i hate this fuckin world
what the fuck
i was pissed when i wrote that entry
ever heard of typos?
i love how the world thinks they know me
NO my dad left when i was born
i havent seen him since i was 14
i typed it wrong
my REAL friends know that
im sure a ton of yew prolly understand what its like to have yur parents split
but mine, mine never married
i never lived with em both
they arent divorced or ne thing
its jsut whenever he gets a new girl shes suddenly more important to him than me n i hate it
i feel like part of me is gone when he does that
i mean yea hes never been there for me but i mean hes still my dad n i still deerve to be a part of his life
its not like he has ne other kids
its just me
and the birthday thing
hes never called me even around or seen me on my birthday
all i would like for once if him to call n say happy birthday instead of like last year haveing my grama tell me he said it but he was too busy with his girlfriend who he broke up with
wutever she gone now too
as far as my stepdad
yea he pisses me off but ive told my other dadmy stepdad is more of a father to me than ne one
whats in the past is in the past
i never said i neevr appreciated what hes done or that he doesnt love me
ok shows how much yew people know me
i dont give a shyt bout yur opinions ne more
the vicoden is so i can pierce my belly button and my ears
i have a low tolerance to pain
vic is a pain killer
when i was in the hospital they gave me some
when i took them all the pain was gone
im not some fuckin drug addict
so i hope thats straight for yew assholes
im not switching schools ne more
that would mean i was running from whatever is wrong
im not gonna do that to myself ne more
i also dont appreciate ppl talking shyt behind my back n being all sweet to me to face
im not gonna mention ne thing to yew
i wont even question to yew about it
its not gonna stoip yew from doing it again
n the puking thing
ive been to a fucking therapist
i have a problem when i get upset i get sick to my stomach
ive never forced myself to throw up
the therapist n counslors said i was bulemic
i have problems
im not gonna pretend i dont
i also dont appreciate everyone saying i was cheating on matt or that i did
ive never cheated on him
i dont cheat on my boyfriends
if someone sees me hanging out with a guy
thats prolly all im doing
just cuz i talk to a male doesnt mean im fucking sleeping with him
this shyt needs to stop
ive had it and im done with it
dont go around talking like yew know just becuase of some stupid journal entry yew read when i was pissed off
yew dont know nething about me
i didnt tell ne of my friends when matt and i broke up that when we were
i didnt feel it was ne of their business
so how the fuck did everyone know?
whether im with him or someone else, its not ne concern to yew
its not yur job to try to find some gossip to talk about cuz yew have nothing else to do
what i put in here is my business
i prolly made that one public n not realized it
but most of this is friends only
what the fuck do yew want me to say?
somethings wrong
the only reason i put it in here is because im tired of telling one person n having someone overhear or something n telling everyone soemthing else
they twist around everything i say
i write in here so yew get the facts straight
i dont need people saying shit that isnt true about me
this here, this is wahts going on
n i dont love attention
if i wanted attention, id be trying to do something important n worth focusing your attention on, like winning an award for something im good at or accomplishing a new goal
live jounral entries? come on
yew obviously need attention if yew have to take yur time to try n make other ppl feel bad by commenting shyt like that
n yew also need attention if yur gonna say shit becuz saying shit is what gets ppls attention
your just entertainment to me
the only reason im giving you this opinion of mine is because i dont want other ppl thinking that
i want them to know the reason for saying it n the truth
not the lies yew ppl feed everyone
so when i go back to school
i dont care ne more that ppl stare at me n say things the minute im gone
it doesnt matter
this is high school
20 years from now yur not even gonna remember
unfortunatly i am
its not that i wont let it go
its that memories stay with me
just leave me alone for awhile ok?
i dont need ne more stress than the other shyt i dont put in here
yew dont know me ok?
stop acting like yew do
i was pissed when i wrote that entry
ever heard of typos?
i love how the world thinks they know me
NO my dad left when i was born
i havent seen him since i was 14
i typed it wrong
my REAL friends know that
im sure a ton of yew prolly understand what its like to have yur parents split
but mine, mine never married
i never lived with em both
they arent divorced or ne thing
its jsut whenever he gets a new girl shes suddenly more important to him than me n i hate it
i feel like part of me is gone when he does that
i mean yea hes never been there for me but i mean hes still my dad n i still deerve to be a part of his life
its not like he has ne other kids
its just me
and the birthday thing
hes never called me even around or seen me on my birthday
all i would like for once if him to call n say happy birthday instead of like last year haveing my grama tell me he said it but he was too busy with his girlfriend who he broke up with
wutever she gone now too
as far as my stepdad
yea he pisses me off but ive told my other dadmy stepdad is more of a father to me than ne one
whats in the past is in the past
i never said i neevr appreciated what hes done or that he doesnt love me
ok shows how much yew people know me
i dont give a shyt bout yur opinions ne more
the vicoden is so i can pierce my belly button and my ears
i have a low tolerance to pain
vic is a pain killer
when i was in the hospital they gave me some
when i took them all the pain was gone
im not some fuckin drug addict
so i hope thats straight for yew assholes
im not switching schools ne more
that would mean i was running from whatever is wrong
im not gonna do that to myself ne more
i also dont appreciate ppl talking shyt behind my back n being all sweet to me to face
im not gonna mention ne thing to yew
i wont even question to yew about it
its not gonna stoip yew from doing it again
n the puking thing
ive been to a fucking therapist
i have a problem when i get upset i get sick to my stomach
ive never forced myself to throw up
the therapist n counslors said i was bulemic
i have problems
im not gonna pretend i dont
i also dont appreciate everyone saying i was cheating on matt or that i did
ive never cheated on him
i dont cheat on my boyfriends
if someone sees me hanging out with a guy
thats prolly all im doing
just cuz i talk to a male doesnt mean im fucking sleeping with him
this shyt needs to stop
ive had it and im done with it
dont go around talking like yew know just becuase of some stupid journal entry yew read when i was pissed off
yew dont know nething about me
i didnt tell ne of my friends when matt and i broke up that when we were
i didnt feel it was ne of their business
so how the fuck did everyone know?
whether im with him or someone else, its not ne concern to yew
its not yur job to try to find some gossip to talk about cuz yew have nothing else to do
what i put in here is my business
i prolly made that one public n not realized it
but most of this is friends only
what the fuck do yew want me to say?
somethings wrong
the only reason i put it in here is because im tired of telling one person n having someone overhear or something n telling everyone soemthing else
they twist around everything i say
i write in here so yew get the facts straight
i dont need people saying shit that isnt true about me
this here, this is wahts going on
n i dont love attention
if i wanted attention, id be trying to do something important n worth focusing your attention on, like winning an award for something im good at or accomplishing a new goal
live jounral entries? come on
yew obviously need attention if yew have to take yur time to try n make other ppl feel bad by commenting shyt like that
n yew also need attention if yur gonna say shit becuz saying shit is what gets ppls attention
your just entertainment to me
the only reason im giving you this opinion of mine is because i dont want other ppl thinking that
i want them to know the reason for saying it n the truth
not the lies yew ppl feed everyone
so when i go back to school
i dont care ne more that ppl stare at me n say things the minute im gone
it doesnt matter
this is high school
20 years from now yur not even gonna remember
unfortunatly i am
its not that i wont let it go
its that memories stay with me
just leave me alone for awhile ok?
i dont need ne more stress than the other shyt i dont put in here
yew dont know me ok?
stop acting like yew do