The sex thing
For some reason, I've just managed to come up with a comprehensible explanation of my (a?)sexuality.
I think the best way to describe myself is 'occasionally sexual'!
In my normal state, I have a need for love and a need for orgasms, but they don't really join up. So instead of having a sexual partner, I prefer to have friends and masturbate. :D I can fancy people, but in a fairly pre-pubescent way - my fantasies tend to revolve around nursing people through fevers, carrying them out of burning buildings, and so on, rather than actually having genital contact with them.
However, I do have sexual phases, often triggered by a crush on someone real or fictional. During those phases I definitely feel lust and longing to have sex. However, those phases don't last all that long, especially if I actually DO have sex. This effectively puts the mockers on me having a long-term relationship.
Having broken my own and other people's hearts several times before working this out, I'm now down with it and really content being single, especially as I'm not interested in having children. It's hard to explain, but I feel more like me this way. I don't really even think of myself as 'single' any more than you'd think of a child, a dog, or a tree as 'single' - it's not even a question.
I hope this makes some sort of sense...!
I think the best way to describe myself is 'occasionally sexual'!
In my normal state, I have a need for love and a need for orgasms, but they don't really join up. So instead of having a sexual partner, I prefer to have friends and masturbate. :D I can fancy people, but in a fairly pre-pubescent way - my fantasies tend to revolve around nursing people through fevers, carrying them out of burning buildings, and so on, rather than actually having genital contact with them.
However, I do have sexual phases, often triggered by a crush on someone real or fictional. During those phases I definitely feel lust and longing to have sex. However, those phases don't last all that long, especially if I actually DO have sex. This effectively puts the mockers on me having a long-term relationship.
Having broken my own and other people's hearts several times before working this out, I'm now down with it and really content being single, especially as I'm not interested in having children. It's hard to explain, but I feel more like me this way. I don't really even think of myself as 'single' any more than you'd think of a child, a dog, or a tree as 'single' - it's not even a question.
I hope this makes some sort of sense...!