Plastic Kingdom (Dictator) - ONE SHOT(Part 2)
Tittle: Plastic Kingdom (Dictator) Part 2
Author: Yuriski (me... *hides*)
Genre: Romance, Angst, SM related and smut-ISH (NOT SMUT probably)
Pairing:Yamachi, Chitarou
Rating: NC-16 (for me.. >.<)
Disclaimer: i won only my imaginations and plot (which UEDA-SAMA GAVES ME XD)
WARNING: YAMADA IS A TOTAL SADIST HERE. DONT LIKE DONT READ.
Summary: Chinen tried to change his life.
Words: 8585
Notes:LJ WANTS ME TO SEPARATE THEM
HELLO? ITS A SONG-INSPIRED SONG XD
anyways, enjoy~ ^^
Plastic Kingdom (Dictator) Part 2
They were finally back to the mansion. Both of them knew it was time to leave and they also knew that after Chinen entered the gate, he would not be able to come out here again.
“Th-thank you for today Morimoto-san.” Chinen said, giving a deep bow.
“Erm.. You're welcome..” Morimoto mumbled.
Chinen slowly took a few steps backward. He turned around and was ready to walk into the mansion, “Chinen!” he stopped and turned around.
Morimoto inhaled and walked forward, crossing his arms over Chinen's neck. When he let go, there was a necklace hanging in front of Chinen's chest. A necklace with the pendant of a dark red rose.
“This..?” Chinen was shocked, taking and looking at the necklace.
“I saw you staring at it in the accessories shop, so I thought that you like it.”The younger said shyly.
Chinen remained silence for a few seconds and finally spoke, “I was staring at it because it reminds me of Ryo-sama..” Chinen looked up. Noticing that the other boy was not saying anything, he continued, “Ryo-sama is like a rose. So beautiful, so elegant. But it is always hard to reach him, because..Ryo-Ryo-sama is also full of thorns.. and he refuses to let anyone goes near him. No one is able to reach for his heart...so I..” His voice was getting smaller, wondering if he should be saying all those.
“Souka..” Morimoto, again scratching his head, did not know what to say.
“But,” Chinen held the pendant in his grip tight and kissed it, “thank you.” His eyes looked up at Morimoto. The younger blushed.
“It's getting dark now, I really have to go.” Chinen said, turning around. He was not sure if it was a good thing to spend a day like this with Morimoto. Maybe it was not a very good idea.
“Chinen!” Morimoto grabbed his hand, refusing to let him disappeared from his view.
“Morimoto-san?” Chinen was shocked to see the younger acting that way.
“Your...the..the scars, I me-mean the marks on your ch-chest... Di-did the master of this mansion.. Did he does all that to you??” Morimoto was hesitating at the beginning, but he thought that he must not let Chinen suffered anymore, in the condition if he was.
Chinen was astonished. He turned his head away and refused to look at Morimoto, “There's nothing to do with you!” he cried, “It's none of your business!”
“Yes, it does! Because I love you!” Morimoto burst out and confessed his feelings, panting rapidly afterward.
Chinen looked at Morimoto, amused, “Morimoto-san..”
“Call me Ryutaro.” Morimoto said firmly.
Chinen hesitated awhile before he continued his talk, “....Ryutaro. But I-I...Ryo-sama..”
“Chinen , that guy does not loves you!” Morimoto said, grabbing his hand tighter, “If he loves you, he won't be treating you like this! You won't hurt someone you love, Chinen, you won't!”
“I don't know!” Chinen cried, “I only know that I have to obey everything commanded by Ryo-sama. I have to live on him, he is the rule of my world!”
“What is he? King? Dictator? There's no such thing as dictator now, Chinen. Everyone has their rights to live their own life. He couldn't treat you this way! You are a human, Chinen! Human!” Morimoto growled, feeling irritated by whoever that Ryo-sama was.
“I don't know what should I do, I have nothing else, Ryo-sama is my everything!” Chinen covered his ears and squad down, refusing to listen as he burst into tears.
Ryo-sama is my everything. Chinen thought, curling up his body in pain. But I know that Ryo-sama will still be living fine without me, that's why he's treating me this way. I'm a just a toy after all...
It’s time to bend your knees.
“Wshhh--!!” The third whip was about to hit Chinen when the 'doll' crawled to Yamada's legs and grabbed the corner of Yamada's long pants with his trembling hand. Tears were flowing down from his eyes, “Ryo-sama.. Ryo-sama.. Ple-please forgive me.. It-it hurts..Ryo-sama...” He was cuddling at Yamada's pants when he looked up at him with those teary eyes.
“Yu-Yuri..” The whip dropped from Yamada's hand as he squad down to embrace his doll tightly. He could not believe that he just lost control of himself again.How could he ever hurt such creature?
Yamada was sweeping Chinen's hair and watched him cry. He pulled him in for another embrace and whispered in his ears, “I'm sorry.. You must be lonely.. Daijoubu, Yuri.. There's nothing to be afraid of now..”
“You still have me, Chinen. I can bring you out there.” Morimoto pulled Chinen up, “I can help you to escape from here as long as it's what you wish. You can come stay with me. We can start a new life together. We-” Morimoto said softly, hugging him gently but Chinen wiggled him off.
“I'll need some time to think..” He was not sure with his own decision. He could not choose between them.Both of them meant something to him but he knew he have to lose one of them.
Morimoto nodded understandingly as he patted Chinen, “If you choose to come with me, come look for me out here tonight. I will be waiting for you here. No matter how long it takes, I will still be waiting for you. I love you, Chinen. I do. And I will always protect you. I will never leave you alone nor letting you feel lonely.”
Chinen did not say anything.Why must this happened to him? Have he done anything wrong? Chinen wiped off his tears and entered the mansion as the young master. If he had to make a decision no matter what, he had to make it fast.
Yamada turned Chinen around and lift his shirt, healing his wound on the back with his tongue. Chinen said nothing but hissed in pain. He did not know if he should believed in Yamada's love.
You can’t run, Even you can’t hide,
I know you will come to the place of plastic kingdom.
Chinen could not stand the pain. He bit his own lips and clenched his fist, trying to escape from the stingy pain.
“Do you want me to let go of you...?” Yamada asked devilishly, slightly soften his embracement on Chinen's slender body.
“No!” The younger answered immediately. He turned around and crossed his arms over Yamada's neck, “It-It doesn't hurt at all..Hold me tight..Ryo-sama..”
