This Is The Moment, That You Know, That You Told Her That You Love Her But You Dont...
Well well well... I feel fucked up right now, emotionally, well, i guess im always fucked up just more than usual lately. Who knows, who cares, all I know is im losing it... and there's nothing I can do.
So I guess I'll tell you all about my week so far, why, I don't know... because I don't feel like rambling on too much about pointless shit. So Saturday was my karate's open house. Got there early and helped set up ready to go for lots of people to come through. Then I got put in charge of selling karate supplies to people walking through. Did that for an hour or so then started doing lots of odd jobs here and there and messing around. Then was gonna go swimming with the old ppl's like we do alot but they couldnt make up their minds in time before my ride got there, depressing stuff. But then went to Chain Reaction that evening and that was pretty cool. Actually it was really hot, but it was alot of fun and saw some cool bands. "You Don't Recover From A Night Like This"
Sunday, I decided to do absolutely nothing. I slept most of the day therfor skiping karate and missing out on going swimming at Dave's house. For the entire day, just played guitar, talked on phone and chilled, was sorta nice after a long hectic week. Then didn't get to bed till really late cause my guitar just wouldn't let me stop playing...
Monday... I over slept and missed my Spanish class so I just went back to sleep since I had nothing better to do. I've been so tired lately still though, even when I do sleep alot. Then had work and then since there weren't any instrutor's there and they had asked me to assist in teaching the rest of the classes for the evening I was there until 9. I answered the phone a few times though, that was the highlight, sad huh?
Tuesday, today, woke up to a phone call from my friend at 9:30 in the morning. She had called to tell me what the home work was that I had to do for spanish. So then did school, ate and work, was there from 3-10, long day... badish day...
Pointless Information Time!!!
Please forgive me for making this such a long entry... just feel like writing I guess. But ya, to go along with that always feeling tired thing... my hands have been more shaky lately and this muscle in my shoulder keeps spazzing. If you watch it when it spazzes, you can see it moving, its weird. The shoulder thing is starting to go away... but as for my shaky hands and tiredness, I sliped and let my mom know, now shes worried and wants me to have blood tests. Maybe there is something wrong with me? Maybe that's why I've felt this way? Hmm, who knows.
"Life is just one big balancing act. You swing back and forth from being happy to being depressed. What matters is how you handle the depressed moments and how you enjoy the happy."
...You Touch Her Skin, And Then You Think, That She Is Beautiful, But She Dont Mean A Thing To Me