Working on my irrational fears and thoughts.
shoes
Today I don't think I'm worth shoes
It came to me as I'm digging though the trunk trying to find my wedge heeled sandals from 2 years ago.
I need a new pair of sneakers and I can't bring myself to walk to or ask mom to get me over the the payless even though I have a coupon in my email.
The last time we were there, mom asked if I really needed shoes... and I said no really quickly..
and now I have no shoes.. we only go shopping for things we need and no matter how much i need something I don't feel I am worth it.
mom made such a fuss about getting my sister shoes and I was hurt and I clammed up and the twin harped on me feeling hurt..
It's a bad association right now.. so i'm staying mum on the shoe thing... It's sad, but tha's how I'm feeling.
This is so I don't hide all my thoughts so someone sees it...maybe my sister.. maybe not, but what matters is I got it out.
Today I don't think I'm worth shoes
It came to me as I'm digging though the trunk trying to find my wedge heeled sandals from 2 years ago.
I need a new pair of sneakers and I can't bring myself to walk to or ask mom to get me over the the payless even though I have a coupon in my email.
The last time we were there, mom asked if I really needed shoes... and I said no really quickly..
and now I have no shoes.. we only go shopping for things we need and no matter how much i need something I don't feel I am worth it.
mom made such a fuss about getting my sister shoes and I was hurt and I clammed up and the twin harped on me feeling hurt..
It's a bad association right now.. so i'm staying mum on the shoe thing... It's sad, but tha's how I'm feeling.
This is so I don't hide all my thoughts so someone sees it...maybe my sister.. maybe not, but what matters is I got it out.