Chinen sat in the bathtub covered by flower petals to increase the essence of it. He was resting his head on the side of the tub while someone was giving him a back massage. Chinen stared out the window at the round moon and sighed. What should he do now? Should he continued to stay in the mansion, living under the power of Yamada? Or should he just escape like what Morimoto suggested?
Did Ryo-sama loves him? He did not know. Ryo-sama was always saying how beautiful I am and always saying how he loves me, but were those real love? There were still a lot of beautiful girls out there? Did Ryo-sama loves them more? All the dolls collected, they were beautiful as well. Did Ryo-sama loves all of them? Is Ryo-sama loving them like how he loves me, just like how he treated me like one of them? What made me special to Ryo-sama? I am useless.
Tears started to stream down again but no one noticed that. Chinen dipped his head into the water and exposed his face to the air again. Morimoto-sa-- Ryutaro. What about him? A guy younger than me that I just first met him today. Why did he said he loves me? But Ryutaro..he is the first person who brings me out there, he is the first person who made me smile and laugh from my heart, he is the first person who treated me as a normal person. I hate him. I hate him for making me to think about so many things. I hate him for making me thinking about him. If he never appears in my life, I won't be feeling so awkward now. Chinen cliched. He stood and took his towels, walking out the bathroom.
Yamada smirked. He lifted Chinen's head to face him. Staring into his pleading eyes, Yamada gently brushed Chinen's lips with this thumb, “I know it hurts, Yuri..” He moved his head forward to lick those injured lips.
You can’t run, Even you can’t hide,
I am king of desire of the love….
“Ryo-sama...” the younger moaned.
Yamada pushed Chinen's head to his shoulder, “Just bite my shoulder when you feel the pain.. Don't hurt yourself..” He said softly, patting Chinen's head as the latter nodded silently.
Chinen followed the order by the dictator. He opened his mouth and covered Yamada's shoulder with his jaws.
Yamada was still lovingly patting on Chinen until he suddenly lowered his head and stared 'healing' the wound at the front part. The pain was impelled to Chinen right away, “Nghhh!!”
(And you are) addicted to the love.
He did not mean to, but he really did bite Yamada hard. His master slightly hissed in pain but he continued the 'healing', “Do you know, Yuri..? Even with all these scars and wound on your fair skin..” Yamada kissed his chest gently, “You're still as beautiful as ever.” He finished it with a fast , short lick with the tip of his tongue on the wound.
Chinen could not hold it anymore, “Ah-Ahhhhhhhhh-!!” He held himself tight on his master, merely fainted in the combination of the sharp pain and pleasure at the same time.
Done being dressed, Chinen's hand was held by a servant, leading him to his room, the place where he spent half of his lifetime in. They were treating him gingerly, as if he were a toy that would break easily. He walked by numerous of dolls that were not much different than him until he reached his seat where he usually awaits the master. Sitting down, he could feel someone started brushing and combing his hair. Again, those hands were shivering with fear. Why is this happening?
I never have this kind of feelings in my life, the feeling I'm having towards both of them. Is this love? Having so many things in his mind, Chinen's expression was still freezed. He was already used to it. Since when did his life start to be like this?
If it's love, then who do I love more? If I choose to stay with Ryo-sama, will my life continue to be like this till the end? Will he treats and loves me as a normal human being if I go through some more time? Or will he just throw me away one day when he found a better toy, a better doll? Ah, ittai.. my chest hurts, but why? Someone please tell me, what kind of feeling is this?
The servant who was combing his hair done her job. She bowed, and left the room, coming in some of the others, with mass of red roses in their hands. Roses fresh from the garden. Some of the thorns were removed, but some were missed out and remained. They carefully spread all the roses around the room and all over the ground. Some of them even plucked the buds to spread only the petals of the roses all around the young master, on his chair and on him. As the final touch, a single white lily was placed on his laps.
If I escape from here, maybe...maybe life will be different. Ryutaro said he loves me. He promised not to let me feel lonely, he promised to protect me. Ryutaro he likes me as a human, he took me as a human. But even if I choose to follow Ryuatro, will I be able to resist Ryo-sama?
Done decorating the room with all those red roses, the servants bowed and left the room. It was about time for them to leave the mansion too. Chinen was sitting alone in the room, with all those human-size dolls surrounding it.
Who should I choose to follow?
Sitting alone on the red antique couch, his lifeless expression freeze.
Who should I give my whole life to?
Chinen slowly shut his eyes and lowered his head, stopping every actions.
Who do I love more?
He heared the door of his room being pushed opened slowly.
Who loves me.. more...?
“...Ryo-Ryo-sama....” Chinen was still panting rapidly, melting in Yamada's arms. The master gave his toy a soft, gentle kiss..
Destination
Yamada slipped his lips down to Chinen's bare chest, enjoyed listening to the moan from his doll. Suddenly, he felt something cold on his lips.
-cling-
“Hmm..?” Yamada opened his eyes and saw the necklace on Chinen. He smiled and wanted to take a look at the pendant, “So.. which necklace are you wearing today...?”
“Ah.. No.. Ryo-sama..” Chinen could not believe that he had actually forgotten that he was still wearing the necklace from Ryutaro. He tried to stop Yamada, but he failed.
Destruction
After noticing that the pendant was not a familiar one, Yamada unhesitatingly pulled of the necklace off, causing another shallow stripe on Chinen's neck, “Itai!”
Frustration
Yamada had given Chinen a lots of necklace, but only one of them had a pendant of a flower shape. It was a pendant of a white lily, having Chinen's name, 'Yuri' nicely carved on it. So the one with a red rose was defdinitely not something from him.
“Where did you get this?” Yamada asked, pressing his voice low and controlling his anger.
Human relation
Chinen knew that he would never ne able to lie to his master, shivering, he slowly answered, “I-I met someone..called... Ryuta-Ryutaro...today...”
Disconnection
“Oh, so he can bring you to the outside world? So that you can escape from my side?” Yamada's tone was getting heavier and heavier. Chinen denied it right away, “No, that's not it! It's just-”
“DO YOU REALLY HATE ME THAT MUCH??” Yamada cried. Surprisingly his expression was hurt. Chinen startled. What makes Ryo-sama thinks that way?
Generation
“No wonder you asked about going to the outside world. So you found someone else? You found someone better than me?” Yamada asked sarcasticly, “I should have knew it.” he bat an eyelid. He stood and walked away from the bed.
“It's not what you think! Ryo-sama!” Chinen tired to reach out for Yamada's hand.
Explosion
Seeing Chinen trying to touch him, Yamada was convuled to slam the vase on the floor. The water splashed on both of them as the roses in it were spread all over when the vase hit the floor, “Don't touch me!” Yamada growled hysterically as he nonchalantly stepped on the roses, smashing them.
Chinen jolted seeing the vase broke in front of him. He was afraid, yes, but he knew he must not leave Yamada alone, “Ryo-sama...!” Chinen took a deep breath and tried to step forward, not noticing the broken pieces on the floor.
Extinction
“Yuri!” Yamada's eyes were sharp. He rushed forward and pushed Chinen away, having himself falling on the broken pieces.
“Tsssk--!” Yamada hissed in pain. Not even looking at the scratches on his arms, Yamada hurrily searched for Chinen, “Yuri, Yuri! Are you hurt?” Yamada knew that he was always hurting Chinen but actually he did not want to do so. He just could not control himself when he had a feeling that the younger would be leaving him.
“Ryo-sama, I'm okay! Bu-but your hand..” Chinen grabbed Yamada's arms and wanted to check on them but the elder threw him away eagerly, “I said don't touch me!”
Chinen was so afraid that he started keeping a distance between Yamada and himself. He was staring at Yamada with total confusion while the latter was giving him a glare with those sad, hurt eyes. Yamada just did not want to see Chinen being hurt by himself anymore. He did not want to.
Conclusion
“Out, Yuri. Get out of here. I don't want to see you again..” Yamada murmured, his lips shivering, voice vibrating.
Creation
Yamada knew. If it was not him at the first place, Chinen would definitely not behaving this way. He was the one who created this doll. This sad-looking doll. He should has let Chinen experienced life of a normal person, so that he would lead a happy life. He knew that he was to blame for everything. He never wanted to share his precious lover with anyone, but he knew it was time for him to let go.
Connection
“....Ryo-sama....?” Chinen was starting to get worried. Yamada was acting strange. Chinen never saw him acting this way, no.
“Go look for Ryutaro, Yuri..” Yamada said it out of the blue. Chinen was totally shocked about two thing. First, his Ryo-sama actually asked him to go look for some other guys. Second, Yamada was actually listening to every word he said as he only mentioned Ryutaro's name once.
“But Ryo-sama..I-” Chinen still had not made up his mind which to choose. Ryutaro was very nice to him and he still was not sure if Ryo-sama loves him, but asking him to decide in all a sudden, he needed more time.
Improvisation
“Ryutaro will give you a happy life. The life that you long asked for..” Yamada was still talking with his eyes on the ground. Yes, he knew rhat Chinen's life would be happier if he followed that Ryutaro guy.... ...at least it would definitely be a life better than what he had gave him.
“Ryo-sama..Ryo-sama you're acting strange.. What happened..?”
Communication
“I don't need your sympathy!” Yamada roared furiously. He stood and grabbed Chinen, pulling him towards the door, “Get out get out! Get out from this room! Get out from this house! Get out from my sight and don't let me see you again!!” He had to let go. He knew that but it also hurt to see Chinen being happier spending his time with the other guys.
“Ryo-sama! Ryo-samaaa!!” Chinen was pleading with his high-pitched voice when Yamada pushed him out the room and slamming the door shut. Chinen burst into tears. Why was Ryo-sama behaving like this today? Have I done anything wrong? He was not able to communicate properly with Yamada and he did not know why.
Devotion
Chinen suddenly stopped crying and looked up. Maybe Kami-sama was helping him to choose his path since he was not able to decide them on his own. Maybe that was why Ryo-sama was acting extraordinary today. Maybe Ryutaro was the one who could gave him a better life afterall.
Thinking of those, Chinen stood up. He gripped his fist tightly and rushed towards the main entrance. There was nothing that he needed to pack though.
“If you choose to come with me, come look for me out here tonight. I will be waiting for you here. No matter how long it takes, I will still be waiting for you. I love you, Chinen. I do.
What Ryutaro said earlier was still echoing in his ears.
If that is true..if that is true, then Ryutaro should be waiting for me... outside the gate.
Unite-nation
Chinen reached the main entrance and immediately saw the shadow he was waiting for outside the gate. He was panting in a rapid speed, excited and happy that he could finally leave the mansion.
“Ryu-Ryutaro!!” Chinen yelped, waving his hands in the air.
Hearing his name, Morimoto immediately turned around and was delighted to know that Chinen chose him over his Ryo-sama.
“Chinen!!” he waved back with a big grin on his face.
“Tehe!” Chinen chuckled. He tried to unlock the door so that he could say his last good bye to the mansion. He carefully inserted the key into the key hole. Just before he turned it, a llighthing thunder stike.
“Kyaaaaaaaaaaaaa-!!” Chinen shrieked in fear, bending down covering his ears.
“Chinen! Chinenn!! It's just a thunder, daijoubu, Chinen!” Ryutaro hated that he was standing outside the mansion and he could not rushed by Chinen's side immediately.
You can’t run, Even you can’t hide,
You have no way out, in the place of plastic kingdom.
Tears were forming in Chinen's eyes. He hated thunder the most. He was so afraid that he could not even stood up.
“Yuri.”
Chinen suddenly remembered how Yamada used to comfort him when there were thunderstorms.
“Yuri, don't worry. I am here, I am always here, Yuri. They can't hurt you. I won't let them laid a finger on you.” Yamada pushed Chinen's bangs up and kissed his forehead lovingly as Chinen snuggled into his blanket, “Pro-promise...?”
“I promise..” Yamada replied with a warm smile that actually made Chinen believed him. He was holding Chinen's small hand tightly and comforting him until the younger fully fell asleep.
How could he ever forget about the warm temperature passed from Ryo-sama's palm and all the sense of protection he gave him? How dare he got overly excited just because he met something new, something that he never seen nor have any contact with? How cruel could it be for him to leave Ryo-sama all alone who was trying his best to protect him with that hurt and thorn heart? Ryo-sama may be hurting him from the outside, but is it too late now to only realised that he had always been hurting Ryo-sama badly deep in his heart.
Chinen felt something in his heart. He stood and stayed still for a moment before he started moving his feet slowly back into the mansion.....
“Chinen! Daijoubu?” Ryutaro asked concernly.
Chinen stopped. He turned around and stared at Morimoto... The rain started dripping..
“....Chinen..?” Morimoto again stretched his hand into the gate, asking Chinen to grab on him. The rain started to pour.
You can’t run, Even you can’t hide,
I know you will come to the place of plastic kingdom.
A single drop of tears rolled down from Chinen's cheek. It would be the last drop of tears he shed for people other than his Ryo-sama, “Gomen...Ryutaro..”
