[fic] Chain of Broken Story
Title: Chain of Broken Story
Author: yuuki22
Pairing: akame, pikame
Summary: ‘He is my first love, and he will be the last person that I will love’. That is the thought came to my mind whenever I think about Yamashita Tomohisa, my boyfriend. However, I started to doubt my feelings since the arrival of the new transfer student in my class. That boy, is Akanishi Jin. The boy that I came to hate for ruining my relation with Tomohisa, and also the boy that I came to love with all of my heart
This the third chapter of my story Chain of Broken Story. To tell the truth, I have another story to write, because I thought it will be much more interesting than this one. I doubt myself though…
Enjoy reading. I will appreciate any kind of comment all of you gave me.
Story Three: Lost memories
People often choose to be remembered, to be cherished, and to be loved. Memories from our mind is something that cannot bought with money or any jewelry, our memories has also become the key to bond our relationship with other people.
Memories contain many kind of things, such as the place, the time, the scenery, and the people.
When people has forgotten someone, that someone must have the feeling of disappointment no matter how small that feeling is. I am aware of that.
That must be what Akanishi feels the time I said that I do not remember him.
Akanishi recognize me, however that does not goes the same for me.
My memories has shattered into pieces, and at one of those memories has hold the part of my past with Akanishi.
It is odd indeed, I remember nothing about him.
And it was odd, I do not even remember since when I have become curious about Akanishi.
Akanishi is an odd person indeed, he care about me just like Tomohisa does. He often be with me and keep nagging me almost every time at school.
When he told me that he wanted to spend more time with me, his word has trigger something inside my heart.
I still do not understand why he act as if he care to me.
Maybe it was much better if I don’t understand the reason.
I do not need anyone else, as long as I’m with Tomohisa.
At least that what I used to think.
******
“Eh, you’re going to have ski trip?”
Tomohisa who sat next to me asked, we were now sitting down on the rooftop of the school. A place where we usual come to enjoy the moment of being alone together.
“Yes, every second year students are going to have a ski trip at the day after tomorrow”
I answer to his question. We were discussing about the ski trip that every second year student have. It was a trip that held by the school, and unfortunately, every student must to come because we’re going to take a score for ski.
I really wish I didn’t come, I hate sports, every kind of sport. And ski is also one of them. I do not understand why do we have to learn sports anyway, it was something unnecessary for our future if were to take a job. What important the most is the lesson.
“Are you going to be okay?”
When he ask me that, I turn to look at Tomohisa with a look of confusion on my face.
“What do you mean?”
“Ski is… well, quite dangerous…”
Hearing that, I feel touched to his words that I cannot but smile a bit at him. I know that he must be worried for me since he know I am not skillful at sports. I put a hand on his shoulder and spoke to him.
“Don’t worry. I’ll be fine, I’ll try to be careful”
“But then, I’m also going to miss you”
He said to me, and I blush when Tomohisa put his arms around me. He rest his head on my shoulder, so close to my face that I can smell the shampoo he used. And it is smell wonderful.
“It’s only going to be for two days”
I spoke to him, cannot hide the smile on my face in amusement. Even I do say that, I am aware of myself that I’m also going to miss Tomohisa. At the trip, I have to do everything on my own, if I have problem with my ski skill, I have to deal with it alone. I do not want to ask for anyone’s assistance, because I knew that they will not help me. Even if they do, they must be feel forced to do it.
Probably, Tomohisa is the only person that I could depend on. He would be the only I would ask for help. With Tomohisa, I do not really minded to show my weakness to him.
“But seriously, please take care of yourself. I don’t want something happen to you”
Tomohisa spoke to me as he take my hand in his, and once again, I cannot deny that I feel happy and touched to his sincere word.
“I already said, I’m going to be okay, right? Stop worried and treat me like a kid”
“Okay fine, but you know I’m worried about you because I love you”
To his comeback, no other words are left from my mouth to reply what he said. I could feel myself blush to his sudden confusion, and it made me look to another direction. I do not understand, just by a simple words such as ‘I love you’ from Tomohisa already enough to make my heart filled with madness and happiness.
