venting my frustrations
so you remember when i said that when you come to egypt, you suddenly begin to feel like the most beautiful woman in the world? (because of all the getting hit on, and the hollaaaas...)
well. i take it back. i never really meant it in the way that it makes you feel good or makes you feel prettier, it was supposed to sound sarcastic. but i take it back. because now i just feel like a slut. i SWEAR, walking around, even in hijab, makes me feel like a whore, like i'm walking around with my whole body on display, popping out in random areas and strutting my stuff.
no dude, thas not my style. but i am so angry. so so angry. at all the disgusting, dirty, low-life, trashy-ass bastard losers that have nothing to do but stand around in the streets and stare at me as tho i'm a tasty, ripe piece of meat. I WILL NOT HAVE IT ANYMORe. and trust me, it doesnt stop at staring. they make retarded-ass comments like "you're cream," or "honey," oh and my fave? "oh if i could just get you into bed with me right now"
EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW GROSS GROSS GROSS. this was my taxi driver story btw.... yeah he was probably talking to jeanette, but regardless. it was a disgusting, uncalled-for and, UNAPPRECIATED comment. it shook my very foundations so much i SCREAMED at the top of my lungs, threw my water bottle at his car (it was open so the son of a biotch got a carwash), and stopped up the whole street, who was now staring at my like i was nuts. and did they do anything? no, cuz the asshole got away in his car and i SWEAR to god if i had runnin shoes i woulda found that bastard and dragged him out onto the floor. and i woulda kicked him. SO hard he would never want to even THINK about women again. three other guys tried following me and the AUC chic in alex, they didnt know i spole arabic, so i turned around and gave them a piece of my mind. they were so freakin embarassed they couldn't even look me in the eye! oh and the scary policeman that kept purposely slanting toward as he walked my way, so scary to the point that i started yelling at him in the subway station.
yes, i feel like i have violent thoughts a lot more often now. i just want to gather up all these disgusting people and KICK them ALL where it hurts. yes yes. that would be ideal.
ah i am disgusted. it's so sad. i feel so trapped. i can't eat in the streets without getting a comment here and there, i can't walk the way i want to, talk the way i want to, look at people in the eye, even if my accident. it's all misunderstood here. and it's so sad. because i want to go out for once and feel like i'm invisibile, so i can feel free and walk in piece.
but i still love this country. and please to not let any of this scare you from ever coming here. if you can't understand what they're saying to you, then you're all good! lol
well. i take it back. i never really meant it in the way that it makes you feel good or makes you feel prettier, it was supposed to sound sarcastic. but i take it back. because now i just feel like a slut. i SWEAR, walking around, even in hijab, makes me feel like a whore, like i'm walking around with my whole body on display, popping out in random areas and strutting my stuff.
no dude, thas not my style. but i am so angry. so so angry. at all the disgusting, dirty, low-life, trashy-ass bastard losers that have nothing to do but stand around in the streets and stare at me as tho i'm a tasty, ripe piece of meat. I WILL NOT HAVE IT ANYMORe. and trust me, it doesnt stop at staring. they make retarded-ass comments like "you're cream," or "honey," oh and my fave? "oh if i could just get you into bed with me right now"
EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW GROSS GROSS GROSS. this was my taxi driver story btw.... yeah he was probably talking to jeanette, but regardless. it was a disgusting, uncalled-for and, UNAPPRECIATED comment. it shook my very foundations so much i SCREAMED at the top of my lungs, threw my water bottle at his car (it was open so the son of a biotch got a carwash), and stopped up the whole street, who was now staring at my like i was nuts. and did they do anything? no, cuz the asshole got away in his car and i SWEAR to god if i had runnin shoes i woulda found that bastard and dragged him out onto the floor. and i woulda kicked him. SO hard he would never want to even THINK about women again. three other guys tried following me and the AUC chic in alex, they didnt know i spole arabic, so i turned around and gave them a piece of my mind. they were so freakin embarassed they couldn't even look me in the eye! oh and the scary policeman that kept purposely slanting toward as he walked my way, so scary to the point that i started yelling at him in the subway station.
yes, i feel like i have violent thoughts a lot more often now. i just want to gather up all these disgusting people and KICK them ALL where it hurts. yes yes. that would be ideal.
ah i am disgusted. it's so sad. i feel so trapped. i can't eat in the streets without getting a comment here and there, i can't walk the way i want to, talk the way i want to, look at people in the eye, even if my accident. it's all misunderstood here. and it's so sad. because i want to go out for once and feel like i'm invisibile, so i can feel free and walk in piece.
but i still love this country. and please to not let any of this scare you from ever coming here. if you can't understand what they're saying to you, then you're all good! lol