Chinen shut his eyes and turned his head back. His legs started moving without his command. His body knew where he really wanted to go, and his heart knew where he belonged to. He was dashing towards where he belonged. He needs Yamada.
“Chinennnn--!!” Chinen could heard the boy out there shouting his name, but he knew he must be by Yamada's side now.
Gomen, Ryutaro.. Hontouni gomenasai..but thank you very much.. Because of you, I finally know how important Ryo-sama is to me. Because of you, I finally understand what is love. Because of you, I finally realised who was the person I loved the most. Because of you, I finally realised who loved me the most. And because of you, I finally noticed how important it was to treasure my loved one, Ryo-sama... Thank you Ryutaro.I'm sorry that I could not love you back, but you'll always remain as a special person deep in my heart. Thank you...and sorry..
Chinen bit his lips. He was rushing to Yamada's bed room when he felt his heart beating faster and faster. Yes this is the feeling. He smiled. It hurts. It is bitter and sour as well, but at the same time, there is also sweet, warmness and care... This must be it right? So this is the feeling of love. I finally get my answer. I finally know what is 'love'.
Tears streamed down again. Chinen was so desperate to see his Ryo-sama now. He knew that he could not wait any longer. When was the last time he was so desperate for something..?
Finally Yamada's bedroom was in his sight. Without hesitation, Chinen pushed open the door and and stopped, breathing heavily, searching for his Ryo-sama.
The broken pieces of the vase and the crushed roses were still spreading all over, but Chinen did not mind them. His emotions were indescribably happy when he saw Yamada covering himself with a thin layer of blanket sitting by the window. He was watching the raining scene out the window blindly as the moonlight showered on him, not even noticing that Chinen was in the room.
“.....Ryo-sama..” it took Chinen a lot of courage to interupt his master, but he wished that Yamada could look at him and noticed his existence.
Yamada slowly turned around. The two rows of tears down his cheeks were glimmering in the moonlight. At the very second Yamada noticed it was Chinen standing there, he turned back and groaned, “Why are you here? I asked you to leave!” He pulled the blanket closer to himself, trying to hide his crying face. Chinen was the first person to see Yamada crying.
You can’t run, Even you can’t hide,
I am king of desire of the love….
“Ryo-sama..” Chinen tried to get closer to Yamada, but the lightning strike again.
“Kyaaaaaaaaaaaa--!!!” Unintentionally, Chinen cried in fear again as he squad.
“Yuri!!” Yamada immediately got up and rushed by Chinen's side, hugging him gently, warmly.
“Ryo-Ryo-sama..” Chinen was shivering as he tugged on Yamada's shirt.
“Yuri, please leave me. You know you always wanted to be out there. I could not ensure to control myself any longer, so please, Yuri, please leave this house..I want you to be...happy..” Yamada slowly let go his hands, begging Chinen with his vibrating voice. It was the second time he cried that day.
“Hold me tight then...” Chinen refused to losen his hands. He looked up and licked up the traces of tears like a cat, “Ryosuke.” he whispered by Yamada's ear.
Yamada was stunned by his lover's sudden act. He never did something like that...but he did not hate it. No at all, infact...he liked it.
“This is the only place to make me happy....” Chinen said softly, poking at Yamada's chest which signified his heart.
“..Yuri..?” Esctasy ran in him and he did not know what to react.
Chinen smirked devilishly and called him back the original way, “Hai...Ryo-sama?”
“...No.” was Yamada's reply and he started to press their lips against each other, ravishing Chinen's lips, “Call me 'Ryosuke'..” he commanded as he continued to taste his lover's lips, “You're the only one left in this world who ca-called my name... Call them.. I want to listen to you calling my name..”
“Mmmm..Ryo-Ryosuke..mmhhh!!” Chinen seemed to enjoy the moment very much. These kisses were different than what he had experieced before he realised his feelings. These kisses were deeper yet softer. Most importantly, he could feel all the loves he need in the kiss.
“I love you...Yuri..” Yamada increased his rhythm in the kissing. Chinen was too busy enjoying himself to reply his ex-master, now lover.
When they finally broke apart, both of them were panting heavily. Chinen was so tired that he leaned against Yamada's chest. He closed his eyes to take some rest.
“...Ne, Yuri..” Yamada need to gasped for some air during the interval of his talk, “...why did you came back..?”
Chinen opened his eyes, “...Because I love you, Ryosuke..” He looked up at Yamada who was watching him with loving eyes. “You always told me that I have nothing else but you. It's true.. But ne, Ryosuke, you can't lose me too...and I know that you need me.” Looking at the smile on Yamada's face, Chinen knew that his lover was satisfied with his answer..but he had not finished answering yet, “And because......” Chinen strecthed his head higher and steal a kiss from Yamada's lips, causing the elder boy to blush hardly.
(And you are)
“I am addicted to the love.”
-END-
*hides hides*
*peek*
firstly, thanks to aya for all her support
if it want her, i probably wont have the courage to post this up *blush*
haii.. i'm taking a break from the multichap so i wrote a one-shot....gomen m(_ _)m
and i cant believe my first one-shot will be a story like this O_O
i mean, i hav lots of ideas in my notebook for one-shot stories
and all of them are fluffs one XD i promised myself not to write any of them till i finished 'butterfly'
but.... UEDA-SAMA suddenly gave me this idea a few days ago
so i cannot hold on to myself and it ended up like this... >_>
hontouni gomanasai...
its my first time writing things like this,
so please comment. Just a comment will make me realyyyyyyy happy XD
i love the song yes i do XDD (and NO I AM NOT M >D)
ne ne,
if u like this fic, THANK UEDA-SAMA XD (he made me write this)
but if u dun like this fic, BLAME UEDA-SAMA XDDDD *SHOTT*
but neeeee,
dun u think that CHINEN really looks like a doll??? (i mean LOOKS LOOKS XD)
TELL ME HE DOESNT LOOK LIKE ONE
TELL ME HE DOENT LOOK LIKE ONE
TELL ME HE DOESNT LOOK LIKE A DOLL
TELL MEEEEEHHH D:
all credits go to their respectful owner
and YESH I'M TAKING MY OPPURTUNITY TO SPAM MY CHINEN'S PICS HERE XDD
about chinen getting injured in lots of photo we've seen
MAYBE ITS BECAUSE OF YAMACHAN XD *SHOT DEAD*
nahhh, just kidding
i'm pretty worried abut him
hope that he'll get better and cheer up soon >.<
still have lots of things to talk about
but *sighs*
BROTHERS xp
well, COMMENTS ARE REALLY REALLY APPRECIATED AND LOVEDDDDD
so please please let me know wat u think
i'm still worried @_@
well, JA~ XD
*flailing over UEDA SAMA*
Author: Yuriski (me... *hides*)
Genre: Romance, Angst, SM related and smut-ISH (NOT SMUT probably)
Pairing:Yamachi, Chitarou
Rating: NC-16 (for me.. >.<)
Disclaimer: i won only my imaginations and plot (which UEDA-SAMA GAVES ME XD)
WARNING: YAMADA IS A TOTAL SADIST HERE. DONT LIKE DONT READ.