For me, that is what I probably called ‘true love’.
******
The day for the ski trip has finally come, I was now sitting on the bus alone, without anyone sitting next to me. Apparently, every student seems bothered to take a sit next to me. That is why I am sitting here alone.
It does not bothered me though, I feel calm and comfortable being alone like this. Unfortunately, the students around me cannot leave me in any peace, some of them are talking, some of them singing, and some of them are playing cards together. I am different though, I only simply gaze outside the scenery outside the window.
My moment of peace is however don’t last that long when someone tap my shoulder, and the moment I turn to look at who is it, Akanishi is already sitting next to me.
“What are you doing here?”
I ask him calmly, giving him a look that signed I do not want to disturbed and hope that he would go away. However, Akanishi seems did not understand that and instead he smile at me and answer.
“Nothing”
“Then please go away”
“I don’t want to”
I sigh hearing his answer. Somehow I already knew that he will said that.
“Hey, let’s go play card with the others”
I turn to stare at him in the face hearing that, it surprised me he really dare to ask me to join play something with the others.
But I have to refuse, I know that the others will not feel comfortable if I join them.
“I don’t want to”
“Why, aren’t you bored?”
Akanishi asked me, and to his question, I cannot think but agreed with what he said. It’s the truth that I feel bored, but playing something with other student is not an option to free myself out of this boredom.
“I just don’t want to”
I reason to him, hoping that Akanishi would understand and leave me alone. But it seems that he will not stop nagging me when I heard him spoke again, speaking a word that took me by surprise.
“You’re thinking that that the others would be bothered if you played with them, aren’t you?”
The moment Akanishi says that, I turn to look at him with a look of surprise on my face. It was unbelievable that Akanishi manage to know what I hide from him.
The corner of Akanishi’s lips raise and as if he know that I am curious of how he understand what I feel now, he spoke to me then.
“You really never change”
Hearing these words, I was left speechless. I only stare into Akanishi’s eyes who had his gaze back on mine. With the last smile on his face, a smile that almost mocking, Akanishi stood up and walk back to his seat.
Now it was confirmed that Akanishi have really known me, and judging from how he act, it seems he knew me very well.
But it was a mystery how come I couldn’t remember a thing about him.
******
I cannot believe this.
I really thought I would be fine when the teacher told us to ski around the forest. I thought I would be just fine if I trail behind the others student, following their every move.
But never once I thought I would be fall from the cliff without one student noticing my lost presence. I am lucky enough that I only injured my foot without any other critical damage on my body. I was saved because the surface of the ground are covered by the soft snow.
But I don’t know what should I do now. I am in no condition to walk or climbing the cliff to escape from this forest because I have injured my foot. It is only a sprain, but it does feel hurt whenever I tried to move my foot.
So now, I was trap in this place.
No one would notice that I have lost.
“Excuse me! Someone please help me!”
I scream up into the direction of the cliff, hoping that someone up there will hear the cries of my voice. But it seems my scream does not reach to any of them as no one has come.
So I am really trap in here.
To tell the truth, I am afraid f what will happen to myself. And I’m not even dare to think what will happen to me if a storm would come, the weather has gotten worse indeed.
I’m terrified.
Tomohisa… how I wish he was here right now.
Sighing in desperation, I carefully sit on the snow, pulling my legs closer to my chest and wrap my body with my arms. It seems I have no choice but to wait here since I cannot walk on this condition.
I have to wait for someone’s help and keep waiting, hopefully I will not freeze to death the moment someone arrive to help me.
“KAZUYA!”
It was odd, I thought I heard Akanishi’s voice calling out for my name. Maybe it was just a hallucination, maybe it’s because I’m going to live this world soon that I hearing things.
But then the second time I heard my name was called again, I lift my face to look up at the cliff and I was really surprised when I saw Akanishi standing on top of there.
“Akanishi?”
“Hey, you okay?!”
“Ah, well- hey!”
