At Long Last....
Alright. Due to certain circumstances this journal is going off the air to the public. that's right kidz. adios. hasta la vista.
First of all, I would like to say thank you to a very select few people that have stood by me no matter what and never questioned my word. It's people like you that make this world bearable. And i am so happy and proud to know you.
I WOULD like to make an admission. Yes. I lied to vicki. Though not about what you'd think. I never lied about sleeping with jason. I DID lie when i said i didn't know where he was. I'm not going to go into the whole blame game thing here. This has gone on far enough and hurt too many people to continue. I also find it amusing how all the people pointing fingers are the same hypocrits that lie and cheat themselves. we all have our secrets.
For example, jason never told vicki that he cheated on her... not with me... but with some girl (jenna or laura or something like that) quite a few months ago. Katie, you slept with traxler while you were still technically involved with rob. anne's slept with her friend's ex in her parent's hot tub while two other girls where laying on the bed in the adjacent room. both of whom have spilled a long time ago. vicki, you've never told amber how speak of her when she's not around. how she's exhausting and narrowminded and a hypocrite.
i can guarantee that almost every single person that is reading this at this very moment has done something to be ashamed of. has a secret they haven't told anyone except their very best friend... and i'm also sure that everyone has had something horrible spread about them that really wasn't true. that's when you realize who the people are that you need to keep in your life at all costs... and those that you need to get rid of at all costs.
i've had some pretty bad shit happen to me. Bothered and harassed at work. Threatened. my car's been egged. Rumors flying around more than a month after the initial problem occured. I've been betrayed and backstabbed more times in the last month then i care to recount. But worst of all, my dignity and pride has been thefted from me for something that I NEVER DID. and the people that know me... those that love me and know who i am and can swear to my strength of character will vouch for me. even though their loyalty and support is more than i could have ever even dreamed to be given.
So if you don't mind, if you're really so over it and there's nothing more to say, i'd appreciate it if you wouldn't keep trying to tell people that aren't concerned your side of the story. spreading rumors to people like dustin and the rest of the macdonalds crew really is trying too hard to prove a point that doesn't exist... isn't it? when your own friends didn't believe you, you started relying on people that don't know me... and therefor have no reason to NOT believe you. Don't come into my work unless you intend to buy something. Stop taking my friends out to dinner just to try and convince them that you're right. Stop being petty and rediculous and just move on with your lives. This situation has gotten way out of hand and it needs to stop. I'm sick and I'm tired and I'm too exhausted to keep defending myself to people that don't matter in my life... so i'm not going to bother. But do know that there ARE people out there that care very deeply for me and that I care very deeply for, and if you continue to attempt to hurt us we will fight back... not just for ourselves, but for each other. I wouldn't expect you to understand. All of your bonds with other people are abusive, one-sided, or superficial. Therefore you couldn't possibly understand the depths of the bonds that connect the rest of us.
leave me be. It's over and it's done with. So just move on. Get a life. Back off. And if you choose to ignore my suggestion, just know that in the end, you will get yours.
good bye guys, i'll see you later.
~Katie-Lynn Zylka~
aka Zuko
JUST REMEMBER WHEN ALL IS SAID AND DONE, EVERYTHING COMES FULL CIRCLE.
First of all, I would like to say thank you to a very select few people that have stood by me no matter what and never questioned my word. It's people like you that make this world bearable. And i am so happy and proud to know you.
I WOULD like to make an admission. Yes. I lied to vicki. Though not about what you'd think. I never lied about sleeping with jason. I DID lie when i said i didn't know where he was. I'm not going to go into the whole blame game thing here. This has gone on far enough and hurt too many people to continue. I also find it amusing how all the people pointing fingers are the same hypocrits that lie and cheat themselves. we all have our secrets.
For example, jason never told vicki that he cheated on her... not with me... but with some girl (jenna or laura or something like that) quite a few months ago. Katie, you slept with traxler while you were still technically involved with rob. anne's slept with her friend's ex in her parent's hot tub while two other girls where laying on the bed in the adjacent room. both of whom have spilled a long time ago. vicki, you've never told amber how speak of her when she's not around. how she's exhausting and narrowminded and a hypocrite.
i can guarantee that almost every single person that is reading this at this very moment has done something to be ashamed of. has a secret they haven't told anyone except their very best friend... and i'm also sure that everyone has had something horrible spread about them that really wasn't true. that's when you realize who the people are that you need to keep in your life at all costs... and those that you need to get rid of at all costs.
i've had some pretty bad shit happen to me. Bothered and harassed at work. Threatened. my car's been egged. Rumors flying around more than a month after the initial problem occured. I've been betrayed and backstabbed more times in the last month then i care to recount. But worst of all, my dignity and pride has been thefted from me for something that I NEVER DID. and the people that know me... those that love me and know who i am and can swear to my strength of character will vouch for me. even though their loyalty and support is more than i could have ever even dreamed to be given.
So if you don't mind, if you're really so over it and there's nothing more to say, i'd appreciate it if you wouldn't keep trying to tell people that aren't concerned your side of the story. spreading rumors to people like dustin and the rest of the macdonalds crew really is trying too hard to prove a point that doesn't exist... isn't it? when your own friends didn't believe you, you started relying on people that don't know me... and therefor have no reason to NOT believe you. Don't come into my work unless you intend to buy something. Stop taking my friends out to dinner just to try and convince them that you're right. Stop being petty and rediculous and just move on with your lives. This situation has gotten way out of hand and it needs to stop. I'm sick and I'm tired and I'm too exhausted to keep defending myself to people that don't matter in my life... so i'm not going to bother. But do know that there ARE people out there that care very deeply for me and that I care very deeply for, and if you continue to attempt to hurt us we will fight back... not just for ourselves, but for each other. I wouldn't expect you to understand. All of your bonds with other people are abusive, one-sided, or superficial. Therefore you couldn't possibly understand the depths of the bonds that connect the rest of us.
leave me be. It's over and it's done with. So just move on. Get a life. Back off. And if you choose to ignore my suggestion, just know that in the end, you will get yours.
good bye guys, i'll see you later.
~Katie-Lynn Zylka~
aka Zuko
JUST REMEMBER WHEN ALL IS SAID AND DONE, EVERYTHING COMES FULL CIRCLE.