Summary: Chinen tried to change his life.
Words: 8585
Notes:LJ WANTS ME TO SEPARATE THEM
HELLO? ITS A SONG-INSPIRED SONG XD
anyways, enjoy~ ^^
Plastic Kingdom (Dictator) Part 2
They were finally back to the mansion. Both of them knew it was time to leave and they also knew that after Chinen entered the gate, he would not be able to come out here again.
“Th-thank you for today Morimoto-san.” Chinen said, giving a deep bow.
“Erm.. You're welcome..” Morimoto mumbled.
Chinen slowly took a few steps backward. He turned around and was ready to walk into the mansion, “Chinen!” he stopped and turned around.
Morimoto inhaled and walked forward, crossing his arms over Chinen's neck. When he let go, there was a necklace hanging in front of Chinen's chest. A necklace with the pendant of a dark red rose.
“This..?” Chinen was shocked, taking and looking at the necklace.
“I saw you staring at it in the accessories shop, so I thought that you like it.”The younger said shyly.
Chinen remained silence for a few seconds and finally spoke, “I was staring at it because it reminds me of Ryo-sama..” Chinen looked up. Noticing that the other boy was not saying anything, he continued, “Ryo-sama is like a rose. So beautiful, so elegant. But it is always hard to reach him, because..Ryo-Ryo-sama is also full of thorns.. and he refuses to let anyone goes near him. No one is able to reach for his heart...so I..” His voice was getting smaller, wondering if he should be saying all those.
“Souka..” Morimoto, again scratching his head, did not know what to say.
“But,” Chinen held the pendant in his grip tight and kissed it, “thank you.” His eyes looked up at Morimoto. The younger blushed.
“It's getting dark now, I really have to go.” Chinen said, turning around. He was not sure if it was a good thing to spend a day like this with Morimoto. Maybe it was not a very good idea.
“Chinen!” Morimoto grabbed his hand, refusing to let him disappeared from his view.
“Morimoto-san?” Chinen was shocked to see the younger acting that way.
“Your...the..the scars, I me-mean the marks on your ch-chest... Di-did the master of this mansion.. Did he does all that to you??” Morimoto was hesitating at the beginning, but he thought that he must not let Chinen suffered anymore, in the condition if he was.
Chinen was astonished. He turned his head away and refused to look at Morimoto, “There's nothing to do with you!” he cried, “It's none of your business!”
“Yes, it does! Because I love you!” Morimoto burst out and confessed his feelings, panting rapidly afterward.
Chinen looked at Morimoto, amused, “Morimoto-san..”
“Call me Ryutaro.” Morimoto said firmly.
Chinen hesitated awhile before he continued his talk, “....Ryutaro. But I-I...Ryo-sama..”
“Chinen , that guy does not loves you!” Morimoto said, grabbing his hand tighter, “If he loves you, he won't be treating you like this! You won't hurt someone you love, Chinen, you won't!”
“I don't know!” Chinen cried, “I only know that I have to obey everything commanded by Ryo-sama. I have to live on him, he is the rule of my world!”
“What is he? King? Dictator? There's no such thing as dictator now, Chinen. Everyone has their rights to live their own life. He couldn't treat you this way! You are a human, Chinen! Human!” Morimoto growled, feeling irritated by whoever that Ryo-sama was.
“I don't know what should I do, I have nothing else, Ryo-sama is my everything!” Chinen covered his ears and squad down, refusing to listen as he burst into tears.
Ryo-sama is my everything. Chinen thought, curling up his body in pain. But I know that Ryo-sama will still be living fine without me, that's why he's treating me this way. I'm a just a toy after all...
It’s time to bend your knees.
“Wshhh--!!” The third whip was about to hit Chinen when the 'doll' crawled to Yamada's legs and grabbed the corner of Yamada's long pants with his trembling hand. Tears were flowing down from his eyes, “Ryo-sama.. Ryo-sama.. Ple-please forgive me.. It-it hurts..Ryo-sama...” He was cuddling at Yamada's pants when he looked up at him with those teary eyes.
“Yu-Yuri..” The whip dropped from Yamada's hand as he squad down to embrace his doll tightly. He could not believe that he just lost control of himself again.How could he ever hurt such creature?
Yamada was sweeping Chinen's hair and watched him cry. He pulled him in for another embrace and whispered in his ears, “I'm sorry.. You must be lonely.. Daijoubu, Yuri.. There's nothing to be afraid of now..”
“You still have me, Chinen. I can bring you out there.” Morimoto pulled Chinen up, “I can help you to escape from here as long as it's what you wish. You can come stay with me. We can start a new life together. We-” Morimoto said softly, hugging him gently but Chinen wiggled him off.
“I'll need some time to think..” He was not sure with his own decision. He could not choose between them.Both of them meant something to him but he knew he have to lose one of them.
Morimoto nodded understandingly as he patted Chinen, “If you choose to come with me, come look for me out here tonight. I will be waiting for you here. No matter how long it takes, I will still be waiting for you. I love you, Chinen. I do. And I will always protect you. I will never leave you alone nor letting you feel lonely.”
Chinen did not say anything.Why must this happened to him? Have he done anything wrong? Chinen wiped off his tears and entered the mansion as the young master. If he had to make a decision no matter what, he had to make it fast.
Yamada turned Chinen around and lift his shirt, healing his wound on the back with his tongue. Chinen said nothing but hissed in pain. He did not know if he should believed in Yamada's love.
You can’t run, Even you can’t hide,
I know you will come to the place of plastic kingdom.
Chinen could not stand the pain. He bit his own lips and clenched his fist, trying to escape from the stingy pain.
“Do you want me to let go of you...?” Yamada asked devilishly, slightly soften his embracement on Chinen's slender body.
“No!” The younger answered immediately. He turned around and crossed his arms over Yamada's neck, “It-It doesn't hurt at all..Hold me tight..Ryo-sama..”
Chinen sat in the bathtub covered by flower petals to increase the essence of it. He was resting his head on the side of the tub while someone was giving him a back massage. Chinen stared out the window at the round moon and sighed. What should he do now? Should he continued to stay in the mansion, living under the power of Yamada? Or should he just escape like what Morimoto suggested?
