Happy Valentine's Day!
My favorite day of the year!
I spent it with Orochimaru-sama. Would've liked to have spent time with Kin, too, but noooooo. She's still out on that fucking mission. I don't even know what the hell she's doing out there, and Orochimaru-sama won't tell me. (He keeps telling me that he doesn't trust me to go blabbing. Why the hell not? ;_;)
But, yeah. After bothering Orochimaru-sama for however long, I went to visit Kimi.
I know he's gonna come back. Within the week, Orochimaru-sama said. But damn, it's depressing. Knowing that he's laid out in his coffin, dressed for burial, just down the corridor. I got stuck preparing his body to be buried. Maybe when he comes back, I can joke about it. You know - Hey, Kimimaro, I saw you naked! And he'll blush, and I'll laugh at him, and he'll kill me. Ha, ha.
It scares me, that he'll be able to move around and all that on his own. Seriously, everybody (including me) is used to the cute and sweet Kimimaro we've all grown used to over the years. But he wasn't always so cute and sweet. That Kimimaro was more like "fucking psychotic" and "evil." He threatened to kill me, once. I know he would have gone through with it, too, had he himself not been wounded so badly. And I already voiced this concern to him, and he just brushed it off, said "Oh, I'd never hurt you!" Bullshit.
Once he's ressurected, he's not going to need me anymore. Won't need me to brush his hair, feed him, gossip with him. Won't need me for anything. Once again, I'll be expendable. And if you're failing Orochimaru-sama and in That Kimimaro's line of sight, you're fucking worthless. You're better off dead.
I just...how could I let him lay there and waste away? He's been doing that for years. Years... And I promised that I'd kill him. I promised him. I may do a lot of shitty things, but breaking promises to my loved ones is not something I do.
I just don't know what I should think.
This has definitely been the weirdest Valentine's Day I've ever lived through. I just hope Orochimaru-sama and Kimimaro liked what I gave to them. And damn it...I hope Kin gets back here soon.
I spent it with Orochimaru-sama. Would've liked to have spent time with Kin, too, but noooooo. She's still out on that fucking mission. I don't even know what the hell she's doing out there, and Orochimaru-sama won't tell me. (He keeps telling me that he doesn't trust me to go blabbing. Why the hell not? ;_;)
But, yeah. After bothering Orochimaru-sama for however long, I went to visit Kimi.
I know he's gonna come back. Within the week, Orochimaru-sama said. But damn, it's depressing. Knowing that he's laid out in his coffin, dressed for burial, just down the corridor. I got stuck preparing his body to be buried. Maybe when he comes back, I can joke about it. You know - Hey, Kimimaro, I saw you naked! And he'll blush, and I'll laugh at him, and he'll kill me. Ha, ha.
It scares me, that he'll be able to move around and all that on his own. Seriously, everybody (including me) is used to the cute and sweet Kimimaro we've all grown used to over the years. But he wasn't always so cute and sweet. That Kimimaro was more like "fucking psychotic" and "evil." He threatened to kill me, once. I know he would have gone through with it, too, had he himself not been wounded so badly. And I already voiced this concern to him, and he just brushed it off, said "Oh, I'd never hurt you!" Bullshit.
Once he's ressurected, he's not going to need me anymore. Won't need me to brush his hair, feed him, gossip with him. Won't need me for anything. Once again, I'll be expendable. And if you're failing Orochimaru-sama and in That Kimimaro's line of sight, you're fucking worthless. You're better off dead.
I just...how could I let him lay there and waste away? He's been doing that for years. Years... And I promised that I'd kill him. I promised him. I may do a lot of shitty things, but breaking promises to my loved ones is not something I do.
I just don't know what I should think.
This has definitely been the weirdest Valentine's Day I've ever lived through. I just hope Orochimaru-sama and Kimimaro liked what I gave to them. And damn it...I hope Kin gets back here soon.