Laziness and loss of sexuality
Attention whore. Yes, I know I am one.
I also know that many men (and some women, of course) certainly do not mind this about me. Which makes all the difference between "attention whore" and "exhibitionist."
I remain both. But I feel like I've lost something. I only created one and a half Halloween costumes, and one of them's not nearly as sexy as usual. (Full one, which I will probably wear, is a sensual 1920s lady gangster. The half a one is apparently a Final Fantasy character I think that a friend really wanted to see earlier this month, which in the picture has exposed breasts and a gothic look.)
Yes, I'll try to post a pic of whatever costumes/outfits/etc. I come up with.
I wear t-shirts almost exclusively, while a year ago I vowed to avoid them like the plague, and before that almost never wore them anyway.
It's not that I feel less sexy, or am less sexy; it's that there's no one to put myself on display for but Robert, and it's hard to get excited about dressing up when I won't even be leaving the house.
I live in a small town. The nearest mall is an hour and $20 in gas away. The only club to dress up for only has goth night on Thursdays, also an hour away, and I usually work Fridays and Robert has class Fridays.
I don't have nearly enough friends here to call for a party, and if I did, they're all Robert's friends and so would go out of their way not to notice my sexuality.
I feel rather useless with only one person to please.
The single most disgusting feeling I've ever had, though, is feeling plain.
~Yvenna
I also know that many men (and some women, of course) certainly do not mind this about me. Which makes all the difference between "attention whore" and "exhibitionist."
I remain both. But I feel like I've lost something. I only created one and a half Halloween costumes, and one of them's not nearly as sexy as usual. (Full one, which I will probably wear, is a sensual 1920s lady gangster. The half a one is apparently a Final Fantasy character I think that a friend really wanted to see earlier this month, which in the picture has exposed breasts and a gothic look.)
Yes, I'll try to post a pic of whatever costumes/outfits/etc. I come up with.
I wear t-shirts almost exclusively, while a year ago I vowed to avoid them like the plague, and before that almost never wore them anyway.
It's not that I feel less sexy, or am less sexy; it's that there's no one to put myself on display for but Robert, and it's hard to get excited about dressing up when I won't even be leaving the house.
I live in a small town. The nearest mall is an hour and $20 in gas away. The only club to dress up for only has goth night on Thursdays, also an hour away, and I usually work Fridays and Robert has class Fridays.
I don't have nearly enough friends here to call for a party, and if I did, they're all Robert's friends and so would go out of their way not to notice my sexuality.
I feel rather useless with only one person to please.
The single most disgusting feeling I've ever had, though, is feeling plain.
~Yvenna