Did Ryo-sama loves him? He did not know. Ryo-sama was always saying how beautiful I am and always saying how he loves me, but were those real love? There were still a lot of beautiful girls out there? Did Ryo-sama loves them more? All the dolls collected, they were beautiful as well. Did Ryo-sama loves all of them? Is Ryo-sama loving them like how he loves me, just like how he treated me like one of them? What made me special to Ryo-sama? I am useless.
Tears started to stream down again but no one noticed that. Chinen dipped his head into the water and exposed his face to the air again. Morimoto-sa-- Ryutaro. What about him? A guy younger than me that I just first met him today. Why did he said he loves me? But Ryutaro..he is the first person who brings me out there, he is the first person who made me smile and laugh from my heart, he is the first person who treated me as a normal person. I hate him. I hate him for making me to think about so many things. I hate him for making me thinking about him. If he never appears in my life, I won't be feeling so awkward now. Chinen cliched. He stood and took his towels, walking out the bathroom.
Yamada smirked. He lifted Chinen's head to face him. Staring into his pleading eyes, Yamada gently brushed Chinen's lips with this thumb, “I know it hurts, Yuri..” He moved his head forward to lick those injured lips.
You can’t run, Even you can’t hide,
I am king of desire of the love….
“Ryo-sama...” the younger moaned.
Yamada pushed Chinen's head to his shoulder, “Just bite my shoulder when you feel the pain.. Don't hurt yourself..” He said softly, patting Chinen's head as the latter nodded silently.
Chinen followed the order by the dictator. He opened his mouth and covered Yamada's shoulder with his jaws.
Yamada was still lovingly patting on Chinen until he suddenly lowered his head and stared 'healing' the wound at the front part. The pain was impelled to Chinen right away, “Nghhh!!”
(And you are) addicted to the love.
He did not mean to, but he really did bite Yamada hard. His master slightly hissed in pain but he continued the 'healing', “Do you know, Yuri..? Even with all these scars and wound on your fair skin..” Yamada kissed his chest gently, “You're still as beautiful as ever.” He finished it with a fast , short lick with the tip of his tongue on the wound.
Chinen could not hold it anymore, “Ah-Ahhhhhhhhh-!!” He held himself tight on his master, merely fainted in the combination of the sharp pain and pleasure at the same time.
Done being dressed, Chinen's hand was held by a servant, leading him to his room, the place where he spent half of his lifetime in. They were treating him gingerly, as if he were a toy that would break easily. He walked by numerous of dolls that were not much different than him until he reached his seat where he usually awaits the master. Sitting down, he could feel someone started brushing and combing his hair. Again, those hands were shivering with fear. Why is this happening?
I never have this kind of feelings in my life, the feeling I'm having towards both of them. Is this love? Having so many things in his mind, Chinen's expression was still freezed. He was already used to it. Since when did his life start to be like this?
If it's love, then who do I love more? If I choose to stay with Ryo-sama, will my life continue to be like this till the end? Will he treats and loves me as a normal human being if I go through some more time? Or will he just throw me away one day when he found a better toy, a better doll? Ah, ittai.. my chest hurts, but why? Someone please tell me, what kind of feeling is this?
The servant who was combing his hair done her job. She bowed, and left the room, coming in some of the others, with mass of red roses in their hands. Roses fresh from the garden. Some of the thorns were removed, but some were missed out and remained. They carefully spread all the roses around the room and all over the ground. Some of them even plucked the buds to spread only the petals of the roses all around the young master, on his chair and on him. As the final touch, a single white lily was placed on his laps.
If I escape from here, maybe...maybe life will be different. Ryutaro said he loves me. He promised not to let me feel lonely, he promised to protect me. Ryutaro he likes me as a human, he took me as a human. But even if I choose to follow Ryuatro, will I be able to resist Ryo-sama?
Done decorating the room with all those red roses, the servants bowed and left the room. It was about time for them to leave the mansion too. Chinen was sitting alone in the room, with all those human-size dolls surrounding it.
Who should I choose to follow?
Sitting alone on the red antique couch, his lifeless expression freeze.
Who should I give my whole life to?
Chinen slowly shut his eyes and lowered his head, stopping every actions.
Who do I love more?
He heared the door of his room being pushed opened slowly.
Who loves me.. more...?
“...Ryo-Ryo-sama....” Chinen was still panting rapidly, melting in Yamada's arms. The master gave his toy a soft, gentle kiss..
Destination
Yamada slipped his lips down to Chinen's bare chest, enjoyed listening to the moan from his doll. Suddenly, he felt something cold on his lips.
-cling-
“Hmm..?” Yamada opened his eyes and saw the necklace on Chinen. He smiled and wanted to take a look at the pendant, “So.. which necklace are you wearing today...?”
“Ah.. No.. Ryo-sama..” Chinen could not believe that he had actually forgotten that he was still wearing the necklace from Ryutaro. He tried to stop Yamada, but he failed.
Destruction
After noticing that the pendant was not a familiar one, Yamada unhesitatingly pulled of the necklace off, causing another shallow stripe on Chinen's neck, “Itai!”
Frustration
Yamada had given Chinen a lots of necklace, but only one of them had a pendant of a flower shape. It was a pendant of a white lily, having Chinen's name, 'Yuri' nicely carved on it. So the one with a red rose was defdinitely not something from him.
“Where did you get this?” Yamada asked, pressing his voice low and controlling his anger.
Human relation
Chinen knew that he would never ne able to lie to his master, shivering, he slowly answered, “I-I met someone..called... Ryuta-Ryutaro...today...”
Disconnection
“Oh, so he can bring you to the outside world? So that you can escape from my side?” Yamada's tone was getting heavier and heavier. Chinen denied it right away, “No, that's not it! It's just-”
“DO YOU REALLY HATE ME THAT MUCH??” Yamada cried. Surprisingly his expression was hurt. Chinen startled. What makes Ryo-sama thinks that way?
Generation
“No wonder you asked about going to the outside world. So you found someone else? You found someone better than me?” Yamada asked sarcasticly, “I should have knew it.” he bat an eyelid. He stood and walked away from the bed.
“It's not what you think! Ryo-sama!” Chinen tired to reach out for Yamada's hand.
Explosion
Seeing Chinen trying to touch him, Yamada was convuled to slam the vase on the floor. The water splashed on both of them as the roses in it were spread all over when the vase hit the floor, “Don't touch me!” Yamada growled hysterically as he nonchalantly stepped on the roses, smashing them.
