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I wish I was properly active on LJ.
Its making me really depressed right now. Its probably other things though, that are just coming out this way.
My aunt wants me to read books about why to stay religious and jewish and I want to do it because she is the only relative who is kind of nice to me, but its stressful and annoying.
My sister (who lives in South Africa) is here for a month, and I went out with her and her kids for a day. We went to a really fun place, and enjoyed seeing my nieces, but its weird spending time with my sister because we pretend as though everything is normal, and I dont mention a word about my life or anything Im doing because we pretend as though my whole life is different. So it ends up being really cold. My sister who just got married and moved to isreal was in london for a bit but she didnt contact me or anything. That kind of hurt.
Besides for that, life is good. I started seeing a therapist who specializes in people who left cults. She is really nice and its good to have someone to talk to but I hate spending so much money just to talk to someone. It really puts me off going.
I have the day off tomorrow. Hopefully going to Dover, should be fun.
Pic of me at Cuckmere Haven, last friday:
