I wish I was a better person...
I feel so stupid.
Let me explain, some of you know I'm going on Hiatus for about a month, because my mother is in bad health. Some of you don't so now you do. I'm sorry if I seem a little rude.
Anyways, I've been really worried lately because I'll be gone for a long time, and Massu will be here with all of you. I would even have to miss his birthday.
It even got to the point where I was jealous over the fact he was spending so much time with his cousin who he hadn't talked to in years. Now normally I can understand that, I hadn't talked to my cousin in quite some time too, so it's only natural he'd want to spend time with him.
But I was stupid, and selfish, and got jealous.
That's not the worst of it.
I was talking to Maru about my selfishness, and Massu came in and heard what I said. He forgave me, and volunteered to join me on my trip back home, even though Keiichi was already going to come with me. [I really hope you told Shige]
Now what's wrong with that you might ask, well I got a message from him today.
He has to go home for a family emergency. I'm not going to tell you what, it's none of your business.
So where does that leave me?
Well, again I felt he had been ignoring me a little these past couple of days,
and so I waited for him to come back to the room. When he did, he gave me the news, and I felt so stupid.
Here I was, annoyed that I'd have to leave, getting jealous over the littlest things, and although he didn't know it,
when he gave me the message, before I was being stupid and selfish, and thinking things like "What's taking so long? Aren't I more important to him than that?"
And that minna, is why I feel like an idiot.
He's to forgiving of me.
And I can't even call him by his name...
[to Massu] I'm so sorry. I just want you to know, I'm sorry for my actions and I'm sorry you're going to have to deal with this matter. Regardless of If I get to see you agian before I leave, or if you even end up coming with me, I love you. I really mean that, even when I'm being a selfish spoiled brat. If you need anything at all, You have my number, and I wish that I could be with you for you. Stay strong, and you'll get through this, we both will. Aishiteru. [/to Massu]
[to Keiichi] Do you think we could talk again sometime? I feel worse about this than this entry implies. Sorry for relying on you so heavily. [/to Keiichi]
That's all from the baka of the century.
Let me explain, some of you know I'm going on Hiatus for about a month, because my mother is in bad health. Some of you don't so now you do. I'm sorry if I seem a little rude.
Anyways, I've been really worried lately because I'll be gone for a long time, and Massu will be here with all of you. I would even have to miss his birthday.
It even got to the point where I was jealous over the fact he was spending so much time with his cousin who he hadn't talked to in years. Now normally I can understand that, I hadn't talked to my cousin in quite some time too, so it's only natural he'd want to spend time with him.
But I was stupid, and selfish, and got jealous.
That's not the worst of it.
I was talking to Maru about my selfishness, and Massu came in and heard what I said. He forgave me, and volunteered to join me on my trip back home, even though Keiichi was already going to come with me. [I really hope you told Shige]
Now what's wrong with that you might ask, well I got a message from him today.
He has to go home for a family emergency. I'm not going to tell you what, it's none of your business.
So where does that leave me?
Well, again I felt he had been ignoring me a little these past couple of days,
and so I waited for him to come back to the room. When he did, he gave me the news, and I felt so stupid.
Here I was, annoyed that I'd have to leave, getting jealous over the littlest things, and although he didn't know it,
when he gave me the message, before I was being stupid and selfish, and thinking things like "What's taking so long? Aren't I more important to him than that?"
And that minna, is why I feel like an idiot.
He's to forgiving of me.
And I can't even call him by his name...
[to Massu] I'm so sorry. I just want you to know, I'm sorry for my actions and I'm sorry you're going to have to deal with this matter. Regardless of If I get to see you agian before I leave, or if you even end up coming with me, I love you. I really mean that, even when I'm being a selfish spoiled brat. If you need anything at all, You have my number, and I wish that I could be with you for you. Stay strong, and you'll get through this, we both will. Aishiteru. [/to Massu]
[to Keiichi] Do you think we could talk again sometime? I feel worse about this than this entry implies. Sorry for relying on you so heavily. [/to Keiichi]
That's all from the baka of the century.