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Does it ever seem that no matter what you do you cant catch a break. I mean what else can you do. I try and I try, i even try by not trying. Everytime it seems that maybe something just a little thing might work for me and i can be happy BAM it is slapped down as am i. I rise up and go for the gold again. Yet everytime i trip or am tripped on the way. It seems just in my reach but its moving just as fast as i am and i can never catch it. I dont even know what it is im trying to catch its there i can feel it. That one thing that can make me happy all the way happy. Not that im sad or not happy I just feel like i could be happier. Shit happens though i guess. i can think it happens for a reason, everything will b ok i'm sure of that i'll get by, what if i want to do more than just get by. What if the reason that one thing went wrong is so that i can get my hopes up about something else to be taken away or smashed. The things that i fought so hard with my parents to stay here at western are going away. The friends that were there as my back bone broke. Ironically so very close to the same moment that i fought with my parents to stay here. Why do i have to be stubborn and chose the hard way. Why dont i just choose the traveled road. Just once maybe the traveled road would be better than the unbeaten path. But anyone that knows me i'll complain but i wont change. I'm a push over and i'll just take it as it comes at me. Just thought i'd use this whole journal thing to read what is going on with me and share with ya'll.