Impossible
Title: Impossible
Author: yuujin913
Pairing: Akame
Rating: PG
Genre: Romance, Angst
Beta by: Unbetaed
Disclaimer: I don't own the boys. I don't own the song.
Summary: Tell them what I hoped would be impossible.
Warning: Uhm, grammar? Didn't have time to reread this and edit. Read at your own risk. And angst!
Author's note: A song fic. I've been listening to "Impossible" sang by Maddi Jane for 2 weeks nonstop. So this has been running to my head and just have to be written. Hope you'll like it:)
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We are having our break from Gokusen filming, in the place near the river. We were at peace, happily chatting about things I didn’t even bother to really listen to. All I see is you. Then suddenly, you stopped and turned to me. Wearing that very serious face and determined eyes, my heart skipped a beat. I can only chuckle nervously for, the bakanishi you are, is now being all serious like this.
And said the words I’ve been dreaming to hear from you. Those three little words that changed us.
“I love you”
I remember years ago
Someone told me I should take
Caution when it comes to love
I did.
Now time has passed and I know we’re going strong. I know. I just know, even if I’m here again in our living room, waiting again for you to come back home. I looked at the clock and it’s already past 3am. You’re out again with those guys and I have so much faith in you I just hope not with some random girls I always see in the tabloids.
The door clicked and I already know. From just the smell of alcohol, cigarettes, and perfume. Not the perfume you usually use nor mine. You slipped in our bed and made yourself comfortable and still humming a lively tune. You had a wonderful night. I wish mine was too.
I slipped out and went to the bathroom. That night, I cried my heart out.
And you were strong and I was not
My illusion, my mistake
I was careless, I forgot
I did
It’s our anniversary today and I know you didn’t forgot. You’re just busy. That is why you called earlier to tell me you will be late home. But your mom called to tell you something and said to me that somehow she can’t reach your phone. I tried and it seems you phone was off.
So I went to the jimusho and saw Yamapi there when I can’t find you. I asked him your whereabouts and told me you are at a nearby club. I went to the place and finally saw you. I was about to call you but you suddenly grabbed some girl, God knows who, and kissed her passionately. When the two of you pulled out you grinned at her and accidently looked at my direction.
You accidently saw my tear streaked face, the face that shows betrayal and crashed hope. You accidently saw it. You looked at me with an indifferent face, the grin was gone.
And now when all is done
There is nothing to say
You have gone and so effortlessly
You have won
News had now spread. It really didn’t have to reach me. I should have not listened. I shouldn’t have known. But it did. It’s inevitable. How much more miserable can I be?
You are leaving. To study as they say. To see your woman as they say. To escape from the girl you impregnated as they say. To escape from me as my heart says. Maybe all of them were true. Maybe not. I don’t have to care. Who I am to care to what you’re doing now? Not a lover anymore nor a friend. You can now tell them…
You can go ahead tell them
Tell them all I know now
Shout it from the roof tops
The sky is so clear today. Unlike what I am feeling. You are leaving today, and you have your friends around you. I can see it all from where I stand. You don’t have to know I came. You don’t have to know I still care. You don’t have to see and laugh at my broken heart.
I waited until you plane takes off, crossing along the clear sky, to wish you farewell.
Write it on the sky line
All we had is gone now
Now you came back. And I was a fool to have that little hope about you to change. Instead, you have gotten worse. The bakanshi I know is now all gone.
You’re out again. Partying, celebrating that you’re finally back. The jimusho threw you a party and I have no choice but to attend. Maybe this is my chance to prove to you, I’m ok now, that I have moved on. To tell you all of that to your face.
But what happened was otherwise. Here I am in the corner, drowning the thumping sound of my heart. The bass from the music is not even enough. And you? Surrounded by your new friends, all nationality were from different countries. Chatting in English, the language you so love, boisterously laughing about something.
Tell them I was happy
And my heart is broken
All my scars are open
What happened to my dream about us being together even after death? To my dream of having a family with you, with our dogs, and whatsoever. I guess, we do not have the same dreams after all.
Tell them what I hoped would be
Impossible
I already know that loving someone would always include pain. But I didn’t even know this kind of pain exists.
Falling out of love is hard
Falling for betrayal is worst
Broken trust and broken hearts
I know.
I was a fool to trust you with those words. To trust the first three words you uttered before we started to live in our dream. What happened to those promises to you’ve said? I hope what they said was true. Time will heal
Thinking all you need is there
Building faith on love and words
Empty promises will wear
I know
On your own you can go ahead tell them
Tell them all I know now
Shout it from the roof tops
Write it on the sky line
All we had is gone now
I still love you nonetheless. I’ll keep on believing time will heal.
Tell them I was happy
And my heart is broken
All my scars are open
Tell them what I hoped would be
Impossible
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