Chinen jolted seeing the vase broke in front of him. He was afraid, yes, but he knew he must not leave Yamada alone, “Ryo-sama...!” Chinen took a deep breath and tried to step forward, not noticing the broken pieces on the floor.
Extinction
“Yuri!” Yamada's eyes were sharp. He rushed forward and pushed Chinen away, having himself falling on the broken pieces.
“Tsssk--!” Yamada hissed in pain. Not even looking at the scratches on his arms, Yamada hurrily searched for Chinen, “Yuri, Yuri! Are you hurt?” Yamada knew that he was always hurting Chinen but actually he did not want to do so. He just could not control himself when he had a feeling that the younger would be leaving him.
“Ryo-sama, I'm okay! Bu-but your hand..” Chinen grabbed Yamada's arms and wanted to check on them but the elder threw him away eagerly, “I said don't touch me!”
Chinen was so afraid that he started keeping a distance between Yamada and himself. He was staring at Yamada with total confusion while the latter was giving him a glare with those sad, hurt eyes. Yamada just did not want to see Chinen being hurt by himself anymore. He did not want to.
Conclusion
“Out, Yuri. Get out of here. I don't want to see you again..” Yamada murmured, his lips shivering, voice vibrating.
Creation
Yamada knew. If it was not him at the first place, Chinen would definitely not behaving this way. He was the one who created this doll. This sad-looking doll. He should has let Chinen experienced life of a normal person, so that he would lead a happy life. He knew that he was to blame for everything. He never wanted to share his precious lover with anyone, but he knew it was time for him to let go.
Connection
“....Ryo-sama....?” Chinen was starting to get worried. Yamada was acting strange. Chinen never saw him acting this way, no.
“Go look for Ryutaro, Yuri..” Yamada said it out of the blue. Chinen was totally shocked about two thing. First, his Ryo-sama actually asked him to go look for some other guys. Second, Yamada was actually listening to every word he said as he only mentioned Ryutaro's name once.
“But Ryo-sama..I-” Chinen still had not made up his mind which to choose. Ryutaro was very nice to him and he still was not sure if Ryo-sama loves him, but asking him to decide in all a sudden, he needed more time.
Improvisation
“Ryutaro will give you a happy life. The life that you long asked for..” Yamada was still talking with his eyes on the ground. Yes, he knew rhat Chinen's life would be happier if he followed that Ryutaro guy.... ...at least it would definitely be a life better than what he had gave him.
“Ryo-sama..Ryo-sama you're acting strange.. What happened..?”
Communication
“I don't need your sympathy!” Yamada roared furiously. He stood and grabbed Chinen, pulling him towards the door, “Get out get out! Get out from this room! Get out from this house! Get out from my sight and don't let me see you again!!” He had to let go. He knew that but it also hurt to see Chinen being happier spending his time with the other guys.
“Ryo-sama! Ryo-samaaa!!” Chinen was pleading with his high-pitched voice when Yamada pushed him out the room and slamming the door shut. Chinen burst into tears. Why was Ryo-sama behaving like this today? Have I done anything wrong? He was not able to communicate properly with Yamada and he did not know why.
Devotion
Chinen suddenly stopped crying and looked up. Maybe Kami-sama was helping him to choose his path since he was not able to decide them on his own. Maybe that was why Ryo-sama was acting extraordinary today. Maybe Ryutaro was the one who could gave him a better life afterall.
Thinking of those, Chinen stood up. He gripped his fist tightly and rushed towards the main entrance. There was nothing that he needed to pack though.
“If you choose to come with me, come look for me out here tonight. I will be waiting for you here. No matter how long it takes, I will still be waiting for you. I love you, Chinen. I do.
What Ryutaro said earlier was still echoing in his ears.
If that is true..if that is true, then Ryutaro should be waiting for me... outside the gate.
Unite-nation
Chinen reached the main entrance and immediately saw the shadow he was waiting for outside the gate. He was panting in a rapid speed, excited and happy that he could finally leave the mansion.
“Ryu-Ryutaro!!” Chinen yelped, waving his hands in the air.
Hearing his name, Morimoto immediately turned around and was delighted to know that Chinen chose him over his Ryo-sama.
“Chinen!!” he waved back with a big grin on his face.
“Tehe!” Chinen chuckled. He tried to unlock the door so that he could say his last good bye to the mansion. He carefully inserted the key into the key hole. Just before he turned it, a llighthing thunder stike.
“Kyaaaaaaaaaaaaa-!!” Chinen shrieked in fear, bending down covering his ears.
“Chinen! Chinenn!! It's just a thunder, daijoubu, Chinen!” Ryutaro hated that he was standing outside the mansion and he could not rushed by Chinen's side immediately.
You can’t run, Even you can’t hide,
You have no way out, in the place of plastic kingdom.
Tears were forming in Chinen's eyes. He hated thunder the most. He was so afraid that he could not even stood up.
“Yuri.”
Chinen suddenly remembered how Yamada used to comfort him when there were thunderstorms.
“Yuri, don't worry. I am here, I am always here, Yuri. They can't hurt you. I won't let them laid a finger on you.” Yamada pushed Chinen's bangs up and kissed his forehead lovingly as Chinen snuggled into his blanket, “Pro-promise...?”
“I promise..” Yamada replied with a warm smile that actually made Chinen believed him. He was holding Chinen's small hand tightly and comforting him until the younger fully fell asleep.
How could he ever forget about the warm temperature passed from Ryo-sama's palm and all the sense of protection he gave him? How dare he got overly excited just because he met something new, something that he never seen nor have any contact with? How cruel could it be for him to leave Ryo-sama all alone who was trying his best to protect him with that hurt and thorn heart? Ryo-sama may be hurting him from the outside, but is it too late now to only realised that he had always been hurting Ryo-sama badly deep in his heart.
Chinen felt something in his heart. He stood and stayed still for a moment before he started moving his feet slowly back into the mansion.....
“Chinen! Daijoubu?” Ryutaro asked concernly.
Chinen stopped. He turned around and stared at Morimoto... The rain started dripping..
“....Chinen..?” Morimoto again stretched his hand into the gate, asking Chinen to grab on him. The rain started to pour.
You can’t run, Even you can’t hide,
I know you will come to the place of plastic kingdom.
A single drop of tears rolled down from Chinen's cheek. It would be the last drop of tears he shed for people other than his Ryo-sama, “Gomen...Ryutaro..”
Chinen shut his eyes and turned his head back. His legs started moving without his command. His body knew where he really wanted to go, and his heart knew where he belonged to. He was dashing towards where he belonged. He needs Yamada.
