Trouble In Paradise
Do you ever feel as if the people you love and the things live for are slipping away slowly but surely?or that you know you have to make a really important decision like within the next few months but you just can't decide?or that time is slipping away too quickly and you know you cant do anything to stop it?
I feel as if my friends are starting to move on from me.like the things i say and the things i do don't really even matter anymore.like if i go away for a month they begin to migrate the opposite way as if i don't exist.they're doing their own thing with others and i feel absolutely left out.like every year kat and amber go to warped tour without me.now granted im usually up here by the time it starts but i would at least want to be considered at least.but maybe thats being a litle selfish of me.maybe they need that time alone together.like it's THEIR time and i should...frankly just butt out.and katherine's moving so maybe it's a good thing i didn't go.
now onto my next dilemma(sp).i am going to be 18 in like 14 months.thats only a small bit over a year.i dont have a savings account for college,i dont have a job,i still dont know if i want to go to college in florida or vermont or if i want to enlist in the military,and i plan on moving up to vermont for a year after i graduate but i have no car and i have no money and i have no sense of direction so getting up here is going to be an issue all itself.i just dont know what to do.
alright so now my last issue.time.as forementioned, i am going to be 18 in 14 months.but i still feel like a child.i know it's time for me to start getting serious but what if i don't?and as i am now, the only reason that i am surviving at life is because of my parents.they're (metaphorically) holding my hands and guiding me through life but what happens when they let go?what am i to do then.its just like when every little kid was learning how to ride a bike.your parents were there to hold you up in the beginning and then they let go and you were on your own.granted they were there to pick you up if you fell which im sure they'll do in life but sometimes you have to face things on your own.i guess going to get my cna degree at the votech my senior year is a really good idea so i can work in the hospital to earn a little more than minimum wage.well thatnks for listening.
I feel as if my friends are starting to move on from me.like the things i say and the things i do don't really even matter anymore.like if i go away for a month they begin to migrate the opposite way as if i don't exist.they're doing their own thing with others and i feel absolutely left out.like every year kat and amber go to warped tour without me.now granted im usually up here by the time it starts but i would at least want to be considered at least.but maybe thats being a litle selfish of me.maybe they need that time alone together.like it's THEIR time and i should...frankly just butt out.and katherine's moving so maybe it's a good thing i didn't go.
now onto my next dilemma(sp).i am going to be 18 in like 14 months.thats only a small bit over a year.i dont have a savings account for college,i dont have a job,i still dont know if i want to go to college in florida or vermont or if i want to enlist in the military,and i plan on moving up to vermont for a year after i graduate but i have no car and i have no money and i have no sense of direction so getting up here is going to be an issue all itself.i just dont know what to do.
alright so now my last issue.time.as forementioned, i am going to be 18 in 14 months.but i still feel like a child.i know it's time for me to start getting serious but what if i don't?and as i am now, the only reason that i am surviving at life is because of my parents.they're (metaphorically) holding my hands and guiding me through life but what happens when they let go?what am i to do then.its just like when every little kid was learning how to ride a bike.your parents were there to hold you up in the beginning and then they let go and you were on your own.granted they were there to pick you up if you fell which im sure they'll do in life but sometimes you have to face things on your own.i guess going to get my cna degree at the votech my senior year is a really good idea so i can work in the hospital to earn a little more than minimum wage.well thatnks for listening.