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what i meant to say last night is that i'm finally taking some kind of action. i'm making a change; i'm doing something that i rarely do: stepping out my comfort zone (kinda).
december 15 is my last day in texas, for a while at least. i'm packing my shit and moving to florida, with my grandma. i've thought about this for some time and i've decided that i'm actually leaving. this time i'm determined (i have even saved up some money, which, for me, is a feat in itself).
my plan is to go there, find a job, and finish the required classes to enter the dental hygiene program back here at temple college. it's not a total leap of faith; i have family there so getting along won't be all that bad. i figure it will be for two years, at the most. that is, unless i go and fall in love (my mom's biggest fear ha ha).
in all, i'm just tired of being here. everyone else is off enjoying what's left of their youth and all i do is work, and then hang out with people from work. i feel 40 sometimes, honestly, and i hate it. this life is really boring and even a dull person like myself can't even appreciate it. ideally, this will give me the opportunity to become who i really want to be, and so far, i can't do seem to do that in texas.
i want to be carefree (to whatever possible extent), lose my inhibitions, and become more socially outgoing, but most of all, i just want to be content. happy would be nice, but content will do. it's more than i am now.
oh, and i'm not running away from my problems, because that would require problems to run from! that's what sucks. at least having problems would add some excitement.
i need new opportunities, so i'll just create them.
december 15 is my last day in texas, for a while at least. i'm packing my shit and moving to florida, with my grandma. i've thought about this for some time and i've decided that i'm actually leaving. this time i'm determined (i have even saved up some money, which, for me, is a feat in itself).
my plan is to go there, find a job, and finish the required classes to enter the dental hygiene program back here at temple college. it's not a total leap of faith; i have family there so getting along won't be all that bad. i figure it will be for two years, at the most. that is, unless i go and fall in love (my mom's biggest fear ha ha).
in all, i'm just tired of being here. everyone else is off enjoying what's left of their youth and all i do is work, and then hang out with people from work. i feel 40 sometimes, honestly, and i hate it. this life is really boring and even a dull person like myself can't even appreciate it. ideally, this will give me the opportunity to become who i really want to be, and so far, i can't do seem to do that in texas.
i want to be carefree (to whatever possible extent), lose my inhibitions, and become more socially outgoing, but most of all, i just want to be content. happy would be nice, but content will do. it's more than i am now.
oh, and i'm not running away from my problems, because that would require problems to run from! that's what sucks. at least having problems would add some excitement.
i need new opportunities, so i'll just create them.