dissappointment
Have you ever seen the look of cold disappointment in a friend's eyes, and it's focused on you? It's one of the worst feelings in the world. I've now experienced it twice, and both times it was because I didn't tell someone something. This is two times too many. My friends mean too much to me to disappoint, so when I do I want to die. The trouble will be rectified, but it doesn't take away the memory of the cold disappointment, and how I was its target.