed to be said and the stuff he did say was usually witty, and quite sharp.
He kinda reminded me of Tim.
And that's when it hit me. That i didn't actually fancy the guy, and I was desperately trying to resalvage old wounds and sort stuff out. Anyway, the date ended nothing but politely and sweetly. I walked him to his bus stop, gave him a hug and waved him off. He text me shortly afterwards to say 'That was quite an interesting date! In fact the most unique one i've ever had. It leaves me looking forward to a next one. Let me know when you'll be free again. Dan.'
Dan, said something that really hit a nerve in the way i look at life (warning: pretentiousness ahead!). I talked about how i was enjoying London life and acting, because there were so many small daily interactions to be had on a minute to minute basis and i was constantly making friends and acquaintances. He spoke about how he has very few friends, and has a problem with parties and small interactions. Almost the opposite of autism- because he feels disheartened or uncomfortable with the fact that he will build an interaction with someone and then only let it last that half an hour, or evening. He prefers interactions to be built on something real and lasting. I think it's a beautiful way to live through life.
I woke up this morning, and i've thought about last nights date quite a few times. Despite the potential self-destructive nature of the whole situation, I may text him back in a week or two and suggest that we do it again. I might sod it, and see where it goes.
On tomorrows episode of Zack's life: More line learning, and a visit to a curative hypnotherapist- stay tuned!
I went on a date last night, and it was definitely noteworthy.
The guy's name was Dan. He's 26, Jewish, a Business Analyst and a Cambridge Graduate. All great on paper, right?
And actually- in real life, he was great too. He was a really lovely, super super intelligent guy with loads of interesting conversation. I just don't think i fancied him, but i'll get to that bit in a mo.
I met him, 20 minutes later (eeeeek! I felt bad) and so immediately i fell into Zack 'apologising/feel I have to be super charismatic mode' and talked non-stop for about 15 minutes to try and make everything better. He asked me in a very calm, polite way later on 'do you mind me asking if you, or anyone in your family has aspergers?' Weirdly enough, I think I do have aspergers and both my brother and father have it!
Anyway, that's off on a tangent, we spoke about life, the universe and everything. It was so lovely to go on a date with someone and really be mentally challenged. He didn't say huge amounts, but neither was he shy and quiet- he just only spoke when there was something that really needed to be said and the stuff he did say was usually witty, and quite sharp.
He kinda reminded me of Tim.
And that's when it hit me. That i didn't actually fancy the guy, and I was desperately trying to resalvage old wounds and sort stuff out. Anyway, the date ended nothing but politely and sweetly. I walked him to his bus stop, gave him a hug and waved him off. He text me shortly afterwards to say 'That was quite an interesting date! In fact the most unique one i've ever had. It leaves me looking forward to a next one. Let me know when you'll be free again. Dan.'
Dan, said something that really hit a nerve in the way i look at life (warning: pretentiousness ahead!). I talked about how i was enjoying London life and acting, because there were so many small daily interactions to be had on a minute to minute basis and i was constantly making friends and acquaintances. He spoke about how he has very few friends, and has a problem with parties and small interactions. Almost the opposite of autism- because he feels disheartened or uncomfortable with the fact that he will build an interaction with someone and then only let it last that half an hour, or evening. He prefers interactions to be built on something real and lasting. I think it's a beautiful way to live through life.
I woke up this morning, and i've thought about last nights date quite a few times. Despite the potential self-destructive nature of the whole situation, I may text him back in a week or two and suggest that we do it again. I might sod it, and see where it goes.
On tomorrows episode of Zack's life: More line learning, and a visit to a curative hypnotherapist- stay tuned!