I scream when I saw Akanishi sliding down through the cliff. The moment I saw him doing that, I really think that something is wrong with the way his mind works. No one would do such a reckless thing in a situation where you could injured yourself.
When his foots finally landed on the snow below, I almost sigh in relief when I see no traces on injures on him. Then I saw Akanishi ran to me, and when he had reached to my side, he crouched down and put a hand on my shoulder.
“You okay Kazuya?”
I just nod to his question, surprised when he address me such in a friendly way. However, when Akanishi called my name that way, it sounds so familiar in my ears.
How odd.
“Does it hurt anywhere?”
“Well, I only sprain my leg”
“Is it hurt?”
He asked me and put a hand on my left leg, looking down at it as if investigate how worst my injuries are. To his action, I was left speechless and somehow, I’m blushing a bit. Probably because it was an affection that I never receive from someone else than Tomohisa is what makes me nervous.
“It’s quite bad”
He said and look up to me. I said nothing to that, because I know it was quite worst, I cannot even move my feet because honestly, it hurt really much.
My eyes then turn wide when I saw Akanishi crouched down in front of me with his back facing mine, and I know that he will ask me to hop on his back. But I cannot do that, I have to refuse. I just can’t do that.
“Y-You don’t have to…”
“Stop complaining. Do you want us to get trapped in a storm?”
To his demand, I cannot disagree of what he said. It’s true, the weather has gotten worse and if storm came, it will cause trouble to both of us. I don’t want to cause trouble for Akanishi, not when he have come and save me.
So hesitantly, I hop on to his back, putting both my hands on his shoulder just so I won’t fall. I was almost fall though when Akanishi stood up which makes me circling my arms around his neck by reflex.
“S-Sorry”
I quickly let go when I noticed where my arms are. But then what he said next makes me cannot help but blush a bit.
“It’s okay, just hang on tight to me, or you’ll fall”
So then I put my arms back around Akanishi’s neck again as he started to walk.
How odd it is, the moment I put my arms around Akanishi, I feel somehow calm. And this feeling, his back that press against my chest, his arms around my legs holding me firmly…
All of it, it’s somehow feels so familiar. A feeling that I have ever felt somewhere.
******
Fortunately, both me and Akanishi have finally arrived at the inn without any harm. The teacher, surprisingly, saying that they have been searching for me. I never thought of that, I never even thought they are aware of my lost presence.
I haven’t say my thanks to Akanishi, however I haven’t met him once since we had arrived in the inn, and now I was sitting on the living room of the inn where there are fireplace while all of the students probably asleep, because I am the only one in this room.
I want to say thanks to Akanishi, but it might be weird if I suddenly approach him only to say my thanks for saving me. So it might be best if I wait for the right moment where I could confront him in an accident.
“You awake?”
I was surprised when I heard a voice came from behind, and when I turn around, I saw Akanishi there, body leaning over the couch as his eyes found mine.
“What are you doing here?”
I ask him and I saw Akanishi smile a bit to me before he walk to me and sit on the floor next to me. I am a bit nervous for no reason. He then answered my question earlier.
“I couldn’t sleep, so I decide to walk around”
To what he said, I only nodded in understand and say nothing. Though in my mind, I was thinking that how weird Akanishi is because I think walking around in the middle of the night like this seems creepy.
Now that none of us let out a word, only the sound of the storm was sounded in our ears. And now that we are alone, it was probably a nice chance to say my thanks to him. I’m nervous, however, it’s not polite not to say a thanks to someone who already save you.
“Hey”
I begin to speak, and I saw Akanishi turn his face at me. I glance to him before looking away and continue to speak.
“Thank you”
The moment I say those words, I am certain that I saw how Akanishi’s face brighten in delight, as if he was happy hearing me says those word. Back inside my chest, I could feel how my heart thumping. Weird.
“You know, I was really worried about you”
He suddenly spoke words that leave me in surprise. It is weird, there is actually someone who worried about me other than Tomohisa. Probably that is the reason why I feel nervous right now, probably it is because I am not used to other people worried over me.
