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hey all, wats up? nothin much here. im tired and i have a headache. and my toe just started hurting for no apparent reason. i may meet up with sam tommorow if she's at heine bros. i might see izabella, if she isnt busy fucking around with matt, and i may go to a band practice tommorow. we are all starting to get serious about this band thing, and ive written a bunch of songs, lyrics and guitar, but they all suck. we are gonna try to go somewhere with this band thing, because the concert demonstrated that we have it together and are really good instrumentally, so we are trying to get sam#2's singing up to par, and we will be good. we have some more possible gigs this summer, since apparently that punk rock guy with the cane who was there was a rep for a local club scene type thing, and he told daniel that if we can write our own songs and get a good singer, he can hook us up for some paid gigs. and maybe get us to record a demo. which would be fucking kickass. my carreer as a guitarist may be possible.
and in other news, im pissed at matt. he keeps on telling me im flirting with turkey, and i really am not. to tell the truth, im one of the reasons they are like they are right now. i remember i was walking with jessica and ally-j, and ally-j walked on ahead, and i said to jessica:
me:hey, so whats the deal with you and matt? do you still like him at all?
her:no
me:oh come on, i know you do. he still really likes you
her:yeah but he's just gonna do the same thing he did before-
me:no he's not. i know him, he's serious about you. look, if he asked you out again in the right way, the right place, and the right time, would you say yes?
her:i dont know. maybe
and now that they are crazy for eachother again, matt doesnt even want me spending time around her cause i might steal her from him. if i really wanted to steal her, i would have done it then, back when i still *did* like her. but no i would never do that to my best friend, but now i see that was a mistake because he keeps taking me for granted and he's trying to take turkey, his "new best friend" away from me, because you know i totally have to the looks and the moves to steal her from him. matt, im not the fucking weasel you make me out to be. i thought you would know me betterr than that. for real. i may not be your best friend anymore, but your still mine.
well life is desciding to fuck up when things start to get good again. its like someone in charge said "wait, ethans having a good time, fix that error" and again it goes back to shit. i havent been truly happy in like 3 months. maybe some momentary good times, but then drama starts up.
and i am officialy gonna beat up jons dad. i hate him.
but i fucking hate everything right now, so you know, it doesnt matter. life is supposed to suck for me. bye.
and in other news, im pissed at matt. he keeps on telling me im flirting with turkey, and i really am not. to tell the truth, im one of the reasons they are like they are right now. i remember i was walking with jessica and ally-j, and ally-j walked on ahead, and i said to jessica:
me:hey, so whats the deal with you and matt? do you still like him at all?
her:no
me:oh come on, i know you do. he still really likes you
her:yeah but he's just gonna do the same thing he did before-
me:no he's not. i know him, he's serious about you. look, if he asked you out again in the right way, the right place, and the right time, would you say yes?
her:i dont know. maybe
and now that they are crazy for eachother again, matt doesnt even want me spending time around her cause i might steal her from him. if i really wanted to steal her, i would have done it then, back when i still *did* like her. but no i would never do that to my best friend, but now i see that was a mistake because he keeps taking me for granted and he's trying to take turkey, his "new best friend" away from me, because you know i totally have to the looks and the moves to steal her from him. matt, im not the fucking weasel you make me out to be. i thought you would know me betterr than that. for real. i may not be your best friend anymore, but your still mine.
well life is desciding to fuck up when things start to get good again. its like someone in charge said "wait, ethans having a good time, fix that error" and again it goes back to shit. i havent been truly happy in like 3 months. maybe some momentary good times, but then drama starts up.
and i am officialy gonna beat up jons dad. i hate him.
but i fucking hate everything right now, so you know, it doesnt matter. life is supposed to suck for me. bye.