I ran
oy... sore....
today I've been siting in this chair for nearly 8 hours...
But that isn't why I'm sore. It all goes back to friday in the weight room...
Another part of my life I hardly mention or even take pleausre in... I just do it blindly. Its been pretty hard this year trying to motivate myself to come after school and lift weights and run and beat the crap out of myself. Haha infact everyday I make it easier on myself do less and yet everyday it gets harder. It sort of make sense but I must have missed a few days because today moving was a little akward.
Yesterday I was running around the block that the school is on, humming that flock of seaguls song.
I ran,
I ran so far away,
I just ran,
I ran all night and day,
I couldn't get away...
and now I've been thinking of that song and that daydream I keep having (which will soon be the new layout, hopefully) what is it is it I'm running from? what is the need to constantly stay occupied? Is to avoid the fear of lonliness? Or of the future which seems so bleake? Or to silence the voices in my head? To be happy? I love asking questions I can't answer (at least I don't want to answer)
I'm begginging to be at peace with this emotion of the world falling apart of all the possible days when Someone I've cared for leaves me and that every weekend I will sit in a chair for 8 hours thinking of anything that might come to mind, alone
eh.... you have your good and your bad weeks
been experimenting with photoshop a lot recently.... check out what I've been occupying my time with
the last two were going to be stuff for dustin but he poo-pooed it... meh... all of these were made from scratch using just photoshop not imports or anything. anyone can recreate these if they want. Go here for thousands of photoshop tutorials that will make you look like a pro or something. Love to all