But then I turn at him when he say another thing that makes me somehow blush a bit.
“I’m really glad that you’re saved Kazuya”
There he is again, he says me name in a common way as if nothing has happened between us, he spoke my name so casually in a way like we are close to each other.
“Please don’t call me that. We are not that close”
I said to him, but I never expected that he will reply me with a comeback.
“Can’t you called me Jin again?”
“Wha-What?”
I stare at Akanishi in surprise, his eyes staring at me so closely that it seems makes me nervous. We both stare at each other for a while before Akanishi spoke again, in a way that always manage to makes me surprise.
“Didn’t you remember that you always called me Jin?”
I only blink in confusion at him hearing that and not say a word about that, because honestly, I don’t remember a thing about me calling Akanishi with his first name.
“A-Akanishi… forgive me, though it seems we know about each other, I cannot remember a thing about you. Not a thing”
I confess to him, and the moment I speak that, I saw how a look of disappointment reveal in his face.
“So… you really not remember a thing… about me?”
I look down to the floor and nodded slowly as an answer. I know how disappointed Akanishi is, however there is nothing else I could do when I cannot remember anything about Akanishi.
“Even if I say that we are lover in our previous life, you still cannot remember a thing about me?”
To his words, my eyes widen in shocked. I was loss at words. Akanishi only stares to me for a while before his lips formed into a smile.
“It was a joke”
He spoke and smile at me casually as if the thing he says before are nothing but a simple words. That is not the way it’s work for me, I do not think such joke is funny, it rather shocking.
“I’m going to sleep, don’t stay up to late, okay?”
Akanishi stand up and patted my hair before he walked out of the living room. When Akanishi vanished from my sight, I put a hand on top of my hair where Akanishi just patted me.
Lately, I have been really weird.
To every touch and to every words from Akanishi, I will always feel my heart beating hard inside my chest.
It’s weird.
And I never want to feel this way. I already have Tomohisa, the only person that could make me filled with heat inside my chest.
I love only Tomohisa, and I will always be.
***End of Story Three***
Author: yuuki22
Pairing: akame, pikame
Summary: ‘He is my first love, and he will be the last person that I will love’. That is the thought came to my mind whenever I think about Yamashita Tomohisa, my boyfriend. However, I started to doubt my feelings since the arrival of the new transfer student in my class. That boy, is Akanishi Jin. The boy that I came to hate for ruining my relation with Tomohisa, and also the boy that I came to love with all of my heart
This the third chapter of my story Chain of Broken Story. To tell the truth, I have another story to write, because I thought it will be much more interesting than this one. I doubt myself though…
Enjoy reading. I will appreciate any kind of comment all of you gave me.
Story Three: Lost memories
People often choose to be remembered, to be cherished, and to be loved. Memories from our mind is something that cannot bought with money or any jewelry, our memories has also become the key to bond our relationship with other people.
Memories contain many kind of things, such as the place, the time, the scenery, and the people.
When people has forgotten someone, that someone must have the feeling of disappointment no matter how small that feeling is. I am aware of that.
That must be what Akanishi feels the time I said that I do not remember him.
Akanishi recognize me, however that does not goes the same for me.
My memories has shattered into pieces, and at one of those memories has hold the part of my past with Akanishi.
It is odd indeed, I remember nothing about him.
And it was odd, I do not even remember since when I have become curious about Akanishi.
Akanishi is an odd person indeed, he care about me just like Tomohisa does. He often be with me and keep nagging me almost every time at school.
When he told me that he wanted to spend more time with me, his word has trigger something inside my heart.
I still do not understand why he act as if he care to me.
Maybe it was much better if I don’t understand the reason.
I do not need anyone else, as long as I’m with Tomohisa.
At least that what I used to think.
******
“Eh, you’re going to have ski trip?”
Tomohisa who sat next to me asked, we were now sitting down on the rooftop of the school. A place where we usual come to enjoy the moment of being alone together.
