Nothing to say
Today i have a terrible day... i had received a film of a giftbox.. and my boss ask him how come the direction is not right.. i said nothing to him. What i can say, before haven't issue the film, from the inbox, i already told him the direction is not right.. but u still insist to issue the film. and now he ask me back how come it's not correct.. i have nothing to say, even i said it's useless.. he don't even remember what he said... no matter what's the consequence the blame would still go on me.. cos i follow this artwork.. I really have nothing to say, becos after that case happen, the wrong shipping mark, he wn't trust me easily now! i knew it's tough to rebuild my image in his mind, and i am also very tired. Nothing can motivate me to this job now, but maybe just gain some experience first and plan after. Today while i was waiting the bus, i knew that my tear is about to fall down, i told myself not to do that, i hate that.. i was telling myself, u fall one tear down that means i lost already!! how can be more independant.. while the wind blew on my face, the sky is getting dark, i even hate my father... not becos of him, i can have better development, not becos of him, i won't have that poor knowledge....... not becos of him, maybe i can be more better. Second person i hate the most it's ah kit, won't try to find my diploma.... second monster who brought all the nightmares to my life.. oh my goodness, i don't i am very tired.. very tired..... i dn't even know how to share my pressure.. i am like tired to don't even know how to share..... my mind can't think of anything. (i know alot of grammar) can't think, really can't think! My work suddenly build up like a mountain... can't adjust my mind what to do first, which is urgent. I can feel myself like, just bringing a body to work, but with no heart in it..... Maybe this is one of the stage that everybody will go thru... but at least i know i am stepping on it. Yeah, maybe times can teach me on it.. and usually, i will share w/people, don't know why, tonight need a silence night.. dn't want to hear comment, or support. Maybe i am very tired......
