Thoughts and questions
Ever go to bed and just lay there thinkin about how you wish things were different? Can't sleep because all you can think of is that you have been defeated in life, and everything you do is a last ditch attempt to salvage something that has long been lost? Ever have to wake up in 3 hours and feel like your brain is trying to get out of your head? Ever feel like you bring everyone down? Ever feel like you are better than 90% of the earth, yet you still always feel like shit? Ever feel like cutting a nazi's windpipe? Ever have to read something 3 or 4 times before you get it? Ever feel like you have truly lost the person you where meant for, I mean like absolutely lost. Not even friends.This song pretty much sums up the way I feel. It's by Summoning of all people and it's called "Where Hope and Daylight Die". It's about the Elves leaving for the Greyhaven (Tolkien), but it applies here to the way I feel about someone. Go download if you are into Summoning and/or just the whole opera metal type stuff. You won't regret it.
Still here I wake and I think of you
I see you far away
Answer my call
Can you hear my voice
I hear you
For we are gone and forever lost
Broken here I lie
Beneath the shadow sink
Where daylight dies
I wake for you
In better lands the sun may shine
And green leaves on trees spring
Their opening and blossoming
But here the raven sing
But still I stand and think of
Days when grass was green
And my heart was so young
They 've never been Past
Forever lost
It makes sense as I am miserable and she couldn't be happier. Which is good, atleast one of us doesn't suck. It's weird how I compare that to my situation isn't it? I guess I'm a bigger dork than I thought. But at any rate, read up and enjoy I guess.
Still here I wake and I think of you
I see you far away
Answer my call
Can you hear my voice
I hear you
For we are gone and forever lost
Broken here I lie
Beneath the shadow sink
Where daylight dies
I wake for you
In better lands the sun may shine
And green leaves on trees spring
Their opening and blossoming
But here the raven sing
But still I stand and think of
Days when grass was green
And my heart was so young
They 've never been Past
Forever lost
It makes sense as I am miserable and she couldn't be happier. Which is good, atleast one of us doesn't suck. It's weird how I compare that to my situation isn't it? I guess I'm a bigger dork than I thought. But at any rate, read up and enjoy I guess.