“Yes, every second year students are going to have a ski trip at the day after tomorrow”
I answer to his question. We were discussing about the ski trip that every second year student have. It was a trip that held by the school, and unfortunately, every student must to come because we’re going to take a score for ski.
I really wish I didn’t come, I hate sports, every kind of sport. And ski is also one of them. I do not understand why do we have to learn sports anyway, it was something unnecessary for our future if were to take a job. What important the most is the lesson.
“Are you going to be okay?”
When he ask me that, I turn to look at Tomohisa with a look of confusion on my face.
“What do you mean?”
“Ski is… well, quite dangerous…”
Hearing that, I feel touched to his words that I cannot but smile a bit at him. I know that he must be worried for me since he know I am not skillful at sports. I put a hand on his shoulder and spoke to him.
“Don’t worry. I’ll be fine, I’ll try to be careful”
“But then, I’m also going to miss you”
He said to me, and I blush when Tomohisa put his arms around me. He rest his head on my shoulder, so close to my face that I can smell the shampoo he used. And it is smell wonderful.
“It’s only going to be for two days”
I spoke to him, cannot hide the smile on my face in amusement. Even I do say that, I am aware of myself that I’m also going to miss Tomohisa. At the trip, I have to do everything on my own, if I have problem with my ski skill, I have to deal with it alone. I do not want to ask for anyone’s assistance, because I knew that they will not help me. Even if they do, they must be feel forced to do it.
Probably, Tomohisa is the only person that I could depend on. He would be the only I would ask for help. With Tomohisa, I do not really minded to show my weakness to him.
“But seriously, please take care of yourself. I don’t want something happen to you”
Tomohisa spoke to me as he take my hand in his, and once again, I cannot deny that I feel happy and touched to his sincere word.
“I already said, I’m going to be okay, right? Stop worried and treat me like a kid”
“Okay fine, but you know I’m worried about you because I love you”
To his comeback, no other words are left from my mouth to reply what he said. I could feel myself blush to his sudden confusion, and it made me look to another direction. I do not understand, just by a simple words such as ‘I love you’ from Tomohisa already enough to make my heart filled with madness and happiness.
For me, that is what I probably called ‘true love’.
******
The day for the ski trip has finally come, I was now sitting on the bus alone, without anyone sitting next to me. Apparently, every student seems bothered to take a sit next to me. That is why I am sitting here alone.
It does not bothered me though, I feel calm and comfortable being alone like this. Unfortunately, the students around me cannot leave me in any peace, some of them are talking, some of them singing, and some of them are playing cards together. I am different though, I only simply gaze outside the scenery outside the window.
My moment of peace is however don’t last that long when someone tap my shoulder, and the moment I turn to look at who is it, Akanishi is already sitting next to me.
“What are you doing here?”
I ask him calmly, giving him a look that signed I do not want to disturbed and hope that he would go away. However, Akanishi seems did not understand that and instead he smile at me and answer.
“Nothing”
“Then please go away”
“I don’t want to”
I sigh hearing his answer. Somehow I already knew that he will said that.
“Hey, let’s go play card with the others”
I turn to stare at him in the face hearing that, it surprised me he really dare to ask me to join play something with the others.
But I have to refuse, I know that the others will not feel comfortable if I join them.
“I don’t want to”
“Why, aren’t you bored?”
Akanishi asked me, and to his question, I cannot think but agreed with what he said. It’s the truth that I feel bored, but playing something with other student is not an option to free myself out of this boredom.
“I just don’t want to”
I reason to him, hoping that Akanishi would understand and leave me alone. But it seems that he will not stop nagging me when I heard him spoke again, speaking a word that took me by surprise.
“You’re thinking that that the others would be bothered if you played with them, aren’t you?”
The moment Akanishi says that, I turn to look at him with a look of surprise on my face. It was unbelievable that Akanishi manage to know what I hide from him.
The corner of Akanishi’s lips raise and as if he know that I am curious of how he understand what I feel now, he spoke to me then.
“You really never change”
Hearing these words, I was left speechless. I only stare into Akanishi’s eyes who had his gaze back on mine. With the last smile on his face, a smile that almost mocking, Akanishi stood up and walk back to his seat.
