Guess what!!!!!!!!!!!
I got a Job!!!!!!! I get to be a work study for the Campus ministry office. I get to doit during the summer also so this is great I finally have a job!!! It doesn't start until the Summer so bummer until the summer.... But in other news...I am having troubles with my best friend here at UIW. Shes paranoid and a little depressed and isn't accepting help from anyone. And she is taking even the littlest thing as a personal asult. I tried to help her by going to Beth for advice and we came up witha plan. Unfortunaely what we were going to do was have her talk to Beth and what she said was "Honestly Zack I don't give a f!@#." She was having nothing of talking to Beth and what seemed to knock her over the edge was something that she thinks someone said that let her secret out and she was ready to bitch out the person who let her secret fly. Well one of her other friends, whom is a close friend of mine, did some digging and aparently the guy who said something doesn't know anything about my friend and doesn't even remember saying anything. So since I talked to her she found out I had the meeting with Beth and demanded to be told what we talked about. Well me being the person I am I told her what, a stupid mistake. Well now I have seen neither hide nor hair of her and thats odd which means she is keeping her distance from me. Well I decided to just let it go and let God. I've been following his guidence on and I've done what I believe I was supposed to. I extened the hand, now she either has to take it or slap it away. So I'm going to let her come to me if she thinks she can trust me or if shes done with our friendship. I just pray that she does take the helping hand I am offering. Why do I care so much? It makes me wonder, do I actually have feelings for her? I doubt it but it has crossed my mind a few times. Eh that doesn't matter right now, now the only thing that I need to do is pray and hope she accepts help. See the thing is she is working to effectivly cut her self off even more. She isn't returning to school in the summer or fall. She didn't sign up for a room and isn't going to register for classes. She applied to Concordia in Austin and got in and applied to AtM and hasn't heard back. If she goes to AtM that would be great because she would be around her best friend and she could help her. But her GPA might keep her out and if she dosn't make it she says shes going to Austin and is going to live with her mom. If yall think I don't like my mom much, she makes me seem like I have a saint for a Mom. She not only dislikes her mom a lot but to the point where "if she wasn't paying for the loans, I would not talk with her." If she goes home she will effectively cut her self off almost completely. Hmm crazy, what is it with people coming to me with their problems? I mean true I have contemplated being a priest at some points but I don't have the collar yet. I'm not the best person to come for advice, I am in fact sometimes very wrong. Ayyye, this place is worse than St. B's in some aspects, hard to believe isn't it? And its not just the me helping people its the drama that goes on which to my experience pales the St. B drama and thats saying thing. Ayye is it me or do I just attract it? Oh well I'm going to go and pray and pray and pray. TTYL