“Chinennnn--!!” Chinen could heard the boy out there shouting his name, but he knew he must be by Yamada's side now.
Gomen, Ryutaro.. Hontouni gomenasai..but thank you very much.. Because of you, I finally know how important Ryo-sama is to me. Because of you, I finally understand what is love. Because of you, I finally realised who was the person I loved the most. Because of you, I finally realised who loved me the most. And because of you, I finally noticed how important it was to treasure my loved one, Ryo-sama... Thank you Ryutaro.I'm sorry that I could not love you back, but you'll always remain as a special person deep in my heart. Thank you...and sorry..
Chinen bit his lips. He was rushing to Yamada's bed room when he felt his heart beating faster and faster. Yes this is the feeling. He smiled. It hurts. It is bitter and sour as well, but at the same time, there is also sweet, warmness and care... This must be it right? So this is the feeling of love. I finally get my answer. I finally know what is 'love'.
Tears streamed down again. Chinen was so desperate to see his Ryo-sama now. He knew that he could not wait any longer. When was the last time he was so desperate for something..?
Finally Yamada's bedroom was in his sight. Without hesitation, Chinen pushed open the door and and stopped, breathing heavily, searching for his Ryo-sama.
The broken pieces of the vase and the crushed roses were still spreading all over, but Chinen did not mind them. His emotions were indescribably happy when he saw Yamada covering himself with a thin layer of blanket sitting by the window. He was watching the raining scene out the window blindly as the moonlight showered on him, not even noticing that Chinen was in the room.
“.....Ryo-sama..” it took Chinen a lot of courage to interupt his master, but he wished that Yamada could look at him and noticed his existence.
Yamada slowly turned around. The two rows of tears down his cheeks were glimmering in the moonlight. At the very second Yamada noticed it was Chinen standing there, he turned back and groaned, “Why are you here? I asked you to leave!” He pulled the blanket closer to himself, trying to hide his crying face. Chinen was the first person to see Yamada crying.
You can’t run, Even you can’t hide,
I am king of desire of the love….
“Ryo-sama..” Chinen tried to get closer to Yamada, but the lightning strike again.
“Kyaaaaaaaaaaaa--!!!” Unintentionally, Chinen cried in fear again as he squad.
“Yuri!!” Yamada immediately got up and rushed by Chinen's side, hugging him gently, warmly.
“Ryo-Ryo-sama..” Chinen was shivering as he tugged on Yamada's shirt.
“Yuri, please leave me. You know you always wanted to be out there. I could not ensure to control myself any longer, so please, Yuri, please leave this house..I want you to be...happy..” Yamada slowly let go his hands, begging Chinen with his vibrating voice. It was the second time he cried that day.
“Hold me tight then...” Chinen refused to losen his hands. He looked up and licked up the traces of tears like a cat, “Ryosuke.” he whispered by Yamada's ear.
Yamada was stunned by his lover's sudden act. He never did something like that...but he did not hate it. No at all, infact...he liked it.
“This is the only place to make me happy....” Chinen said softly, poking at Yamada's chest which signified his heart.
“..Yuri..?” Esctasy ran in him and he did not know what to react.
Chinen smirked devilishly and called him back the original way, “Hai...Ryo-sama?”
“...No.” was Yamada's reply and he started to press their lips against each other, ravishing Chinen's lips, “Call me 'Ryosuke'..” he commanded as he continued to taste his lover's lips, “You're the only one left in this world who ca-called my name... Call them.. I want to listen to you calling my name..”
“Mmmm..Ryo-Ryosuke..mmhhh!!” Chinen seemed to enjoy the moment very much. These kisses were different than what he had experieced before he realised his feelings. These kisses were deeper yet softer. Most importantly, he could feel all the loves he need in the kiss.
“I love you...Yuri..” Yamada increased his rhythm in the kissing. Chinen was too busy enjoying himself to reply his ex-master, now lover.
When they finally broke apart, both of them were panting heavily. Chinen was so tired that he leaned against Yamada's chest. He closed his eyes to take some rest.
“...Ne, Yuri..” Yamada need to gasped for some air during the interval of his talk, “...why did you came back..?”
Chinen opened his eyes, “...Because I love you, Ryosuke..” He looked up at Yamada who was watching him with loving eyes. “You always told me that I have nothing else but you. It's true.. But ne, Ryosuke, you can't lose me too...and I know that you need me.” Looking at the smile on Yamada's face, Chinen knew that his lover was satisfied with his answer..but he had not finished answering yet, “And because......” Chinen strecthed his head higher and steal a kiss from Yamada's lips, causing the elder boy to blush hardly.
(And you are)
“I am addicted to the love.”
-END-
*hides hides*
*peek*
firstly, thanks to aya for all her support
if it want her, i probably wont have the courage to post this up *blush*
haii.. i'm taking a break from the multichap so i wrote a one-shot....gomen m(_ _)m
and i cant believe my first one-shot will be a story like this O_O
i mean, i hav lots of ideas in my notebook for one-shot stories
and all of them are fluffs one XD i promised myself not to write any of them till i finished 'butterfly'
but.... UEDA-SAMA suddenly gave me this idea a few days ago
so i cannot hold on to myself and it ended up like this... >_>
hontouni gomanasai...
its my first time writing things like this,
so please comment. Just a comment will make me realyyyyyyy happy XD
i love the song yes i do XDD (and NO I AM NOT M >D)
ne ne,
if u like this fic, THANK UEDA-SAMA XD (he made me write this)
but if u dun like this fic, BLAME UEDA-SAMA XDDDD *SHOTT*
but neeeee,
dun u think that CHINEN really looks like a doll??? (i mean LOOKS LOOKS XD)
TELL ME HE DOESNT LOOK LIKE ONE
TELL ME HE DOENT LOOK LIKE ONE
TELL ME HE DOESNT LOOK LIKE A DOLL
TELL MEEEEEHHH D:
all credits go to their respectful owner
and YESH I'M TAKING MY OPPURTUNITY TO SPAM MY CHINEN'S PICS HERE XDD
about chinen getting injured in lots of photo we've seen
MAYBE ITS BECAUSE OF YAMACHAN XD *SHOT DEAD*
nahhh, just kidding
i'm pretty worried abut him
hope that he'll get better and cheer up soon >.<
still have lots of things to talk about
but *sighs*
BROTHERS xp
well, COMMENTS ARE REALLY REALLY APPRECIATED AND LOVEDDDDD
so please please let me know wat u think
i'm still worried @_@
well, JA~ XD
*flailing over UEDA SAMA*