Now it was confirmed that Akanishi have really known me, and judging from how he act, it seems he knew me very well.
But it was a mystery how come I couldn’t remember a thing about him.
******
I cannot believe this.
I really thought I would be fine when the teacher told us to ski around the forest. I thought I would be just fine if I trail behind the others student, following their every move.
But never once I thought I would be fall from the cliff without one student noticing my lost presence. I am lucky enough that I only injured my foot without any other critical damage on my body. I was saved because the surface of the ground are covered by the soft snow.
But I don’t know what should I do now. I am in no condition to walk or climbing the cliff to escape from this forest because I have injured my foot. It is only a sprain, but it does feel hurt whenever I tried to move my foot.
So now, I was trap in this place.
No one would notice that I have lost.
“Excuse me! Someone please help me!”
I scream up into the direction of the cliff, hoping that someone up there will hear the cries of my voice. But it seems my scream does not reach to any of them as no one has come.
So I am really trap in here.
To tell the truth, I am afraid f what will happen to myself. And I’m not even dare to think what will happen to me if a storm would come, the weather has gotten worse indeed.
I’m terrified.
Tomohisa… how I wish he was here right now.
Sighing in desperation, I carefully sit on the snow, pulling my legs closer to my chest and wrap my body with my arms. It seems I have no choice but to wait here since I cannot walk on this condition.
I have to wait for someone’s help and keep waiting, hopefully I will not freeze to death the moment someone arrive to help me.
“KAZUYA!”
It was odd, I thought I heard Akanishi’s voice calling out for my name. Maybe it was just a hallucination, maybe it’s because I’m going to live this world soon that I hearing things.
But then the second time I heard my name was called again, I lift my face to look up at the cliff and I was really surprised when I saw Akanishi standing on top of there.
“Akanishi?”
“Hey, you okay?!”
“Ah, well- hey!”
I scream when I saw Akanishi sliding down through the cliff. The moment I saw him doing that, I really think that something is wrong with the way his mind works. No one would do such a reckless thing in a situation where you could injured yourself.
When his foots finally landed on the snow below, I almost sigh in relief when I see no traces on injures on him. Then I saw Akanishi ran to me, and when he had reached to my side, he crouched down and put a hand on my shoulder.
“You okay Kazuya?”
I just nod to his question, surprised when he address me such in a friendly way. However, when Akanishi called my name that way, it sounds so familiar in my ears.
How odd.
“Does it hurt anywhere?”
“Well, I only sprain my leg”
“Is it hurt?”
He asked me and put a hand on my left leg, looking down at it as if investigate how worst my injuries are. To his action, I was left speechless and somehow, I’m blushing a bit. Probably because it was an affection that I never receive from someone else than Tomohisa is what makes me nervous.
“It’s quite bad”
He said and look up to me. I said nothing to that, because I know it was quite worst, I cannot even move my feet because honestly, it hurt really much.
My eyes then turn wide when I saw Akanishi crouched down in front of me with his back facing mine, and I know that he will ask me to hop on his back. But I cannot do that, I have to refuse. I just can’t do that.
“Y-You don’t have to…”
“Stop complaining. Do you want us to get trapped in a storm?”
To his demand, I cannot disagree of what he said. It’s true, the weather has gotten worse and if storm came, it will cause trouble to both of us. I don’t want to cause trouble for Akanishi, not when he have come and save me.
So hesitantly, I hop on to his back, putting both my hands on his shoulder just so I won’t fall. I was almost fall though when Akanishi stood up which makes me circling my arms around his neck by reflex.
“S-Sorry”
I quickly let go when I noticed where my arms are. But then what he said next makes me cannot help but blush a bit.
“It’s okay, just hang on tight to me, or you’ll fall”
So then I put my arms back around Akanishi’s neck again as he started to walk.
