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so ive been home for awhile and havent updated. I havent really had anything worth writting about. If it's all that important im still lonely as fuck, only now i think i have strep throat or something similar. I feel like shit, and i have absolutely no money, none at all, but i cant work, hell i can barely breath.
Im not sure why i havent updated, maybe i thought if i didnt update i wouldnt ever think of all the same problems that i think of when i start updating, but of course that isnt the reason.
I always thought that id be ok, so long as i convinced everyone i dont talk or think about you, but truth be known i think of you now more than ever. The most unexplainable part though, is that every thought i have is a remembrance of a love i had for you, and they're all generally positive thoughts. the weird part is, there isnt a thing in this world that would make me be with you again, i question considering you a friend.
thus far summer is a goddamn bust. Ive been spending time with people i love, but its the same people ive always hung out with. I miss other friends too, one in particular who always makes me happy. walking downtown and whatnot.
again fuck this shit.
zachary
Im not sure why i havent updated, maybe i thought if i didnt update i wouldnt ever think of all the same problems that i think of when i start updating, but of course that isnt the reason.
I always thought that id be ok, so long as i convinced everyone i dont talk or think about you, but truth be known i think of you now more than ever. The most unexplainable part though, is that every thought i have is a remembrance of a love i had for you, and they're all generally positive thoughts. the weird part is, there isnt a thing in this world that would make me be with you again, i question considering you a friend.
thus far summer is a goddamn bust. Ive been spending time with people i love, but its the same people ive always hung out with. I miss other friends too, one in particular who always makes me happy. walking downtown and whatnot.
again fuck this shit.
zachary