sur II
just finished big sur. it's positively insane reading this page pointing and underlining and screaming (in my head as to not disturb the cooking party downstairs) that i have felt the exact same thing, i always thought two people necessarily experienced the same situation differently but perhaps i've learned something today and will fall asleep less a fool, read for yourself:
"Now that Billie's asleep and so still and peaceful I wonder if I can sleep just by lying beside her and holding her...I just stare at her shoulders with tears---I'd wake her up and confess everything but I'll only scare her" (183).
i wrote a piece called "dream'd" (edit: found the link) back in '09 it's like i read page 183 before i sat down to write that it's the same emotion unmistakable (i've left out context to both)
if anyone wants my copy i'd be overjoyed to mail it to you...i think it would be a beautiful thing to have this copy floating around, dogeared and underlined with seven different colors of ink (i picked black for convenience) and read it again a year from today and no doubt notice something a friend has circled. i'd say don't lose it!but even if you do, someone else will find it and so it continues, here's another:
"Always an ephemeral 'visitor' to the Coast never really involved with anyone's lives there because I'm always ready to fly back across the country but not to any life of my own on the other end either just a traveling stranger...an exemplar of the loneliness of Doren Coit" (155).
poor Duluoz was this man me in a previous eternity? i read it and smiled, i've felt that it nearly ruined me on two occasions.
i'll stop here because i'll end up typing up the whole book, what a read...
"Now that Billie's asleep and so still and peaceful I wonder if I can sleep just by lying beside her and holding her...I just stare at her shoulders with tears---I'd wake her up and confess everything but I'll only scare her" (183).
i wrote a piece called "dream'd" (edit: found the link) back in '09 it's like i read page 183 before i sat down to write that it's the same emotion unmistakable (i've left out context to both)
if anyone wants my copy i'd be overjoyed to mail it to you...i think it would be a beautiful thing to have this copy floating around, dogeared and underlined with seven different colors of ink (i picked black for convenience) and read it again a year from today and no doubt notice something a friend has circled. i'd say don't lose it!but even if you do, someone else will find it and so it continues, here's another:
"Always an ephemeral 'visitor' to the Coast never really involved with anyone's lives there because I'm always ready to fly back across the country but not to any life of my own on the other end either just a traveling stranger...an exemplar of the loneliness of Doren Coit" (155).
poor Duluoz was this man me in a previous eternity? i read it and smiled, i've felt that it nearly ruined me on two occasions.
i'll stop here because i'll end up typing up the whole book, what a read...