How odd it is, the moment I put my arms around Akanishi, I feel somehow calm. And this feeling, his back that press against my chest, his arms around my legs holding me firmly…
All of it, it’s somehow feels so familiar. A feeling that I have ever felt somewhere.
******
Fortunately, both me and Akanishi have finally arrived at the inn without any harm. The teacher, surprisingly, saying that they have been searching for me. I never thought of that, I never even thought they are aware of my lost presence.
I haven’t say my thanks to Akanishi, however I haven’t met him once since we had arrived in the inn, and now I was sitting on the living room of the inn where there are fireplace while all of the students probably asleep, because I am the only one in this room.
I want to say thanks to Akanishi, but it might be weird if I suddenly approach him only to say my thanks for saving me. So it might be best if I wait for the right moment where I could confront him in an accident.
“You awake?”
I was surprised when I heard a voice came from behind, and when I turn around, I saw Akanishi there, body leaning over the couch as his eyes found mine.
“What are you doing here?”
I ask him and I saw Akanishi smile a bit to me before he walk to me and sit on the floor next to me. I am a bit nervous for no reason. He then answered my question earlier.
“I couldn’t sleep, so I decide to walk around”
To what he said, I only nodded in understand and say nothing. Though in my mind, I was thinking that how weird Akanishi is because I think walking around in the middle of the night like this seems creepy.
Now that none of us let out a word, only the sound of the storm was sounded in our ears. And now that we are alone, it was probably a nice chance to say my thanks to him. I’m nervous, however, it’s not polite not to say a thanks to someone who already save you.
“Hey”
I begin to speak, and I saw Akanishi turn his face at me. I glance to him before looking away and continue to speak.
“Thank you”
The moment I say those words, I am certain that I saw how Akanishi’s face brighten in delight, as if he was happy hearing me says those word. Back inside my chest, I could feel how my heart thumping. Weird.
“You know, I was really worried about you”
He suddenly spoke words that leave me in surprise. It is weird, there is actually someone who worried about me other than Tomohisa. Probably that is the reason why I feel nervous right now, probably it is because I am not used to other people worried over me.
But then I turn at him when he say another thing that makes me somehow blush a bit.
“I’m really glad that you’re saved Kazuya”
There he is again, he says me name in a common way as if nothing has happened between us, he spoke my name so casually in a way like we are close to each other.
“Please don’t call me that. We are not that close”
I said to him, but I never expected that he will reply me with a comeback.
“Can’t you called me Jin again?”
“Wha-What?”
I stare at Akanishi in surprise, his eyes staring at me so closely that it seems makes me nervous. We both stare at each other for a while before Akanishi spoke again, in a way that always manage to makes me surprise.
“Didn’t you remember that you always called me Jin?”
I only blink in confusion at him hearing that and not say a word about that, because honestly, I don’t remember a thing about me calling Akanishi with his first name.
“A-Akanishi… forgive me, though it seems we know about each other, I cannot remember a thing about you. Not a thing”
I confess to him, and the moment I speak that, I saw how a look of disappointment reveal in his face.
“So… you really not remember a thing… about me?”
I look down to the floor and nodded slowly as an answer. I know how disappointed Akanishi is, however there is nothing else I could do when I cannot remember anything about Akanishi.
“Even if I say that we are lover in our previous life, you still cannot remember a thing about me?”
To his words, my eyes widen in shocked. I was loss at words. Akanishi only stares to me for a while before his lips formed into a smile.
“It was a joke”
He spoke and smile at me casually as if the thing he says before are nothing but a simple words. That is not the way it’s work for me, I do not think such joke is funny, it rather shocking.
“I’m going to sleep, don’t stay up to late, okay?”
Akanishi stand up and patted my hair before he walked out of the living room. When Akanishi vanished from my sight, I put a hand on top of my hair where Akanishi just patted me.
Lately, I have been really weird.
To every touch and to every words from Akanishi, I will always feel my heart beating hard inside my chest.
It’s weird.
And I never want to feel this way. I already have Tomohisa, the only person that could make me filled with heat inside my chest.
I love only Tomohisa, and I will always be.
***End of Story Three***