You know...
I'm a really happy person. But I think this has been like...the worst three hours of my life. Honest to God.
First I piss off Kidoumaru for not agreeing to be civil to Sakon. Why the fuck should I? Sakon and Ukon don't respect me. I've tried to be nice in the past, and they just brush me off and call me an ugly bitch, so I'm tired of trying.
While it saddens me to see Kidoumaru upset because of me, I feel fucking justified.
But I don't feel justified for upsetting Kimimaro so fucking much.
I swear, Kimimaro - I didn't mean it personally. It's just impossible to shake what you told me so many years ago. When you were weak and sick, it was easier to believe that you wouldn't hurt me, that you weren't ever going to turn on me. And now I see what a stupid fucking mistake I made, and I'm sorry.
If you hadn't come back, it would have killed me. Honest. I still love you, despite what I've said and done. Please don't start talking that shit about wanting to die again...
And Orochimaru-sama...I'm sorry I didn't trust your judgment. But you told me I'm allowed to disagree...and this is the very reason I told you that I shouldn't be allowed to disagree. Please forgive me; you know what a loudmouthed, abrasive dumbass I am.
I don't know what I'm going to do. Kin is gone. It's like I've got nobody left. Nobody but myself, haha.
It's like I'm fifteen again. Standing by the side of a Lightning Country road, all by my lonesome, waiting for someone to pick me up.
Shit. Shit shit shit.
What's the point of waiting, when there's nobody left who'll pick me up?
First I piss off Kidoumaru for not agreeing to be civil to Sakon. Why the fuck should I? Sakon and Ukon don't respect me. I've tried to be nice in the past, and they just brush me off and call me an ugly bitch, so I'm tired of trying.
While it saddens me to see Kidoumaru upset because of me, I feel fucking justified.
But I don't feel justified for upsetting Kimimaro so fucking much.
I swear, Kimimaro - I didn't mean it personally. It's just impossible to shake what you told me so many years ago. When you were weak and sick, it was easier to believe that you wouldn't hurt me, that you weren't ever going to turn on me. And now I see what a stupid fucking mistake I made, and I'm sorry.
If you hadn't come back, it would have killed me. Honest. I still love you, despite what I've said and done. Please don't start talking that shit about wanting to die again...
And Orochimaru-sama...I'm sorry I didn't trust your judgment. But you told me I'm allowed to disagree...and this is the very reason I told you that I shouldn't be allowed to disagree. Please forgive me; you know what a loudmouthed, abrasive dumbass I am.
I don't know what I'm going to do. Kin is gone. It's like I've got nobody left. Nobody but myself, haha.
It's like I'm fifteen again. Standing by the side of a Lightning Country road, all by my lonesome, waiting for someone to pick me up.
Shit. Shit shit shit.
What's the point of waiting, when there's nobody left who'll pick me up?