Blue Horizon

[yuui]

these words become a wanted solitude
like a december fall
when my suicidal thoughts become to realistic
as I touch the screen
Thinking: Time's over
no more nightmarish realities
just me and a lasting note

...is it such a crime, to not want it anymore?

pressing the cloth closer to my skin
while willingly slipping into a conversation
with the silent phone
'cause it might be someone on the other-side
saying NO.. let's make another try

comfortable, my hands shake
I want to scream,
but I'm past the stage where I thought it would work
and the pills are so easy
I fumble on the floor.. dragging myself closer
to another corner
where the wishes for another end start to form

GAME OVER
it's stuck inside my mind
DO YOU WANT TO PLAY AGAIN?
I start to disappear, when I lose control
and I press Yes
'cause maybe I have changed this time...