Always something there to remind me
So, I'm really going through some hard times right now, as the students in the class would know from my personal "home video", anc every day is a struggle. Everything, everywhere, seems to remind me of some aspect of what has caused me all of this incredible pain. Still, I try to distract myself, as much as possible.
Working on a video/audio project for another class, for instance, took up a bunch of my time. All too much. I ended up staying up to 4:30, Wednesday night, only to wake up at 9:30, royally screwing my body and mind up for the next day, not to mention prior lacks of sleep in the days before. Staying up that late, alone, reminded me of incredibly painful things, making it all the worse.
Anyways, my point is, on a daily basis, I am haunted by some recent awful, terrible, horrible events in my life. It is strangely like the haunting I had of a Sesame Street puppet, for 14 years of my life, except much more personally painful, but that's a seperate story, anyway.
So, yesterday my older brother had tickets to this screening of an independent movie, directed by Bob Odenkirk, of "Mr. Show" fame. We are huge fans of his work, and even got to meet him at Sundance, a few years back, where he even invited us to the after-party for the premiere of the Mr. Show movie, "Run Ronnie Run". We didn't get to go, but it was still an awesome experience.
So, last night, we came to the movie, and I sorta didn't and did know what to expect, at the same time. I had heard that it was a big departure from his usual style of sketch-comedy humor. For me, this was worrisome, as it lead me to believe it would be more dramatic with touches of comedy, which it was, exactly. Unfortunately, the drama and issues were all too real for me.
As my brother pointed out, he could see me drawing parallels in about everything, but he couldn't have expected this movie to be SO close to home. It really was painful, and at one point, I was really about to break. He even offered to leave, if I wanted. He's really great and supportive, through all of this, as well as the rest of my family. So, yeah, in the end, the comedy really made me laugh, though much of it was hard to watch, otherwise. Still, in part due to this, I came out thinking it was a GREAT film, which I am not so quick to label most I see.
I'm like that with the word "love", too. It's unfortunate, but I think a lot of people throw that word around, these days, which is sad, as it seems to blur and devalue it when expressed to those who truly are deserving of it. Just a side thought.
Anyways, though I had to go to the bathroom, more than anything, I sat through the Q&A at the end, and though my brother didn't want to hang around the line of admiring nerds waiting to get their "Mr. Show" and "Ben Stiller Show" DVDs signed, I did, but not quite to just be another admiring nerd, though I am one. I wanted to let Bob know I appreciated the film, though it hurt, but that made it more real. With movies, as well as plays and books, and other media, people tend to need to relate. I related to various issues, and specifically, I remember Bob's small appearance, as well, and really feeling for his character.
I also reminded him of our earlier meeting, let him know my appreciation for always butting his brother, Bill, in his work, as I too, am a younger brother of a film-maker, always appearing in some form, in my brother's work, and thanking him for showing it and being there. The guy who wrote and starred in it was there, too, and I should have probably let him know my feelings, as far as the content, but I really didn't know how to approach him, plus, I guess it was in how the movie was put together that the various issues really came across. Then again, he did edit it, too, on FinalCut Pro, no less. I don't know, Bob's just more familiar to me.
So, yeah, that sorta sums up my feelings from the last few days, with a focus on last night. Nothing really to report video-wise, except being really proud of my piece for my other class. I'm really happy with how it came out, and would be glad to show it to anyone interested. That's about it, I guess. Take care.
Working on a video/audio project for another class, for instance, took up a bunch of my time. All too much. I ended up staying up to 4:30, Wednesday night, only to wake up at 9:30, royally screwing my body and mind up for the next day, not to mention prior lacks of sleep in the days before. Staying up that late, alone, reminded me of incredibly painful things, making it all the worse.
Anyways, my point is, on a daily basis, I am haunted by some recent awful, terrible, horrible events in my life. It is strangely like the haunting I had of a Sesame Street puppet, for 14 years of my life, except much more personally painful, but that's a seperate story, anyway.
So, yesterday my older brother had tickets to this screening of an independent movie, directed by Bob Odenkirk, of "Mr. Show" fame. We are huge fans of his work, and even got to meet him at Sundance, a few years back, where he even invited us to the after-party for the premiere of the Mr. Show movie, "Run Ronnie Run". We didn't get to go, but it was still an awesome experience.
So, last night, we came to the movie, and I sorta didn't and did know what to expect, at the same time. I had heard that it was a big departure from his usual style of sketch-comedy humor. For me, this was worrisome, as it lead me to believe it would be more dramatic with touches of comedy, which it was, exactly. Unfortunately, the drama and issues were all too real for me.
As my brother pointed out, he could see me drawing parallels in about everything, but he couldn't have expected this movie to be SO close to home. It really was painful, and at one point, I was really about to break. He even offered to leave, if I wanted. He's really great and supportive, through all of this, as well as the rest of my family. So, yeah, in the end, the comedy really made me laugh, though much of it was hard to watch, otherwise. Still, in part due to this, I came out thinking it was a GREAT film, which I am not so quick to label most I see.
I'm like that with the word "love", too. It's unfortunate, but I think a lot of people throw that word around, these days, which is sad, as it seems to blur and devalue it when expressed to those who truly are deserving of it. Just a side thought.
Anyways, though I had to go to the bathroom, more than anything, I sat through the Q&A at the end, and though my brother didn't want to hang around the line of admiring nerds waiting to get their "Mr. Show" and "Ben Stiller Show" DVDs signed, I did, but not quite to just be another admiring nerd, though I am one. I wanted to let Bob know I appreciated the film, though it hurt, but that made it more real. With movies, as well as plays and books, and other media, people tend to need to relate. I related to various issues, and specifically, I remember Bob's small appearance, as well, and really feeling for his character.
I also reminded him of our earlier meeting, let him know my appreciation for always butting his brother, Bill, in his work, as I too, am a younger brother of a film-maker, always appearing in some form, in my brother's work, and thanking him for showing it and being there. The guy who wrote and starred in it was there, too, and I should have probably let him know my feelings, as far as the content, but I really didn't know how to approach him, plus, I guess it was in how the movie was put together that the various issues really came across. Then again, he did edit it, too, on FinalCut Pro, no less. I don't know, Bob's just more familiar to me.
So, yeah, that sorta sums up my feelings from the last few days, with a focus on last night. Nothing really to report video-wise, except being really proud of my piece for my other class. I'm really happy with how it came out, and would be glad to show it to anyone interested. That's about it, I guess. Take care.