:S awkward
I am feeling really anxious, all the time, and there is no reason for it.
My life is good. Can't complain. Stable job, positive life and everything else.
And yet I just can't shake this feeling that I'm supposed to be doing something else; every hour, every minute I'm just wasting away, and I'm a little concerned that it's going to lead to something outlandish like throwing it all away and just doing something crazy.
Kinda like the times I just decided I would climb a mountain, or throw all my money away to travel the world alone.
But I have good things now that would be really stupid to throw away and the motivation behind even considering these things just seems so *wrong*.
It's almost like I can't settle. It's like I have *really* itchy feet... really itchy feet, and I just have to get up and do something. Shake the world, get the shackles off my feet and do something crazy and frittery.
Is it going to be like this when I have kids? I'll just get this constant feeling that I'm not a good enough mother, and one day just pack it all in and leave?
My head is being weird again.
My life is good. Can't complain. Stable job, positive life and everything else.
And yet I just can't shake this feeling that I'm supposed to be doing something else; every hour, every minute I'm just wasting away, and I'm a little concerned that it's going to lead to something outlandish like throwing it all away and just doing something crazy.
Kinda like the times I just decided I would climb a mountain, or throw all my money away to travel the world alone.
But I have good things now that would be really stupid to throw away and the motivation behind even considering these things just seems so *wrong*.
It's almost like I can't settle. It's like I have *really* itchy feet... really itchy feet, and I just have to get up and do something. Shake the world, get the shackles off my feet and do something crazy and frittery.
Is it going to be like this when I have kids? I'll just get this constant feeling that I'm not a good enough mother, and one day just pack it all in and leave?
My head is being weird again.