Its Funny How You Can Remember Somethings And Others Can't.....
Sitting down at nights anymore thoughts always go through my mind. Things have changed for me so much. My hair is to black now and I have my hear peiced yep gots a hole in it with a hear ring. Lot of things change anymore. I'll miss the past in ways I miss the faces of the people I talked to the good times always and always the bad times I'll remember to remember the mistakes that I need to have learned from.
Its hard sometimes though to keep going on. At least you have your friends to help you through. My only wish is that people can understand the real true in love and talk about it in a good manner instead of getting the whole concept wrong. It screws with peoples heads. It breaks peoples hearts. Life always goes on though but the damage has already been done left there broken inside your head. I haven't wroten for along time because of the fact just didn't seem to matter anymore. Reading over entry after entry pathetic self pitty pain. In anyone though we have it. Deep down inside though its still always there a massive pool of pain and hurt. Its the scars of live I guess the sarrows and emotions tucked deep down inside of us all.
Every memory though is all of there faces....
Every back in school.....
Every moment through out a life time of childhood.....
Only now exists within a simple memory of a day and time....
I'll miss them all....
It makes me cry alot inside....
Just only knowing I wish I could of done better back than....
For those I caused pain to and that do remember me....
I'm sorry I screwed up the things I've done back than.....
Forgive me for not being a better human being.....
The things I've done wrong I know I learned from them....
I promise I won't make those mistakes again.....
At night is hard to go to sleep. Floods of a life time float always inside my head. Girls I've had crushes on, things to them I should of just had common sence and realized what I was to them, nothing. People I've fallen in love with and lost,to them I'm sorry I couldn't of done my best to keep it together to make it last to make it work to them they will always have my love and apologie, I know its not much to say but to them I am so so very sorry.
Deep down inside theres all of sadness. Still is, I'm afraid it won't just go away it will linger its just the matter of controling it and living a happy life the best I can. I want love in my life again want someone specail. I hope it will exist in time. I hope I can find her someday. Until than it just amazes me how you can remember somethings and other can't, I guess pretty much what you remember is what matters most to you carrying them this far for so long. I'll miss you all.
The below is a list of all the names in my memory of the people that have impacted my life in major ways starting with the youngest of years this is for you all I miss you all and yeah I love you all too.
Stephani
Travis Sortor& his younger brother
Steven Moffit and Brian Moffit
Brody
Tyler
Jeremy
(The Twins Kevin Kyle)
Lealand
Jason Pointer
Kevin Hanson
Trenton
Levi Shockly
Jesse Nelson
Mike Kestler
Sarah
Ryan
Dusty
Dustin
Gary Holyoak
Scott Anderson&Ashely Anderson
Jake Dixon
Sarah Berg
Brody Holyoak
Kent Selders
Mike Holyoak
Andrew Ramsey
Chas Lavender
Jamie Guyton
Sherry Barlow
Mark Wheeler
Ashley Williams
Kelly Katona
Emily Welch
Candi Lewis
Opal Jepson
Somethings come without words to say to make things really count but this list of name are those names I remember from when I was very young and getting older through out life. To all these people I just want them too know that I'm grantful for just knowing you. I love you all so very much with me in my memorie for all times and always dear to my heart.
Take care through out all your lives and may you find what it is that will make you live happy and a whole life. Take care to those names without last names I'll miss you always for time splits people way I'll always remember you and remember the times we shared together. God bless you all my friends, god bless you so much.
Its hard sometimes though to keep going on. At least you have your friends to help you through. My only wish is that people can understand the real true in love and talk about it in a good manner instead of getting the whole concept wrong. It screws with peoples heads. It breaks peoples hearts. Life always goes on though but the damage has already been done left there broken inside your head. I haven't wroten for along time because of the fact just didn't seem to matter anymore. Reading over entry after entry pathetic self pitty pain. In anyone though we have it. Deep down inside though its still always there a massive pool of pain and hurt. Its the scars of live I guess the sarrows and emotions tucked deep down inside of us all.
Every memory though is all of there faces....
Every back in school.....
Every moment through out a life time of childhood.....
Only now exists within a simple memory of a day and time....
I'll miss them all....
It makes me cry alot inside....
Just only knowing I wish I could of done better back than....
For those I caused pain to and that do remember me....
I'm sorry I screwed up the things I've done back than.....
Forgive me for not being a better human being.....
The things I've done wrong I know I learned from them....
I promise I won't make those mistakes again.....
At night is hard to go to sleep. Floods of a life time float always inside my head. Girls I've had crushes on, things to them I should of just had common sence and realized what I was to them, nothing. People I've fallen in love with and lost,to them I'm sorry I couldn't of done my best to keep it together to make it last to make it work to them they will always have my love and apologie, I know its not much to say but to them I am so so very sorry.
Deep down inside theres all of sadness. Still is, I'm afraid it won't just go away it will linger its just the matter of controling it and living a happy life the best I can. I want love in my life again want someone specail. I hope it will exist in time. I hope I can find her someday. Until than it just amazes me how you can remember somethings and other can't, I guess pretty much what you remember is what matters most to you carrying them this far for so long. I'll miss you all.
The below is a list of all the names in my memory of the people that have impacted my life in major ways starting with the youngest of years this is for you all I miss you all and yeah I love you all too.
Stephani
Travis Sortor& his younger brother
Steven Moffit and Brian Moffit
Brody
Tyler
Jeremy
(The Twins Kevin Kyle)
Lealand
Jason Pointer
Kevin Hanson
Trenton
Levi Shockly
Jesse Nelson
Mike Kestler
Sarah
Ryan
Dusty
Dustin
Gary Holyoak
Scott Anderson&Ashely Anderson
Jake Dixon
Sarah Berg
Brody Holyoak
Kent Selders
Mike Holyoak
Andrew Ramsey
Chas Lavender
Jamie Guyton
Sherry Barlow
Mark Wheeler
Ashley Williams
Kelly Katona
Emily Welch
Candi Lewis
Opal Jepson
Somethings come without words to say to make things really count but this list of name are those names I remember from when I was very young and getting older through out life. To all these people I just want them too know that I'm grantful for just knowing you. I love you all so very much with me in my memorie for all times and always dear to my heart.
Take care through out all your lives and may you find what it is that will make you live happy and a whole life. Take care to those names without last names I'll miss you always for time splits people way I'll always remember you and remember the times we shared together. God bless you all my friends, god bless you so much.