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Nice little things from this weekend: Clear winter sidewalks without even a hint of ice. Going shopping and finding jeans that fit well and, by amazing coincidence, are on half-price. Delicious grilled cheese sandwiches. Coming across a line in a poem that hits just so. A perfectly-brewed cup of tea, not too hot, steeped just right.
The past year was surreal. Today I was typing up a story that I started writing on an apartment balcony in Sweden on a sunny spring day while across the ocean my city was burning. I don't know. My mate Sea is a saint for putting up with me during that time. All I wanted to do was cry. I was 0/10, worst houseguest ever, sorry buddy.
And now - well, I don't really know. It's another year.
Yeah, yeah, the first of the year isn't magic, but it's handy to have a reset button. There are a lot of fiddly little things that I was doing pretty well with, but got thrown entirely out of whack by the wildfire clusterfuck back in May. I'm going to try to do better now. (And I'm going to be vague about it because it's all boring real-life stuff and nobody needs to know about my mediocre dusting habits and whether I'm getting enough sleep.)
I want to say that I'm okay now, but I'm not. Well, some days are okay, but some days are not, and it's really hard to figure out whether a day is going to be one or the other. But I'm going to try to have more okay days than not.
We'll see how this goes.
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The past year was surreal. Today I was typing up a story that I started writing on an apartment balcony in Sweden on a sunny spring day while across the ocean my city was burning. I don't know. My mate Sea is a saint for putting up with me during that time. All I wanted to do was cry. I was 0/10, worst houseguest ever, sorry buddy.
And now - well, I don't really know. It's another year.
Yeah, yeah, the first of the year isn't magic, but it's handy to have a reset button. There are a lot of fiddly little things that I was doing pretty well with, but got thrown entirely out of whack by the wildfire clusterfuck back in May. I'm going to try to do better now. (And I'm going to be vague about it because it's all boring real-life stuff and nobody needs to know about my mediocre dusting habits and whether I'm getting enough sleep.)
I want to say that I'm okay now, but I'm not. Well, some days are okay, but some days are not, and it's really hard to figure out whether a day is going to be one or the other. But I'm going to try to have more okay days than not.
We'll see how this goes.
This entry was originally posted at http://yuuago.dreamwidth.org/3529818.html. You can comment here or at the original entry.