It's been a while

[zach_it]

I come to my livejournal many times during the day. Mainly it's just to see what other people have to say. It's my turn to say something.

I've been feeling very overwhelmed lately. I feel more overwhelmed about things in my life than there seem to be.

My dad is coming in town this Wednesday and I am not excited. I've never come out to him, and I've always been nervous about it. I don't know if this weekend is the weekend that he'll find out, but I don't want him to come. It stresses me out. But I know it'll stress me out more if he doesn't come.

I hate school. As much as I'm trying to stay and focus and want to be there...I really don't want to be. I miss my freedom. I miss late nights with my friends. I miss no homework or papers. I miss being able to spend time with my mom.

I've never been better at work before though. I've been making really good money and customer relations lately. But, I've been more honest with people, and I guess they don't like it. I guess it goes with the whole "truth hurts" thing.

I've been wishing lately that I could go back to when I was younger. When I didn't know as much as I do about the world. And about how people really are.

I know that I'm going to be really down this coming Wednesday.

I just need to release a large amount of negative emotions. I need to cry. I need to scream.

I'm just sick of fighting it.