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hey...didn't really do what i said i was gonna do this weekend. friday night i went to Tiffany's with the girls...lol..we were surrounded by old ppl...we are so cool. then i pranked called josh...guys are funny...they'll stay on the hone with u as long as u sound all sexual...they'll never change.
saturday i went to the mall with my mom and my sister, i wasn't gonna go but at the last minute i decided to go. saturday night i stayed in...played with harry and jack for a second then i spent the remainder of the night sobbing in my room...yea..um..
sunday i felt like melted ice cream...i was so not into doing nething...i actually woke up crying...(i think i opened a flood gate or something this weekend and now i can't close it back up.) yea, plus the fact that the Eagles lost..that didnt help. sunday night, maggie and i saw a movie...it felt good to get out of my sanctuary. thanx mag! :)
monday i was off..and i felt somewhat better...my eyes filled up a little but i didnt cry, thank god...yea, i just hung around the house..did my homework...yea..my sister came over with baby jamie..he kept staring at me when i had my glasses on..he made me uncomfortable..lol..i kept trying to get him to throw this rubber mouse we have at my mom cause she freaks out when it comes near her...and last night i talked to dan. havent talked to that kid in awhile...that was nice.
and today...i still feel like melted ice cream but my eyes are dry..thats progress i guess. im glad to be back in school. berry pet my head today...it felt soothing. is it strange that i feel like im home when im here. i guess since my home is sometimes a lonely place for me...at school, ur never lonely cause ur always surrounded by ppl...even though i dont really talk to them...but i guess im always quiet...as long as im somewhat smiling, u know im having a good time.
i guess i should go and do the work im supposed to be doing...not much time left in the period.
saturday i went to the mall with my mom and my sister, i wasn't gonna go but at the last minute i decided to go. saturday night i stayed in...played with harry and jack for a second then i spent the remainder of the night sobbing in my room...yea..um..
sunday i felt like melted ice cream...i was so not into doing nething...i actually woke up crying...(i think i opened a flood gate or something this weekend and now i can't close it back up.) yea, plus the fact that the Eagles lost..that didnt help. sunday night, maggie and i saw a movie...it felt good to get out of my sanctuary. thanx mag! :)
monday i was off..and i felt somewhat better...my eyes filled up a little but i didnt cry, thank god...yea, i just hung around the house..did my homework...yea..my sister came over with baby jamie..he kept staring at me when i had my glasses on..he made me uncomfortable..lol..i kept trying to get him to throw this rubber mouse we have at my mom cause she freaks out when it comes near her...and last night i talked to dan. havent talked to that kid in awhile...that was nice.
and today...i still feel like melted ice cream but my eyes are dry..thats progress i guess. im glad to be back in school. berry pet my head today...it felt soothing. is it strange that i feel like im home when im here. i guess since my home is sometimes a lonely place for me...at school, ur never lonely cause ur always surrounded by ppl...even though i dont really talk to them...but i guess im always quiet...as long as im somewhat smiling, u know im having a good time.
i guess i should go and do the work im supposed to be doing...not much time left in the period.