id give it all.
i cant even begin to say whatever it is im feeling right now.
ive been thinking non-stop about how many times ive been hurt by similar actions, or even closely related to how a friend of mine recently got hurt. i remember panic attacks, and just crazy shit. There were plenty of times when things were just fucked up, and i can never describe just how dark things seemed for me. Ive been lower than low, and felt much lower than that.
its weird though. i know how it feels, i know things get better, but i remember when i went through this and people told me the same things, but i never believed them. I cant blame her for her doubts.
at times i wish i could go through this again for her. because i know things will be fine, but at the same time she's got to learn it...
ive been thinking non-stop about how many times ive been hurt by similar actions, or even closely related to how a friend of mine recently got hurt. i remember panic attacks, and just crazy shit. There were plenty of times when things were just fucked up, and i can never describe just how dark things seemed for me. Ive been lower than low, and felt much lower than that.
its weird though. i know how it feels, i know things get better, but i remember when i went through this and people told me the same things, but i never believed them. I cant blame her for her doubts.
at times i wish i could go through this again for her. because i know things will be fine, but at the same time she's got to learn it...